Mahir

' Was it my mistake that l loved Vikram so madly Mahir!!? '
Her heart breaking sentence echoed in my ear over an infinite times!! It hurts!! It hurts so badly! It's like someone is stabbing me while l am still conscious. My hold around her loosened. l immediately stood up and took a step back, looking down this time.

Mahir-I... I guess... y... you.. n.. need some time alone!!
I barely whispered and quickly rushed towards my room with the unbearable pain she caused me only to be pulled backwards by my left hand. I stood still while she slowly came infront of me changing her hold from my left hand to my right but l didn't dare to face her. The same one l loved had broken my heart into teeny pieces of nothing.

Bela-Mahir!?
She whispered as she got hold of my cheek and just by her mere move hot tears poured from my eyes.
Her free hand got hold of my other cheek as she brushed her thumbs on my cheek wiping those stubborn tears but still..... it isn't gonna change the fact that l got hurt!! Should l be Happy that the one who broke my heart is trying to console me or be Sad that till now she doesn't even have an idea that l Love her!!

Mahir-Let Go Bela!! I want some time alone!!
I said but suddenly she rested her forehead over mine still holding my cheek.

Bela-You still don't feel to say anything right!?
She asked and l was confused.

Bela-W... Why you men are so stupid!? Are you people blind or what!?
She yelled on my face, crying and so did l. Both of us was having our own problems in love and l don't give a damn now! My conclusion few days ago was right!! I've one goal!! Make my Parents Proud!! That's it!
I gently pushed her hands away from my face and took a step back, facing her red, tear stricken face.

Mahir-Look Bela!! Let's just think we never met! You came here for your cameo! Do that and go! I came here for a vacay! Let me have that and go!! Please.....
I pleaded while she looked shocked by my saying but do l give a damn now. Hell No!! My anger is overpowering me and l don't want to hurt her in anyway.

Mahir-Goodbye Bela!! They do say Goodbye's are tough but in our case it's totally opposite! It's for good!
I said and walked past her but then comes the urge to the lover boy in me. I can't help it! I went back to her and bent near her ear. I left a soft peck near her lobe while her eyes widened as she lifted her head up.

Mahir-I Love You Bela and Still do!! It's just that we are stuck in a damn hard Love triangle!!
I whispered near her ear and walked away quickly to my room, closing the doors of my room and heart for any women from now. I unbuttoned my sherwani as l entered the washroom. I went near the sink and immediately splashed the running water on my face. I did it Again! And Again!! AND AGAIN!!! But it did nothing. I fell on the floor and drew my legs to my chest and sobbed loudly. This heartache hurts so damn bad!! I should have stopped loving her the time she left to London. I should have bloody focused on my career without coming here. Why did you send me here Mom!? Why Dad!? Why!??
Just so l see all this and have a terrible heartbreak!? Why do everyone keep hurting me like this and yet again would later come and ask my forgiveness!!
It's useless!! I am useless!! No one loves me!! Not Bela!! Not anyone!!! I better die!! Yes!! That's right!! I better do that!!