MIRA'S POV:

It was Wednesday morning once again, and once again I was lost in my thoughts.

It was out of the blue when he suddenly decided to leave town for a week. It's been three days and I can't stop thinking about him. Neither I nor he tried to connect with each other through any means. Guess I was bounded by the rules and he was occupied by his space. Away from me. But still, I could feel the magnetic pull that was pulling us together. The intangible thread tied with us was magical, yet painful. At least for me.

I have never thought I'd end up here. Like this. Sad and occupied with the thoughts of my student. The exact one, who takes me to the moon and back, every time he fucks me. Despite several attempts, I couldn't take him out of my mind. I was completely surrounded by his thoughts every minute, and every hour my mind reminded me of him. Each day I started missing him more. And maybe by this weekend, I would go insane.

This was all new for me. I was unsure of what I was feeling right now. I do regret telling him of the choices of words I said that night. I should have mustard up to say it out loud about what really, he is to me. He occupied all of my attention, time and mind.

"Shut it, Mira. He is just an arrangement-ship. He doesn't mean anything special. You need to get him out of your mind. Because one day, it has to end anyways. Nobody is going to stay forever. Nobody. So rather than wasting your mind on someone who you can't get forever, you must let it go" I said to myself. Yes, maybe this is the right thing. I should shut him out too. At least in this way, he will always stay in my best memories.

No matter, how hard I tried to get him out of my mind this morning, I was only reminded of how wonderfully engaged he is with all of me. How beautiful all this is, for me. That in my darkest soul, he is the one, that brought up the shadow of a rainbow. Something I never thought, I'd ever see again. This was all fascinating.

This is not me.

Definitely not me.

What are you doing to me, Alex?

My cabin was full of me doing nothing but chewing the end of the pencil in my mouth as I smiled like an idiot. It was like I was right there, physically, but my mind was with him. As I close my eyes, I could hear his smooth voice, I could feel his comforting touch, his luscious lips and all of him.

This has to be a dream. Right?

A dream that I want to protect at all costs, but don't know how.

What does this feeling call?

I was amazed at how in just a few weeks he had become an utterly important person in my life.

Geez no. I can't just think like that.

Or maybe I should. I don't know.

Rather than working on the project, this was all in my head this morning. I am pretty sure we are just... something more than a Fling and less than... "Love". I am certain of it. Though I am not sure what I am thinking just now. This doesn't make any sense but I am pretty confident there must be a great explanation for this weird frenzy thing happening to me.

I cannot describe what we are feeling right now. Even though I can write a whole paragraph about how he feels to me. His touch sparked my desire. His eyes can take me to places, I've never imagined and his voice gives me the warmth that I was aching for. Maybe this was all a sin, but it felt so sweet like heaven, that I can never resist. Everything about him is just tempting.

And I was shocked to feel that I wanted all of that.

"Okay, you seem like lost in love hopeless puppy, what's up with you?" Nina's voice brought me back from the semi-conscious Alex's state of my mind.

"What?" Her question caught me off guard.

"Did you guys break up or something?"

"What?" My face twitched in confusion at her question.

"Then why do you look pathetic like a girl who's lost in thought of her beloved?"

After inhaling a chunk of air and becoming irritated by her stupid question, I replied. "Okay, I think you watch too many dramas. Nothing is like that. I was just simply thinking."

"Yes, that's my point. You just never simply think. Either it must be a serious issue regarding the office or it must be something that bothers you in your personal life. Cuz' other than that you don't simply sit and think miss overthinker."

I hate to admit it, but she was right. But I cannot just accept that.

"Okay fine, a part of you is right, but nothing that should concern you, Nina." I tried to shrug off her doubts. Maybe I should keep a poker face, so that she doesn't get to understand what's going on, in my mind.

"Oh, it does, when my best friend is just thinking to blow me off from her life with secrets that do concern me, especially when it's bugging her."

"Nothing is bothering me, Nina. I think your Wednesday morning is just spiced up a bit."

"Oh, a part of it is. Did you hear the news of the murder in town last weekend?"

Her question really got my attention now. I haven't heard the news in days now. All I was occupied with was Alex's thoughts.

"What murder?'

"What? Haven't you heard the news?"

"No... I was occupied with..." I said with a little hesitation. "What is it?"

"A man was murdered in cold blood last Friday night. His body was badly cut and tortured. His dead body was found in a club the next morning. Nobody knows who it was. The man is known to be a multimillionaire. Cops are suspecting that it might be his partners who did this to acquire his business."

"Wow, that's unlikely in Manhattan. The crime rate is going up slowly. I think the last month also a suspected murder occurred with the same theme. I think the NYPD should be more attentive now. This is the third case in two months."

"I know. I think they are on it"

I nodded to Nina thinking about how we can take action to keep the campus safe. The crime rate is increasing and we must keep the university and the students safe.

"Is that another gift?" Suddenly Nina asked while leaning off my desk skeptically looking at the box given by Alex which I carried with me everywhere now. Maybe despite his acknowledgement of taking a leave for 5 days, I expected I would see him here. Maybe time could change.

"Uhmmmm... That..." Before I could stop her, she had already taken the box and opened it. She gasped as she saw Audemars Piguet's Haute Joaillerie Sapphire Orbe.

"Audemars Piguet's Haute Joaillerie Sapphire Orbe? Is he a billionaire?"

I don't know what to answer. Fuck. I had no idea. "I... It..."

"You don't have to answer it's obvious he is. Now I am even more curious to know him."

"Nina?"

"What? He sounds rich."

"Whatever. You already know I have nothing to awe or gawk on other's money. I have enough of my own."

"Still... Hello... he is a billionaire... aren't you excited?"

I deadpan. "I am not. Now if you just come back to the work, we need to talk to the Boards of the members and Andrew to do something to keep the campus safe. To what the rate seems of the crime in Manhattan, we cannot just ignore it."

As she returned the gift, we walked towards Mr. Harold's cabin. "Hm... You are right, Let's go." She said, from beside me.

******

I was tired due to all the work in the office, so I pushed back myself into the soft bed after a warm shower. My body was aching. I could use a massage or cuddle for now. If Alex would have been here, he could have helped with that though. I fell asleep thinking about his warm body being flushed with mine in my head.

I woke up with the light from outside and I was it was 5:30 am in the morning. Oh, what the hell I am doing so early again? Welcome back to the abnormal sleep routine.

It was he who made me sleep peacefully in his arms first in all these months. My mind flashed back to him once again. And now I couldn't wait any longer, so I grabbed my phone before finally dialling his number.

"Hello?" His smooth voice worked like a stress buster for my system from the other side. But what surprised me all of a sudden, was that rather than having a sleepy voice, his voice was more of a... panting sound? What is he up to in the early morning? Is he with someone?... Are they having...? I frowned but then thought to myself no he can't... This would be breaching the contract too. But what is he doing?

"Hi" I could barely talk. I felt a little awkward to be sure.

"Wow, you called me? that's something new." He chuckled from the other side, panting all the way. Okay, Holly molly now I wanna know where is he and what the hell is he doing now.

"Well, you wanna know something more? I missed you. That's new for me too." I confessed. If I could see my face, it is all read now.

"Wow... like did I break the milestone, Mira?" He teased. I liked to be around his goofy nature once again. "I am at the gym and you really surprised me early this morning."

Okay, so he is in the gym. I sighed in relief.

"I... and sorry for the other day. It was stupid."

"We can let that go since you did go all the way around breaching the contract to call me today." He laughed, I bet he's looking super-hot with those sweats in his abs right now. God, save me.

But I love how he lightens the mood. But that wasn't all. I wanted to tell him the answer. My answer, was that he asked for.

"But I want to tell you something else," I said slowly, not believing in my intuition.

A beat passed before he asked, "are you in love with me?" he asked, chuckling and I rolled my eyes at him, even though he really can't see me. Cocky as always.

"You wish." I paused. "But... to the answer to your question of ' what we are ' is..." I gulped as I was getting all nervous. I was having my sweaty palms as I rubbed them in my clothes. I put my guts up to reply, "before you, I think you sort of know what lifestyle I maintained. That is who I am. But you... you caused a change in me. I don't know what we are yet, but yes, I do know that all this week, I kept thinking about you. My feelings are sincere for you Alex. It's just that I couldn't come up with a name yet. Maybe... maybe I..."

"I like you," he said suddenly cutting me off from every little thought in my head. I was speechless. I kept quiet as I fust my palms and the nails dug into my flesh causing it to sting a little.

Wow, I haven't expected that at all.

"Alex... I..."

"I know. This is my feeling for you, Mira. I don't expect you to feel for me right away. But I do want you to give me a chance."

"I like you." Begin to repeat in my head as all the other words fade away. What do I do? What is this feeling? Am I getting attached to him? I- I can't. But at the same time, I cannot just stay away from him. This is all crazy but I guess I have to accept what's in my fate.

"I like you."

"I like you."

Holly shit.

"Mira? Mira? Are you there?" His faint voice brought me back from those thoughts.

"Yeah... "

"You, okay? Are you safe?"

"Yeah, I'm fine" I replied, despite being confused about if I really am fine or not at this time.

"Alright, I want to ask you something" he chuckled from another side. I could feel a smile on his lips.

"Again?" I asked in a panic. His first question had made me look like a crazy woman by now, and I have no idea what his second question would do to me.

He laughed understanding my nervousness.

"Chill... I was asking you out. On a date. Like officially."

"I think we have been..."

"That doesn't count. I will be back the day after tomorrow. Let's go on a date this weekend?"

All I could do is to blush and smile like a teenage girl while biting my lower lip. It was the first time anyone has ever asked me out. On a date like this. I would be lying if I say I was not excited. But at the same time, I was nervous. It's all new for me.

What if everything gets ruined once again? No, I can't bear it. Not this time. But you will never know if you dint try. So, I must. For him, I must try.

"Okay?" he asked once again, cutting off me from my thoughts.

I gulped before I answered. "Yes," I replied with a shy grin.

******

One more day passed with his thoughts and loads of work.

But this morning was special. I was waiting for him. Like a teenage girl would wait for his lover to come back. Has this been a few months ago, I would have cringed at my own thoughts. But today I didn't. Rather, surprisingly, I was excited. I reached the office a little earlier than the other day and kept looking out the window. My eyes were searching for one specific person.

"Searching for me, doll?" Finally, his husky voice filled my ears and gave me a rush of relief through my veins. I immediately turned back with a smile and saw he was standing looking all dashing like in the same old days. I ran toward him like a crazy woman. Like I really, really want to smell his intoxicating scent. Like I want him to hold me in his arms and never leave me again. I was extremely happy to see him again.

And to my surprise, he opened his arms to grab me in his strong arms, welcoming me and hugged me with his all might, lifting me up in his arms. I guess he missed me the same way I did.

"Gosh, I missed your scent," he said while sniffing my neck.

"And I missed you," I said with a smile.

He put me down as my lips find their way to his. Heaven. It was my little heaven. All mine. And I love all of it. You know how they say make-up sex is the best sex... I think I am going to have it all now.

AUTHORS NOTE: Ahhhhh abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz.... what the hell? he just asked her out officially. Like aweeeeeeeeeee... I am simping over this guy dude! I am so happy Mira is changing for Alex. I hope they just don't stop being goofy and cute.

They say makeup sex is the best sex. Hope for the best.