it started when i was born i was born on December 8th 2002 I lived with my mom and dad, but it was down hill the only thing i remember from my dad was how he hit me with a spatula and he would but soap in my mouth that's all i can remember. but i also remember not being home i would always stay with my mom's best friend that's all i can remember i know my brain is shielding me from a lot more because i can't remember my childhood from when i lived in the apartments. i do remember a dream that i had which was real i was in the car and i saw the police going into our apartment but that's all, but after we left the apartments my mom and dad started court to see who got custody of me during that time I was so frustrated at my mom for everything that happened but what's funny even when I was younger i was 4 to 5 years old then when all of this happening i still couldn't remember anything that happened i feel like something happened and something is protecting me from finding out, but anyways during the court battles i was always so scared and anxious because i never knew what was happening at all and it was scary. My mom also very abusive like i said she is more verbally and mentally abusive, i remember a lot of my mom yelling at me there were time were i was scared that she would hit me so there were times my grandma stood in between us just in cause my mom would also tell me that she wished never had me and stuff like i don't want to go into detail about it. But my mom won the court battle and visitation started and i still remember the first day i cried saying i want my mom i want my mom, i hated visitation also my dad never paid child support at all and i was so glad when visitation was over because i really hated being in the same room with dad because i never knew what was going to happen to me when i was there. So yeah that was almost everything that happened to me when i was 4 to 5 years old i obviously didn't say everything that happened because there are things that are left out if it because i don't want to go in to every little detail but that is jest of a lot of things that happened and why i have childhood trauma and PTSD so yeah.