Happiness is an inside job that comes out for me when I help others, makes others happier and I know the reason that they are happy because of me. Small things in life are what life Is living worth for. The moments that we live last forever. You all must be thinking I m a very happy living being. I can't describe my state, but I have decided to be happy irrespective of the things going around me. I m just living a normal routine life with my 9 to 5 job, doing my household chores nothing extraordinary but yes I have decided to make others happy. I provide basic education for the underprivileged students, take free classes during the weekend, play with the orphan kids and I feel this is making me happier than the other way round. First Let me introduce myself, I m Aashna Desai, what a beautiful and unique name right. My name means the one who is devoted to love. Someone who gave me such a beautiful name must be who loved me a lot. Yes, you are right, my grandma named me, and she was the only one who loved me. she died when I was 8 years old and those years spent with her were the most memorable ones, she taught me to be humble, how kindness does good to oneself and what I m today is because of her value system installed in me. I still remember my grandma telling me to be kind whenever possible.

I was born to Desai family, a renowned family in Mumbai, an upper-middle-class family, who were in entertainment business. I was not born according to their standards, was born rather average looking, it's used to be very difficult for them to introduce me to their colleagues, and in that meantime, my younger sister was born, Ruhi Desai, who was the perfect gene of my parents. My sister Ruhi was an epitome of beauty, so obviously they stopped taking me out and I was at home then attending parties. As I grew up I gained a lot of weight which added more embarrassment to my family. I was rather left out, and after a few years it didn't matter to me, but we didn't feel like family, and I know deep down they were embarrassed by their average plump daughter who chooses to be a professor rather be in the entertainment business.

I realized very early in life that I was not fit in this beautiful Desai family but I knew academically I was a very good student. Always was a distinction student, my teachers would always praise me for me not only academically good but for being well behaved, but my good qualities were never seen. Don't blame them, they did what they felt like. But irrespective of all the things happening in my life, I love myself, I know I m an average looking, plump girl but I love myself and that is important for me to keep positive in life. After graduating from university, I quickly found job as a professor at the same university. I  have a job, I work, my favorite hanging spot is the library than home and live a contented life. I m 26 years old, I stand 5feet 7 inches, with black wavy hair, spectacles on nose and no hope for romantic notions. I know I don't attract the opposite gender because of my outer appearance and the people around my family are more appearance judging then the inner soul.

The funny thing is that everyone thinks I'm the most unromantic person who looks at the practicality of life and that's how I m tagged. But they will never know I m a hardcore romantic girl who dreams about her prince charming who's  love I m waiting. But dreams are dreams. I love reading romantic or erotic romance novels where ultimately love wins and they live happily ever after. I know I may sound naïve sometimes to believe in love and all, as my parents say and why not to believe them when all fairy tales have a heroine who is extremely beautiful and slim and nowhere like me, but dreaming is beautiful, it takes you away from the harsh reality into your escape dream and i m hopeful that someone may love my inner soul