omg hi i havent been on here in 5-everrr, i honestly kind of miss it & reading 24/7 & meeting friends on here lol. 

so, some things that have changed.

Im 18 now :) and I turn 19 in a month, and im going away to college in 15 days lol. super excited & nervy. 

I quit my old job & worked a new one for the summer, & i make bank now lol to save up for college. 

I GOT MY FIRST KISS !! it was sooo awk & lowk cringe LOL so it happened last october, a month after i turned 18 & he was 20😧  i went on a date w him, j a bunch of small talk, turns out he wasnt funny :(. he dropped me off at my house afterwards & i was telling him bye, ab to leave, & he goes, "no kiss?" like BITVDSHSDFIOVH YA NO KISS U MF 😭 it gave me the ick but i didnt know what to do so i leaned over & kissed him QUICK lol then left & later i had to tell him it wouldnt work out lol. 

BUT i threw a party this February, i kissed these two guys that were there LOL i swear im not a player, i literally usually dont do that type of stuff AT ALL. And my friend was there who i used to have an on and off crush on, he started talking to me & then one thing led to another & we kissed. and then other stuff 😃aka 🍒💥 haha....  lol it was a lot less awk than i thought itd be, we laughed most of the time, but now he has a gf lolz but thankfully i came to my senses quick & im over him, i was j clinging onto my 8th grade crush lol. 

anddd now majority of my friends dropped me & now hate me bc i had a falling out w two of them, (bc i drank too much one night, they had to take care of me,) and whenever id apologize they told me it wasnt genuine 🤣so now the ppl i believed to be my closest friends have dropped me &/or taken the sides of everyone else so ive spent the summer getting to know who my genuine friends are, focused on myself, my job, & preparing for college, & im vry excited to start this new chapter in my life :))) 

ALSO IM SEEING HARRY IN PIT IN NOVEMBER IM SO EXCITED A;KLDFNALDG I saw him last november but had farther seating, it was so good & i saw louis in february, I LOVE HIM HIS VOICE IS SO SOS SO SO SO OSS SO SO CUTE IRL, SO HIGH PITCHED AND PERFECT OMFKJSDKF 

ok thats all, i feel like no one will acc read this lol but it feels good to write this all out since ive been having a hard time & feel liike i have no one to talk to lolz. i do wanna come on here more ofthen tho bc everyone here is so nice & funny <3