Wonyoung pov:

After the accident that day i got greedier for doing my best at this performance just so i could gain my confidence and faith back in myself

I was glad i wasnt alone in this and haruto was beside me on stage  and outside the stage there was lia and jihoon who cheered for us like cheerleaders which made both of us laugh

Tonight was the festival and we had 5h left before it starts so everyone was doing rehearsals

"I could almost swear i wasnt this nervous for my debut"i mumbled my thoughts without me noticing it.

They would look at me like am unprofessional now. *hump*

"Yaya dont worry ma lady, everybody would drool when they see you on stage. You are obviously the winner" jihoon winked as he patted my back which made me roll my eyes

"Only if you werent such a bad flirter you would have been really popular" i stuck my tongue at him teasing him to which he frowned

"Ya that was harsh! Am not a bad flirter And am really popular! Right lia?" He looked at lia for answer

The stupid in love lia blushed and just nodded her head making jihoon smirk "see" he proudly smacked my head making me chuckle

"A kiddo" he was about to fight back but my phone rang and i excused myself when i saw that it was from sihoon

"sihoon! You asshole why woudlnt you pick up my calls!?" Nobody could imagine how much i missed him so even now that i tried to sound upset i was smilling

After the accident i called him 4-5 times for a whole 3 days  but it always went to voicemail

"Mian.. i wasnt able to answer it. How are you?" His voice was clear but there was a feeling in me that told me he was not fine but i just let it slide

"Am doing better than before Hoon. How are you? i saw you winning last week on music core you were really cool" i smiled trying to open him up

"Am fine as always...
Ah.. you saw it, thank you Wonyoung " his voice cracked and i couldnt not ask anymore

"Hoon whats wrong?"

"Huh? Everything is fine i just missed your voice"he did a laugh but his voice looked quiet dark that made my heart ache.

I sighed knowing how he always acted strong "Hoon, you know you can always call me right am always with you? I missed you alot too" i sat down at a corner hugging myself.

Sihoon was always with me from the moment we met. No matter how much big our fights was and how we didnt talk he always came to help me when i was devasted

What could be wrong?

"Then why arent you here now...." he sobbed and my heart broke knowing he was crying

Something he rarely showed

"hoon, could you please tell me whats wrong?" I asked softly just hoping he wouldn't act strong anymore

"You are also gone Wonyoung.. i got nobody else left.. mom, dad and you..." he cried and a tear slipped down my eyes

Today is 25th,2,2019 and that means..

Yesterday was the 6th death anniversary of sihoon's parents..

How did i forget! This was the first anniversary i didnt visit their grave ..

I didnt fulfilled my promise to always be beside him

"Hoon.. please dont think like that. Mama and mr kim wont want you to get sad..." i didnt know how to comfort him so another tear slipped down ma eyes as i realized  how bad i was

He didnt say anything and i just hear his whimpers

He was always so brave and quiet that i sometimes forgot he was suffering.

"Hoon please talk to me" i pleaded but no answer came from him

In a corner i saw jihoon, lia and haruto looking at me weirdly maybe because of my teary eyes

But who wouldnt cry when they know how a bad friend + lover they are?

Ex lover.

I called him once, twice and he didnt pick up

'I am not wonyoung if i give up sihoon and you know that well' i called him for the third time but he already had turned his phone off

I looked at my contacts for his members  to see i only had minhan's contact so i wrote to him

'Hello oppa i hope you are doing fine. Am sorry for not biding goodbyes properly before leaving so i hope you are not mad at me for it. Is sihoon with you guys? Could you please look out for him more these days? And tell him to call me back as soon as possible. Thank you oppa' i wrote to him and sighed

"Hey who was that?" I didnt notice them being beside me till jihoon broke the silence

"A friend" i replied quietly

"Are you fine?" Lia asked concerned and i faked a smile and nodded getting up

"Lets practice" i smiled and haruto nodded his head and smiled back

There was a reason i left everything behind.
There was a reason i came here and left everyone behind.

To gain myself back and i wont back down.

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"And now its time for the cool rapper Haruto Watanabe!" The host stated and everyone cheered

We did a fighting and he went into stage after giving me a smile  'thank you for this' he said and i just nodded with a smile

Dark moon was a sexual + longing song, a song i did not expect from him but i could admit it made me see him in a more good way

I was excited and anxious for my part to begin and when it did.

I covered my scared state with a confident wonyoung. The more i sang the more confidence i got. The louder the cheers and surprised faces of the crowd i noticed the happier i got

'This is where you belong wonyoung.you belong to the stage. You belong to the crowd'  My conscience told me and for the first time in my life i agreed to it

Everything was too perfect to be believed With every glance we gave to each other the stage got hotter and the cheers got louder.

As we were performing happiness never left our face, i almost saw diamonds in his eyes

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