Bela

I glared at myself through the mirror near Mahir's Room.
You bloody deserve it coward!! You fucking do!!
Can't open up your feelings to anyone!!! Start crying like a kid when they reject you!?
What are you!!?
A Bloody five year old!! Are you!?
It's been a night! Just a night that l looked after Mahir!! He avoids me!! Looks here and there when l give him medications! Doesn't even make a slight eye contact with me!!! What should l do!?
Yuvi bid Bye to us a while ago and had left to Mumbai!! Mahir was a little ok when l was around him while Yuvi was there but now that Yuvi has gone!! How will he behave!!? Will the ignorance be to an extreme level!? I thought.
I was now standing infront of his room after leaving Yuvi till the entrance. I was nervous!! So nervous that l was scolding myself through the mirror. I sighed. You can do it Bela!! I encouraged myself, knocking the door.

Mahir-Come in!!
He said and my heart fluttered. I thought he won't respond. I smiled opening it with the key l had.

Bela-Good Morning!!
I wished, keeping the tray aside on the coffee table but he calmly stared at the view. I looked away not wanting to let those stubborn tears flow out of me. No use of crying Bela! Be Strong! You hurted him! That's the least punishment he could give you!

Mahir-Bela!!
He called and l snapped my head towards him. Did he call me for real!? Realllll!???? I turned around.
He sighed, patting the space beside him. I was quick enough to hop to him like an excited rabbit.
I sat beside him while he kept staring outside, resting his back on the headboard.

Bela-Y... you want s... something!?
I asked and he looked at me. My breath hitched as l took a glance of his handsome face and messy morning hair. Will he keep taking my breath away if it was an everyday thing!!?

Mahir-C.... Can we like stop acting strange!?
He asked seriously and l scrunched my eyebrows, confused. He took a deep breath.

Mahir-Past is Past now Bela! No one can change anything that had already happened! So l was wondering if we can just start off everything fresh and be friends!?
He asked and my eyes bulged out. For godsake is he for real?? Here am l realizing l love him and here is this dumbo! Telling we'll be friends after loving me one sided for nine damn years!
I'll kick him off the bed if he wasn't in a bad state!
I gave a tight smile wanting to tell a NO but then....
Can l get an advantage out of this!? My not so innocent inner self asked. I smirked within. Off course l can.
But his words shows that he trusts me. He is still putting his hand forward for a friendship even after l had hurted him a lot.
I sighed. As much as l wanted to tell a No l can figure it out later. Atleast the awkwardness will be away as l look after him.
I looked at him with a smile.

Bela-S.. sure!
I mumbled and that handsome grin he gave was enough to knock me off.
Goddd! It's gonna be damn hard to be his friend!
I got up and went towards the coffee table, picking the tray with food. l went back to him.

Bela-I have the rest of my cameo going on today! I'll take my leave!
I said and he nodded taking the tray from me.
I bit the insides of my cheek as l turned around to go but what he said made my heart skipped a beat,

Mahir-All the best!
I smiled going out of his room. Many had said it before l go to act but today when the one l love says it. It's a whole new feeling.