SHORT DRABBLE

SUMMARY: Apathy, noun: lack of interest, enthusiasm, or concern.

WARNINGS: Spoilers for AoT manga! angst, all hurt no comfort, I finally write to more darker sides of Yelena's personality, manipulation, toxic/abusive relationships, very minor mention to NSFW, no dialogue.

DYNAMIC: Unrequited love

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You didn't know what you did wrong, what you did to deserve all of this. She claimed to care, she claimed to love you, but she never showed it. Not once.

Not once did she show that she had the slightest concern for your well being, that she actually cared.

Yet, she stayed with you nonetheless. For personal gain or because she actually liked you, but didn't know how to show it, you didn't know.

You wanted to believe it was the former, that maybe she was just really closed off and didn't know how to express emotions well, but you knew you were only kidding yourself.

Never had she gifted you with anything of value, never had she touched you in any way that had feelings, never had she said the words "I love you", or "I'm here for you."

She only ever used you for her own self interest. If she wanted to get off, you'd be between her legs. If she needed someone to get mad at, you'd be at the receiving end of it. If she needed someone to guilt trip into doing things for her, you'd be running around tirelessly doing it.

You didn't know why you didn't leave her. Scratch that- you did. It was because she'd hurt you if you even tried to go against her.

Maybe you deserved what was happening, maybe you deserved to be punished like this for all the bloodshed you've caused.

You didn't know why she chose you to manipulate. You'd never know.

Because now, as you stared upon the thousands of Collosal Titans heading away from Paradis and towards Marley, you knew this'd be the end, that you wouldn't make it out alive.

And you knew that she wouldn't care at all.

WORD COUNT: 341