Bela

I sobbed, seeing the ICU as l drew my legs closer to my chest. By now it had been ten minutes since we came to the hospital! Throughout the ambulance ride they tried giving him oxygen through the equipments that were available but this stubborn brat didn't even feel to respond back to there attempts. The nurse in there suggested us to take him to the nearby hospital to give him saline and try getting his breath back with advanced equipments.
I buried my head on my thighs. I swear if anything will happen to this insane jerk l'll have to go in there to give him CPR!!!!
Ahem!! My subconscious, coughed and l was confused.
Did you just say C....P....R!? It dragged and l nodded, mentally.
Means simultaneously you'll also kiss him!! It said and my eyes widened realizing my subconscious track of mind. Ewww!! At this serious situation too you have cringey romantic thoughts!?
Come on!! You never even thought of giving a CPR to Mr.Monkey Shetty when he fell in the beach and was out of breath!! It mocked.
That was eight years ago and for your kind information l didn't understand if l had feelings for him!! And dare to call him Monkey.... I said back.
Huhhh!! I wonder why l supported you when you was just having an infatuation of seven years for that Gorilla!! It said and l was shocked. Did my subconscious just call my seven years of Love for Vikram!! An infatuation!?
Yes l Did!! Think for godsake without aching your head by seeing Vikram with his correct better half Ahaana!! It yelled and l actually flinched.

Man-Didi!!
Someone said and l looked up to see a Man with tear filled eyes.

Bela-Yes! How can l help you!?
I asked, softly as possible. I was pissed!! Pissed by my very own subconscious, Pissed by my one sided love Vikram and last but not least this Idiot Seghal!! I didn't reject his love or anything like that for him to  go suicide.
Oh!? So if he had proposed you... Madam would have said Oh Mahir! Yes l do love you! I was expecting this my entire life..... It was my subconscious again. I sighed looking at the Man.

Man-I... I am Yuvi Seghal!! Mahir Seghal's Brother! Do you know which ward he is admitted into!? I... I rushed here in a hurry without asking by the reception!!
He said and l sighed, nodding. His eyes widened with happiness. That happiness in him knowing that he can finally be able to see his brother but look at the fate! He had to ask it to the one who was the cause of the whole chao.

Yuvi-Where di!?
He asked. I pointed to the ICU and he turned towards the direction of my hand and his eyes widened while l closed my eyes tightly knowing his next question ' What happened to him!? '

Bela-I... I am the cause of this!!
I said, honestly before he even asks. I felt him kneel before me while still my legs were drawn to my chest on the waiting chair.

Yuvi-Can l know what happened di!? Mom and Dad had been crying continuously since they got to know the news!
He asked, softly and l opened my eyes as tears fell from my eyes. I'll look like a murderer but he has the rights to know it!! I care a damn about my Image infront of him after l've done something like this to his brother.

Bela-I was in love with my classmate Vikram!!
I said and he nodded, looking concerned.

Bela-I was in London all these seven years and came two weeks ago for a Professional commitment. I know you might be thinking why is this stupid women going to something else which you never asked for but that's the start of it!!
I said and he chuckled, nodding in No. He has exactly the same smile of Mahir's.
Ahem!! Coughed my subconscious and l rolled my eyes, mentally.