Chapter 32
Aphmau's Dairy

"Not everything in life has it's special moments"

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Aaron

I know that searching through someone's things is something you'll get in trouble for later but I couldn't take it anymore.

Looking through Aphmau's side table, searching through to find that small book she was writing in last night before we went to bed.

I came upon a ton of paper and underneath was the book Aphmau was writing in.

It was a small, purple diary was covered stickers and a lock with a small key attached to it.

I open the book not to be surprised by 'do not read' but it won't hurt just to read a few pages, right?

I started reading and flipping through pages that I could but ended up with the first page to read.

September 1st, xxxx

Dear Diary,

I believe I'm a good person. You know I think that there's good in everyone, but here we are!

First day of freshman year. I didn't actually think I would make it here but this is finally the moment I get to see what high school is all about.

I see a lot of tall people walking towards a table that might be the place I need to go to. I walk towards the table and I ask for my schedule. They ask for my name and they give me my schedule for the year.

I scanned through it without even looking in front of me, I accidentally bumped into to someone. I said sorry and they said it was fine.

He had white hair which was pretty weird since most people don't have that. He also had light green eyes and he was pretty much taller than me.

He helped me up and we exchanged names with each other.

Travis was his name.

We walked to our first hour together since we had the same hour and oh my Irene, the school was huge.

I walked to my locker first before entering my class but it wouldn't open. Then, a tall male walked towards me. He had blonde hair that was pretty dark and light blue eyes that someone could get lost in. I started blushing and he asked me if I needed help.

I shook my head and he punch my locker which then open.

I thanked him and we also exchanged names with each other.

Laurence was his name.

He walked away and I immediately felt my heart go boom.

Just like how I felt with the guy I met this morning when I accidentally bumped into him.

He had light blonde hair and baby blue eyes which matched perfectly with him. He was tall and I couldn't help myself with him.

Ugh, what am I thinking?

I really need to stop bumping into people today because I've already bumped into someone earlier to.

He was a lot more taller than the other guys I've met today.

Black hair, black eyes and a bandage on the side of his cheek.

He glared at me but I just smirked at him and told him to watch where he was going.

Well, I've writing to much, first entry and only 4 more years to go before college starts.

Huh, what more can happen during high school?

I finished the first page and started skipping through more and more.

She wrote a lot of things from when she found out I was FC to the moment we share a kiss.

I smile at that moment. I made me realize I had a crush on her.

I skipped through some other papers until I came upon college.

We met again during college and became close again.

It was like high school all over again. I also remembered my feelings for her and how I was around her.

My fingers traced along her writing until I stopped at a word that caught my eye.

October 3rd, xxxx

Dear Diary,

I decided to write in the diary again because some things have happened to me.

Word got around the school and people started looking at me weirdly.

They called me names.

They called me a slut and a hussy though I haven't actually slept with any guys yet.

Most people who called me those things were ignorant little bitches that actually looked like sluts.

I didn't see what they were talking about since they should have looked at themselves in the mirror. I know that someone had started rumors about me because they were out for revenge.

I know I didn't do anything to this person yet because I had only been here for a month.

My life is turning to hell and all I can do is cry and wait for all these rumors to pass by.

I wonder how that note I was given a few days ago could blow up so quickly.

I stopped reading and I couldn't believe what I was reading.

On the next page, something had fell out of the book and I picked it up and opened what had fell out of the book.

"Stay away from him, hussy!"

My eyes widened as I knew this is something I should have caught in college when I had to her.

From what I remembered, she seemed more depressed and she hid herself away from people.

I put that note back in the book and turned to after college which got a lot better for her.

I smile as I knew things got better for her.

March 12, xxxx

Dear Diary,

I can't believe what just happened today. No, not that I'm writing this while everyone around me is asleep.

Today was the last day of A-Con but what was even more better is the guy I had a crush for quite some time now, asked me to be his girlfriend.

I didn't know what to say. We had already talked about waiting but I know we had waited for this moment for a long time.

I might have told him things why he shouldn't date me and waste him time on me but then, our lips connected together and we kissed.

I was blushing like crazy when we disconnected but I said yes to him and that's how my day went out.

I love you, Aaron. I may not be able to say it to you but I hope you know that.

I could feel myself smiling too much. I hope she knows I love her too, more than anything in this world.

I flip through my pages and there were a lot more things about me.

Man, I love her.

Again, I found another page that caught my eye but this one was something that got me more curious. Another page that dated back before we broke up.

November 21st, xxxx

Dear Diary,

I don't know what happened to me. It seemed like something in me snapped and I couldn't stop.

It released the pain I was hiding for a long time.

I started cutting myself. I don't know why but something in me just wanted to do things I didn't want to do.

I know that if Aaron found out I was doing this to myself, he wouldn't forgive himself for what I did to myself.

He would also get mad at me too but I can't stop! It's so addicting but it hurts so much.

Also, remember when I said when Aaron finds out about me, cutting?

He found out.

Now, I'm here, sitting on the floor, crying while writing this.

Well, I might as well leave it here.

I remember this day.

I felt a tear streaming down my cheek. I hurt her so badly and I guess what I received that day was my fault.

"Aph, why would you do this to yourself!"

"I don't know!"

"Don't tell me 'I don't know' when you have a reason to tell. I could have just told me and I would have done something for you. You know why I care? It's because I love you and I don't want anything to happen to you!"

"I tried to tell you but you didn't listen!"

Tears were falling down our faces. We couldn't even look at each other.

I didn't even notice Aphmau had left until she slammed the door from upstairs.

I had more tears coming down my face.

I knew that if I didn't fix this, I would be sleeping on the couch.

I walked upstairs to our bedroom door and knock on the door.

"Aphmau, baby, can you let me in, please?"

"No, go away!"

I could hear her crying but I didn't know what say next.

C'mon Aaron, think of something!

You'll be sleeping on the couch if you don't fix this.

"Aphmau, I'm sorry that I got mad at you. I just wanted you to know that it something you should being to yourself"

"It can emotionally damage us inside and being back things we don't want in our lives. Please, open the door so we can talk about this"

"I promise I won't hurt you, get mad at you or say anything. I just want to see you open this door and then have things go back to normal"

"Please."

I put my head on the door and hear the door unlock.

I set back and saw her opening the door. I went to her and hugged her tightly. I didn't want to let this go.

"Can we try this again?"

She nods and I place a small kiss upon her forehead.

I glad things might actually get better.

I remember that moment far to well. It broke me inside a lot just to thing about that moment again.

I didn't want to let her go again even though we broke up and then go back together again.

It was hard for me to deal with since my parents weren't a big thing on me dating. I didn't care what they said and I went back to her.

It was smartest thing I did and I don't regret it.

Skipping through more pages, I come to a page that date back to our year apart.

April 27th, xxxx

This might be the last time I will see Aaron until next year.

The doctors say he's stable but he's in pretty bad condition.

He did some much for me just to see me smile again.

I'm glad his dead now but all I care is that I won't be able to see Aaron again.

During my week while I was still at the lodge, I would be still in his suite waiting for the doctors to let me see him again but I couldn't because of his eyes.

I couldn't eat, sleep or even move. All I could do was wait and cry until I can see him again.

Eventually, my mother came to see me and see how I was doing.

I wasn't in good condition.

I cried and told her everything that happened.

My mother got mad at the part where I couldn't see him but that didn't stop her from going into his room and start yelling at them.

I fought back at her but it didn't stop her. Then, Aaron's dad told everyone to leave but me.

They sighed and left the room and I was the only one left.

He told me that he tried to protect Aaron from being hurt but it made things worse.

He realized what he had done wrong but I knew he was only trying to protect him.

He asked why I knew he came here for. I told him no and them he told me he needed money for the summer.

He wanted to take me the place I could have never gone to as a child because my mother didn't have enough money.

He wanted to take me to Starlight Wonderland.

I started crying even more knowing this is my fault because I knew if I had came, no one of this would have happened.

Then, he left me with Aaron and all I could do was cry.

I went to the side he was laying on and laid my head on his.

I told him things he might not hear but at least he knows.

Now, I'm here in the backseat of a car driving away from lodge.

I hope to see him again.

Maybe in our year to come.

I remember being trapped in darkness for such a long time and when I woke, it seemed like it was a dream when it wasn't.

I put back all those thoughts into the back of my head and scan though more pages.

Here we go, a page that dated back to Starlight.

September 2nd, xxxx

I couldn't believe this moment finally came. It's even more exciting than when I saw Aaron again.

I never thought this moment would come for me.

I thought that because I wasn't like other girls.

Girls who were prettier than me and much taller than me.

But when I finally started dating the guy I never thought would actually say those words to me, I thought it might actually have come.

Now, I smiling happily and tears of happiness streaming down my face.

Aaron proposed to me.

I didn't know what to say. I was crying of happiness and then those words finally came out.

"Yes, yes, yes, yes!"

I ran to him and he picked me up and we share a kiss.

He slipped the ring onto my ring finger and I was in dazy.

I was the happiest I could have even been.

I knew this was start of a happy future for us.

I'm glad I can call his mine, now.

I'm glad I could call her mine, now. You don't know how hard it took for me to go up to her and say those words to her.

When she said yes, I knew I accomplished something in my life and that was finding my mate.

I went to the very last page of her diary and my eyes widened.

December 23rd, xxxx

I can't believe this. I can't believe this.

I don't even know if he even wants one with me.

I'm pregnant.

I'm pregnant with Aaron's baby.

It started out a few days ago when I got sick in the mornings and it continued on for those days to come.

Now, I'm writing in this book again telling you I'm pregnant.

I wonder it Aaron even wants to start a family with me.

We've only been married for a few months now and it's a big step to take when started a family.

I hope he wanted to start a family with me.

I can't wait to surprise him, today. I just hope he'll be happy like how I am.

I close to book and put it back into her side table.

I can't believe it.

I'm gonna be a dad.

I start jumping of happiness when my ear twitches letting me know Aphmau's here.

"Aaron, I'm home~!"

I run downstairs to see her at the front door putting her coat away.

"Hey babe"

I kiss her forehead and I take her bag from her.

I set them on the counter and I look at her. She looks at me and giggles.

"What are you looking at?"

"Nothing, just my beautiful wife"

She blushes and she giggles more.

"Oh shut up, I'm not that beautiful" She rolls her eyes at me, mischievously.

"Hey Aaron?"

"Yeah?"

"Can I ask you something?"

"Sure, you can ask me anything"

She looks at me with a worried expression and then she continues on.

"Have you even stop to think about having kids?"

"Yeah, a few times. To start a family with my wife and then see them grow up"

I wrap my arms around her and pull her close to me.

"Well, what if someone told you that I was pregnant?"

"Than, I would do this"

I turned her around and kissed her. She sinked into the kiss and put her hands on my cheeks.

I pulled away and put my forehead onto her's.

"I promise to love you and our baby the same and protect you from anything that tries to come your way"

"I love you, Aphmau"

"I love you too, Aaron. I can't wait to start our family,"

"Together"

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