Wonyoung pov

Today will probably be my favorite day in my whole teenage years. Visiting all the beautiful places of ulsan! Taking lot and lots of pictures that i think my instagram account will be filled lol.

Surely my fans and all the unnies and oppas fans will be feed well

My favorite time of the day was the race we had on our way to our rented house as 2of us shared a bicycle since we rented 7bicycles and my luck happened to be with the overconfident Flirter haruto watanabe But for sure that jerk haruto couldn't make us win despite of all his bragging that we were already decided as the winners before the match begun.

The competitive wooseokXdohyon won *pfff like its something special* Whats the fun in wining anyway?

What was worst was that we were last who arrived. yohan X chaeyeon unnie were second.

I mean duhh 'roll eyes' with that thighs of his i wouldnt expect less of him and unnie.

And here i was stuck with the overconfident haruto being teased by jihoon.

"Stop it you two" i glared at jihoon and wooseok and their bragging increased which made me roll my eyes

Childs childs

"Its fine. It wont be fun if you were always the loser right kim wooseok and park jihoon?" I smiled coldly as the two who were making funny faces at me froze

"That was harsh" jihoon pouted as he fakely held his hand over his heart like it hurted meanwhile wooseok smirked "you are the forever loser child just admit"

"No am not" "yes you are!"

"Who was the one who wrote the song loser and wanted to collaborate?" I rolled my eyes smirking back which made him glare darkly as he looked at jihoon and haruto and back to me

I gazed at his hands turned into a fist and jaws clinched, that was my cue to run all over the house to get away from him.

I knew that he would fire up being teased infront of a junior

And

thats exactly why i called him loser!

Serves his ass right!

"Yaaa!!!! That was a one time thing!!and it was a great song!"i laughed when he yelled to defend himself.

running from him reminded me of the time we were both alone and depressed he wanted to do a song about feeling like a loser not having control of our hearts. Yes he can be sentimental at times.

"But one time things also count! Doesnt it loser" i stuck my tongue at him as i hugged the back of i  think was seungwoo oppa whom got as tens as a stone.

Only seungwoo oppa can protect me from that dragon.

No one else can stop him

I repeat.

No one else

"Woah woah the show begun everybody" i heard chaeyeon unnie' amused laugh as she called the other into the living room to which we both glared at her still holding oppa's back like a wall

"Oppa! Tell him to stop chasing me! He is like a monster when he scratches" i frowned shaking oppa's body. I remember that time he ate my food and we bickered leading to both of us scratching each other like cats.

Damn it ached

I froze when i saw seungwoo oppa coming out of the kitchen with amused reaction looking at the three of us

Who am i holding into then...?

My heartbeat increased as I analyzed his figure... I froze when he turned around " uhh.. " he rubbed the back of his head looking at me awkwardly as if he didnt know what to say

I wondered why he was so tense and different! ofc it wasnt oppa

'Gosh wonyoung you embarassed yourself again' i frowned looking at him and back to my hand that was still holding him i quickly let go awkwardly

What should i say..? He will think i wanted to hold him on purpose

Shit!

"Ha! I got you!" Wooseok grinned as he grabbed my left ear harshly twisting it which made me wince groaning "you are an animal!!!!"

That jerk knew i was shocked by yohan and he used it as a chance. I grabbed his hair harshly which made him more upset as he grabbed mine also and we were back to the first year we lived together

"If i am an animal you are an spoiled brat!" He yelled and i was fumming up

How dare he!

"Assho--" we both stopped when we sensed everyone laughing

I looked at everyone confusedly and they were all looking at us either laughing or amusedly eyeing us as if they were watching a show

looking at wooseok i could see he also had the confusion i felt before we each looked at our hand grabbing each other's har in fists and our angry expressions we exactly got the answer as we both chuckled letting go of each other's hair

"You got weaker btw" he smirked proud of himself to which i rolled my eyes

" still a show off i see.
Babe i could win you without even trying my best " i winked and this time he was the one to roll his eyes but before he could reply with a nasty reply i held his hand and leading him to the others who were in the kitchen laughing about our never changing fights

I loved that about wooseok. No matter how much we were distanced or were angry at each other our chemistry never changes

Sihun smacked my head playfully when i stood beside him to which i groaned " why is that everyone enjoys bullying me?" I frowned and they burst into laugher

"Maybe because you are bullying everyone yourself " jihoon nonchalantly replied even when i glared at him he just shrugged innocently

I put my middle finger up to him and he chuckled but everyone froze by my actions

wooseok sighed "Its like we sent him to a college for learning curse words and parties instead of becoming an architecture" i chuckled seeing wooseok's disappointed face. It wont be easy for them to get used to this me.

"who cares? i am still me" i stuck my tongue at him with a grin before i felt a hand on my shoulder.

No no! Dont turn around!

"Wonyoung

Can we talk?" That soft voice melted my insides.... i knew he would talk... but would i be able to handle talking to him?

I bite my lips anxiously as i turned around to make an excuse but when i looked at his eyes i froze

"Please?" He held my hand and tears whelmed in my eyes

How long has it been since we held hands? Why did we turn like this?

I felt the room go quiet and i knew if I refused to do this conversation everyone would become awkward..

or maybe i agreed just because i needed this conversation also..

or i just didnt want to let go of his hand yet..?

Not having courage to answer i nodded my head.. just with a nod his whole face brightened.. why did he have to be so soft that makes you harder to erase him?!

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Author pov:

The two of them sat in the garden just playing with their fingers non of them having confidence to utter a word.

All the emotions of the past 5 years infront of their eyes, all the happy and sad moments. All the sacrifices and betrayals.

'We both loved each other so why did fate played with us like this?'

"So.... what did you want to say oppa?" She faked a smile trying to her best to not look anxious.

Looking at his sad aura so vulnerable made wonyoung upset

'If he didnt care enough and left... he should have atleast became happy. He should've moved on...

He shouldn't be like this '

"....... I wanted to apologize,

Its probably late for me to say it now .. but i am truly sorry wonyoung " with one look at his eyes filled with pure guilt and sadness wonyoung felt anger

Why is he the one being sad?.... why is he not happy... why is he still beside me if he left in the first place?

"what are you sorry for oppa? There are too many things to count " she had her hands in fist and her eyes whelming up

'Why do he have to be my weak point even after all this years?.. why does he have to look so vulnerable that makes me want to protect him with all of me.... he shouldn't be so soft

Its unfair. '

"For choosing the worst choice of my life 3 years ago and all the other mistakes after that day" he smiled sadly looking at wonyoung which made her broke completely as she cupped her face in her hands to not show tears

He regretted leaving and putting her into all the pains.

Sometimes you take roads to protect your loveds even if it pains you to no end yet you put them into the most pains without your knowledge

"Why do you even care to apologize if you didnt even contact me once when i was in the hospital not caring if i was alive or dead" she sobbed her words hurting herself like shit

"I broke the day i heard the news i couldnt eat or sleep just looking at my phone waiting for a news about your condition. Trust me i cared so much that even breathing ached." His own tears showed looking at her small figure crying knowing he was the reason of it

"Liar... you didnt even text me. I wasn't expecting anything but it still hurted to know you didn't care even that much..i was dying and you were in the arms of another"she looked at his eyes with such pain that broke herself reminded of all the things that happened after the day their scandal got published

"Paboya how can i not care? Trust me i would have killed myself without waiting a second if anything happened to you. Even then i was on my way to airport right away when wooseok called me cursing me out to never show my face in front of you again reminding me of what an asshole i was for hurting you all the time... hearing him yell at me for the first time like that made me realize that i only brought pain" He smiled sadly as he wiped his tears Getting reminded of wooseok's call

Even thinking about that day pained him. Not wanting to remember her in pain.

"Oppa.... this ... just hurts so much *sob* why did you do it? Why did you break us if you too didn't want it" her tears and sobs broke yohan as he also felt tears in his eyes

He knew it would be hard to talk about their misunderstandings but it hurt him more seeing her cry again

And once again he was the reason.

It took everything in him to not hug her like the past and calm her down... he didnt want her to push him away again so he didnt take risks

Messing his own hair in frustration as tears showed " damn it dont cry,please... you can hit me as much as you want but dont cry. " he sighed in frustration as he finally gave up and pulled her to his chest hugging her tight not caring if she pushed him away any longer "calm down baby plz"

Wonyoung's tears increased as she felt him hugging her 'if only he stayed. If only he didnt leave' she sobbed as she hit his chest continuously "why.. why.."his tears also showed apologizing continuously as he patted her back and kissed her forehead

"I didnt want to too. I thought it will only pain me and you would be happy with sihun if i left... it was never easy trust me"he explained and it teared up wonyoung knowing he was right

That fool only thought of others and never of himself

"You could've rejected your dad's offer for the engagement... you could've..." she sobbed as she tugged at his shirt hiding her face in his chest

"If i did that your dad's company would have gone bankrupt then how could i?" He quietly mumbled but it was enought for her to hear.Her eyes widened as she looked up with the tears

'What does him engaging have to do with our company?'

"Our company?"

"Umm.. it was the only way sakura's dad would agree to help out our company."he smiled sadly to which made wonyoung freeze

"No... you did not... how..? Why you agreed?" She couldn't even utter her words correctly

"How could i not agree when i witnessed you worrying about the company not doing well all the time?when you cried after i told you it might go bankrupt saying it was made with your dad's hardships and sweats?" He kissed her forehead as she shook her head continuously looking at his eyes begging him to say he was joking

The guilt, shame and ache attacked her like a knife so deep she couldnt even talk even when she opened her mouth only sobs

"you did it because of me... oh my gosh! I blamed you all this time!... " she cried as she cupped her face in her hands shaking with guilt

Yohan sighed as what he was afraid of happened. He bever wanted her to find out as he knew she wouldnt stop blaming herself

"Am so sorry yohan.. am so sorry.." she sobbed looking into her eyes with guilt shaking and he couldn't handle it anymore without another thought he bent his head as he grabbed her chin and kissed her. It was supposed to be a soft gentle kiss to comfort her but having her lips against his after a year and half made him groan as he pulled one hand behind her neck and pulled her closer to him

He held her firmly in place. She sighed and relaxed into him.

Somehow. Somehow

Slightest skin-ship with him always erased her mind

Everything changed.

His tongue slid into her mouth met hers and merged as if they were one. He explored until he thought he would go insane from wanting her. She deepened the kiss into a possessive longing one which made him groan wanting more

This was supposed to be a comfort from her and he had to control his senses.

He knew well he had to stop or else he wouldn't be able to control his longing for her. There was no denial his control of himself decreased after meeting her again. The young innocent wonyoung grew into an adult

Finally he was able to pull himself away breathing heavily he stood up putting space between the two of them As she still sat on the grass eyes closed, lips parted and cheeks flushed

'Damn she is beautiful'

-The end-

And lastly my forever favorite silver boys member park jihoon