Apparently I need a part 2, geez.

So, as you may know my boyfriend and I are going through things, and there's one thing I should have clarified, he's a barber.

Anyway, in case you don't knows what's going on, here is a recap:

Halloween party at mine, some of my mates tell me there's a guy and I might like him. We talk, we meet, love boom! Sleep over at his with his mates, they're all drunk and high. I am drunk. I go out with three guys, they all have a cig. I compliment his best mate. May 4th 2020, get a text from boyfriend he wants a break, I ask why. A guy said that I flirted with his best mate. I have two suspects. I didn't and he agreed with me. Boyfriend then says he's not happy with himself, won't get help. So then, I tell him fine and I'm upset, he apologises. Next day we talk, we're fine. Text die down. 18th June, 2020. Is my last message to him. He ghosts me for 2 weeks. Saturday comes around 4th July, he texts me.

UP TO DATE! LETS GET ON WITH THE UPDATE!

I ask him if he's 'breaking up with me, if so I already got the message'. He says, 'been busy for weeks'. I say, 'ok'. He says, 'why you think that'. I tell him why. He says 'I'm sorry darling'. (This is all paraphrased)

He truly has no idea why I'm upset, I didn't respond for the rest of the day because I was at a friends house for her birthday (social distancing still don't worry).

He's asking me if I'm ok and stuff and I tell him I'm busy. We'll talk tomorrow.

I ended up texting, not calling, since my Step-Sister came round for her birthday.

Sunday, 5th July 2020.

As I said, he's a barber, and they're just opening up again in England, so they've been cleaning stuff down and getting prepared for weeks.

I ask if he wants to meet me next Saturday, it's been too long. He can't too busy with work. I ask the weekend after, he says still too busy. Will be until booking calms. I ask if he's at work today...

No, he's at Connors.

So I ask, but you're working next Sunday? He goes, yeah since *boss* is open that day.

Just saying, all these texts are paraphrased, and I added a 'x' to each one so he could see it as sarcastic and bitchy, or as me being me. So, I could have deniability (haha Hamilton) if he asked 'why are you being so arse-y?' Which, if you don't know is British language for moody.

I say, what is the most backhanded, bitchiest comment I could make. I say:

'Oh, well that's good... you know, that you managed to squeeze in some time with Connor. Anyway, I'll leave you to hang out with Connor. xxx'

And what does he say?

'Thanks xx'

I've not messaged him since Sunday, I'm done making all the effort now. I am done.

That's where I am with him, and I don't think I can look at him the same way ever again.