I should prepare for an existential crisis...
Or I mean any kind of crisis really

So I was tagged by __Timid__ to do this.

Dear ex;

Lol I don't have one

Dear self (oh boy this is gonna be fun);

Stop being so passive. Stop taking pride in how antisocial you are and making jokes about it. Stop getting irritated so easily. Instead of making jokes about how unhappy and pathetic you are, try maybe getting better. Stop being so lazy. Stop running away from your problems and repressing your emotions. Stop using humor and sarcasm to avoid emotional confrontation (this tag is a good start) Stop procrastinating so much. And stop beating yourself up about your imperfections.

Dear dad;

I love you so much. I'm sorry when I make you angry. I know your sensitive and I should keep that in mind. I'm sorry I don't usually do what you ask and I'm sorry if it makes you feel like what you say doesn't matter what you say matters a lot to me bc I love you so much. And I love joking around with you and watching silly old movies together.

Dear mom;

I love you, I love spending time with you and I love how close we are. Thank you for being there for me and putting up with me. You're amazing and I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel like uou aren't. I love you :)

Dear crush;

I don't have one bc I am emotionally closed off.

Dear school;

FUCK YOU
I've written a lot about school and you guys know how much I hate it. And most of the people there are horrible and I don't like being around them it really gets me down. And school feels like a prison, it makes me not want to get an education. And I actually really want to be smart and get an education but I hate school so much that I don't even want that anymore. School makes me miserable and I feel like I'm in prison when I'm there.

Dear siblings;

little sister, you irritate and aggravate me and we fight a lot (We were actually fighting like two seconds ago) but I really love you so much and I hope you know that. I wish you'd talk to me more about your feelings. I hate when you hide things from me, I want I know what's growing on with you. I hope that when you grow up you aren't judgemental and closed minded. You're influenced easily and I hope you grow out of that bc you're amazing and you shouldn't change for other people. And if any one makes you unhappy pls tell me so I can comfort you and murder them. Ily :)

Big brother, you're really annoying but it's funny and I love you anyway. You're a really good brother and I don't tell you that and I'm sorry for that.

Bigger brother, I love you and I love hanging out with you. I love coming in ur room and just listening to music together. I love it when you show me the songs you learnt to play because it makes me feel special and like you're comfortable with me. I like singing green day with you. But you're very sensitive and I hate when you get upset with me bc it makes me really sad.

Dear past self;

If I could write smt to my past self I wouldn't bc I don't want to fuck up the space time continuum or wtv. But if that problem was somehow eliminated then I would say:
Dear past self, first of all listen to tfb and tøp cuz god dammit ur taste in music is shit. Also seriously stop trying to please everyone and caring so much what people think, you're not Blurryface. Honestly you'd be so much happier. And don't make friends with people who make you feel like shit. Honestly like why tf did you even do that.

Dear future self;

Again with the screwing with time thing...

I wouldn't say anything to my future self bc I don't want to know what happens later. I want to have hope and be surprised. The future is scary but I like it that way.

Dear best friend;

(I'm not including internet frens)
You're really funny and sweet and please don't let me hold you back from making more friends. You always seem to want to hang out with other people but you don't want to leave me alone. I'm fine with being alone, I actually like it most of the time. But I don't want to be the reason you're alone. Also don't listen to people that are mean to you. You're an amazing person and you're beautiful and they're probably just jealous cuz you're the best. Don't let them get you down. I hope we're friends forever and if we do drift apart I hope you remember me nostalgically but you don't get sad. I love you and I want you to be happy.

Dear future child;

I don't know you and I don't even know if I'll ever even have a child. But if I do please know that I'll love you no matter what. You can talk to me about anything. I don't care if you turn out gay or trans or you don't want to go to school or you're a kleptomaniac; I love you and you can talk to me about anything. I'm open to whoever you are and I support all of your decisions even if I disagree(but I mean if you're a kleptomaniac or a murderer or smt you might need to see a therapist). Don't be scared to confront me and talk to me about your feelings. I hope we're best friends. I hope we have the kind of relationships me and my mom have. I'm sorry for when I inevitably screw up and I'm sorry if you take after me with all my health problems. I hope you forgive me. I also hope you're happier than me. I hope you don't ever feel anxious or depressed. And if ever you do please talk to me, don't keep it to yourself. Also I hope you get my taste in music and style cuz that'd be great. I love you so much and I don't even know you yet. I don't know if you'll ever exist but I already love you.

Dear person I hate;

When I first saw you I already kind of assumed you were a bitch. But it's unfair to judge people before you get to know them, so I gave you a chance. Turned out I was right; you'd constantly judge people and gossip and it was horrible. I started to distance myself from you. We weren't even really friends yet, we just spoke a few times for like a week. And I realized you were a sucky person so I avoided you a bit. And I heard you talking behind my back one day so I told you off and shut you out. You're such bitch just your voice annoys me. And for three years it worked fine. I disliked you, you disliked me, and I ignored you the best I could. But last year you crossed the line. You made my best friend cry and I for that I will gauge your eyeballs out and shove them down your throat and you will choke to death. Before I just strongly disliked you, bc idgaf what you say about me, but you fucked with my best friend and I absolutely hate you. I used to say "I hope she wins the lottery and moves to Europe" cuz I just wanted you out of my life. But now I say things like " I hope she falls down cement stairs and is paralyzed forever" because I despise you. Plz just gtfo.

Dear person I love;

I don't know who to direct this to bc I love my friends (irl and one the internet) and my family but I'm not in love with anyone. So this is for anyone I love:
Dear you, Io e you and I hope you know that. Whoever this is, please if you need to talk just remember I'm here for you and even if we don't talk much you can always start a convo out of nowhere. Also if I don't start convos with you I'm sorry. It doesn't mean I don't love you, I'm just too awkward and anxious to start convos ad when I do I feel like I'm bothering you. Pls remember I love you and want more than anything for you to be happy.

Dear ex best friend

I used to really like you and we got along but we drifted apart and I'm sorry for that. I don't miss you tho. I had a great time with you and I'm happy we were friends, but if I had the chance to start over I wouldn't. You didn't do anything wrong, I just moved on.

Dear celebrity crush;
Which one? Lol it's so weird cuz I ship my celebrity crushes with other ppl and they're all at least ten years older than me.

Dear future wife/husband;
I love you with all my heart and I'm sorry if I fuck up a lot. I want you to forgive me. I'm sorry you have to put up with me and I hope that I can believe you love me as much as I love you. I'm a sappy romantic person and I try too hard and I hope you like it cuz it's the only thing that might make you like me. I hope I make you happy and I hope we grow old together. I don't know if I'll ever get married but if I do I love you.

Dear girlfriend/boyfriend;
I don't have one

Dear people that hate me;
There's probably a lot of you, and I'm ok with that because I know I'm not going to be everyone's cup of tea, but I make at least a few people happy and I'm fine with that.

Dear people that love me;
I love you too and I want every single one of you to be as happy as possible and it kills me to know that that isn't the case. But I hope I contribute at least to your happiness at least a little bit because you are so important to me.

That's it. I'm actually not crying, that felt kind of good. I want everyone to do this, so if I forget to tag you pls do it anyway.

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