-----------------Mew's POV----------------

When Gulf suddenly said that he wants to fall for me I felt overwhelmed that my heart stopped for moment as I kept staring, I even wished that I could hear him say it again, I almost lost it, I got so embarrassed hearing that and seeing his super cute reaction, his coral cheeks quickly turning cardinal as he looked down bashfully was really too much for me to handle, his honesty will surely make me lose control sooner than what I thought

Well, hearing him that he was actually trying to give me a chance and wanting to fall for me makes me so hopeful, I couldn't even sleep that night and kept grinning all night long, I even started to imagine a future with him being my lover, living under one roof, kissing him and holding him showering him with all the love I have for him

Things were the same between us for a while, when we are together, we just forget about everything else and just enjoy our private little time we have since we could only meet for a while because of how busy he got recently acting in a movie and a series along with some modeling and TV shows he must take part in

"how things are between you and Kris while acting?" two weeks already passed since that incident with Kris

"it's fine, well it sometimes gets a bit awkward when we are left alone but he is also a professional and doesn't mix his private life with work that's why the filming is going smoothly" Gulf said reading his script while I was working on my laptop at my place

"I'm glad it didn't affect your work, I'm sure it's still hard for him"

"I know, I was feeling so guilty that I almost told him I wasn't the Gulf he knew and that I was someone else"

"it can't be helped, even if you told him there is a big chance he wouldn't believe you"

"I know, it's just seeing him so hurt made me so depressed, well I'm sure he would be devastated if he knew that the real Gulf that he loved may actually be dead"

"that's why it's better to keep hiding the truth, I'm sure he will move on one day"

"I just hope that he will fall for someone better and be happy with him"

"personally, I don't think he will be able to find someone better than you, in my eyes you are already perfect" I said as he turned staring at me, I noticed he was slightly blushing which made me smile as he quickly hid his face with the script

"hearing it from you makes me embarrassed"

"no need to be shy since it's the truth"

"thank you, btw, you should arrange for a meeting with your friends, I promised them I will meet them after everything is settled"

"really? Are you sure? Tad is a huge fan of yours and may get overbearing"

"it's fine, I want to get to know you better Mew, when you disappeared last time I realized I know nothing about you, I want to meet your friends and family, you also should tell me more about you" I stared at him in dismay for a while then felt so happy

"I will gladly tell you everything, just start asking"

"your birth date"

"21 February 1991"

"other than being the owner of the buildings what else do you do?" he asked sitting facing me as I saved my work and closed my laptop facing him

"translating stories and articles"

"favorite food"

"sushi and curry rice"

"favorite color"

"dark blue" just like that he kept asking me many questions, about me and my family and friends, he listened to my childhood stories and was excited when he knew I'm writing stories as a hobby and kept asking me for my username and the site I'm publishing on but I wanted to keep it as a secret since my latest story is about us and I want to keep it a secret from him for now

Talking like this made us a lot more closer than before, I also introduced him to my friends who was astonished by how close we are and Tad kept pushing me away having Gulf all to himself while Gulf was just having fun laughing and going with the flow taking hundreds of pictures with us under Tad's order

I also introduced him to my parents who happened to come visit and were excited seeing me being close with a very famous actor, of course Gulf was so nervous at first, he was shy and kept quiet only answering when they address him but slowly he relaxed and we had fun together, I somehow felt like we were a real family and it's making a little impatient but I never imagined that he would confess to me so suddenly like that

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One morning, I woke up to hundreds of messages from Tad, he kept asking if the rumors were true while I stayed confused until I read the latest news, some rumors started spreading around so fast about Gulf that shocked me so much and fully awakened me

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BREAKING NEWS

The Famous Actor Gulf KANAWUT is in a secret relationship with Miss X

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That was the headline of all the news both online and on TV with a picture of Gulf with a female actor walking around and even a video of them going into a hotel, getting a room and then going into the elevator, the first I thing I did was to call Gulf but he was busy with another call so I send him a message to call me as soon as he could

I started reading the comments and everyone's reaction to this huge news, many were shocked to see him with an unknown actress, some were supporting him saying that it's a part of his private life and that he is free to love whoever he wanted and some were talking bad about him like how could he do something like that secretly while acting innocent and honest on screen

This news shook me up a lot, I know that Gulf would never do smth like going out secretly with a girl in public, but the pictures and videos are genuine, hours passed and there was no new news from him or his agency, he also didn't contact me and before I knew it, it was already almost 10 pm, I got so worried and kept walking around my house, suddenly my door bell rang, I was stunned to see Gulf by the door

"come in" I quickly let him in, he was in disguise, he sat on the sofa looking exhausted

"I was so worried about you but you shouldn't have came here"

"I felt suffocated at my place and I knew you would concerned"

"you look so tired, let me prepare you a cup of tea to relax"

"thank you Mew, I already feel a lot better after coming here"

"so what happened?" I sat facing him as he took a sip from his cup

"I don't know how to explain it but it's a misunderstanding"

"the photos and video looked genuine"

"well it's true I was with her at that time and that we went to a hotel but there is nothing between us"

"can't you just tell me?" he looked down apologizing

"I'm really sorry, I promised her that I won't tell anyone, it's smth concerning her private life and I accidently found out about it so she asked me for help" usually Gulf would tell me about anything, it's the first time he refuse which made me a little doubtful

"how did you end up knowing that actress?"

"we are acting in the same movie although she's not the MC yet we have many scenes together" he explained

"you must have gotten close for you to find out her secret" I murmured looking down feeling hurt, just the thought of it makes my heart in so much pain

"I wouldn't say close but we get along well as co-actors and we are the same age, please Mew trust me there is absolutely nothing between us"

"then why won't you tell me the full story" he averted his eyes with a sad expression

"I'm sorry I really can't, we already spoke about the matter and decided to think of a solution to explain to the public about the video" seeing him being so secretive for girl makes me my heart ache a lot

"that's so mean Gulf, you already know my feelings for you and you even made me feel so hopeful about our relationship yet you refuse to explain everything to me even thought you clearly know that I won't tell anyone" I said looking away crying inside

"please Mew don't look like that, I really can't explain it since it has smth to do with- anyway, I already told you that you are my number one many times and I never lied to you when I said that I will-"

"please stop it Gulf, half a year already passed since I confessed to you and you gave me no clear answer, you were just going with the flow not wanting to hurt me, thank you for being sympathetic with me but I don't need, I'd rather be hurt for a while and then forget about you" I half yelled being so angry, I felt so wounded inside as he kept staring at me in shock

"I'm sorry" he simply said wearing back his disguise and left, the moment the door closed tears flew out of my eyes like heavy rain, I felt myself drowning in agony and sadness, I never thought heartbreak would hurt so much, now I know why Kris acted like that, I really respect him for being able to accept the reject and kept acting with him

Days passed and Gulf's news kept being in the top until Gulf decided to appear on TV to finally clear everything, honestly I didn't want to watch or hear anything about him but my friends who came over comforting me were watching the Live news, many reports and journalists were packed in the conference room waiting for the actor who finally walked facing all of them, he was looking serious and resolved

"Today, I came here to clear up all the rumors and the news about me and Miss XXX" he said after staring at them for a while

"we want the truth!" one of present people yelled

"don't tell us a fake story to cover for her!" another one yelled, Gulf wasn't shaken by what they said

"first of all I want to say that there is nothing between me and her, we are just co-actors in the same movie, so all the rumors about us being secret lovers is absolutely wrong"

"the photo and video showed that you are close" one reporter yelled

"it's because the one who took those pictures wanted to seem like that"

"then tell us what happened that night" Gulf looked down being troubled so even in front of everyone he still can't tell them, I was about to go to my room

"it's me who asked for his help" suddenly the actress said walking until she stood by Gulf's side, Gulf was obviously shocked by her appearance

"what kind of help will make you both go alone to an unknown hotel by night?" she smiled with sadness in her eyes as if she was... heartbroken

"I was in a secret relationship with Mister XX"

"isn't that the surname of the mafia group that got caught earlier today?"

"yes, I loved him for many years to the point that I agreed to help him with his underworld work, I was blinded by my love for him doing all kind of bad things just to be closer to him"

"what does that have to do with Gulf Kanawut"

"Gulf discovered my bad relationship and he witnessed one of the shady deals I was part of, he woke me up and encouraged me to stop what I was doing and to leave that man and so I decided to meet with a detective and tell him everything, the detective is a friend and we decided to meet secretly in a hotel, Gulf came along as a witness, I own it to him for saving me from a terrible relationship and drowning in the wrongdoing I was part of" everyone was shocked including me, was that the reason he refused to tell me? Because it had smth to do with the dangerous mafia group?

"then why didn't you explain earlier?"

"we wanted to protect those who are precious to us because if we explained this earlier we would have been their target along with everyone around us since as you know they are very dangerous so we waited until that detective got them all" Gulf explained

Listening to him make me regret even asking him that day, he was doing so much to protect his family and friends while I was just being jealous and yelled at him, I hate myself for doubting him and saying that I'd rather be hurt then forget about him, I'm so stupid

"I'm really sorry everyone and Gulf I'm also sorry for all the trouble I caused you" she apologized to him bowing for a while as everyone went silent just recording and snapping many pictures

"it's fine, but you know this incident made me disappointed, I thought that my fans and everyone trusted me but they started being doubtful believing stupid rumors like that, I promised many times that I would always be honest with you, please from now on don't believe any rumor until I myself confirm or deny it" he said looking directly to the camera which made me feel so shameful and cursing myself

"and since we are at it I have something I want to confess, although I said before that I will keep my private life a secret but I want to let everyone know that I already love someone, I'm so in love with him that I won't look at anyone else" I watched the TV with wide eyes, he was looking straight at the camera as if he was staring at me

"may we know who is this lucky person?" one reporter asked, he smiled

"Mew, I love you, I'm sorry for hurting you the other time I was thinking of your safety yet it seem I made you so sad and in pain, I wanted to confess to you officially on Christmas day but my plan got messed up, anyway, I hope you still love me because I'm crazy in love with you and I'm running to your place after this" he confessed stunning everyone, even my friends who were by my side kept looking at me as my heart kept thumping so loud telling that what I just heard is real

I was over the moon and nothing else mattered for me, tears of joy kept sliding down my cheek, being confessed by the one you love feel insanely amazing, all noise faded and I was only focused on Gulf's face who kept smiling answering their questions but he kept apologizing keeping all info about me a secret until he gets my permission

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"as I promised I can running as soon as it was over" Gulf said the moment I opened the door, he was in disguise breathing heavily, he looked pale, scared, worried and embarrassed, I quickly let him inside

"you watched the news right?" he asked anxious

"ye-yes" I couldn't talk much, I couldn't find words to describe my feelings seeing him in front of me, he looked relieved

"I'm sorry for suddenly confessing like that over the TV but I couldn't hold myself any longer, I wanted to clear things between us before it becomes worse

"really? You love me? As a man?" he smiled cutely and tenderly

"yes, I love you so much, I'm sorry it took so long, this incident and what you said last time pushed my feelings out and before I knew it I was head over heels for you, but before coming back to you I wanted to clear up the rumors and planned to confess on Christmas but I got impatient and blurted it out on Live" he blushed explaining everything, I jumped hugging him tightly

"I'm sorry Gulf, I'm sorry for getting jealous and being doubtful, I'm sorry for my hurtful words, I also love you so much, I've been waiting for this day, I..." he held me back calming me since I was already a mess tearing and sobbing, Gulf also started crying holding me closer

"our feelings are mutual, we are lovers now, and that's what only matter, I can't wait to go on our first date, to hold hands, to-" I held him connecting our lips in a deep emotional kiss without a warning, he flinched in surprise yet quickly relaxed kissing me back as we shared our first kiss that tasted salty due to our tears that didn't stop, It's the most memorable and precious moment of our life

"it seem we are meant to be together" he said smiling before we started kissing again.

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I know the confession was so sudden but don't worry the next chapters will be filled with their sweet moments together ;)