Wonyoung:

After weeding and resting for a day while getting bullied by junho and Chaewon for a meetup i finally lost it and decided to go out and chill

How long it has been? I think its been like more than 2 years since we last meet up all together as junho and chaewon avoided each other after their breakup. I havent met any of em after Highschool also so i missed them dearly.

The sad thing is... sihoon is not coming. So our friend squad is not completed actually. He said that he needed time to collect his mind and feelings before he can comeback to us like the past.. so i decided to trust in him as he promised me he will be back

I grinned when junho arrived infront of our gate with his car.

Damn the car is hot. I should get my license also when i turn 20

He got out of the car while i was checking it like a pervert "wonyoung-ahh~~" he threw himself at me like a baby meeting his mom after ages

I laughed at how cute he was "my baby cha cha, how have you been~ hm" i patted his hair like i always did but this time he didnt dislike it which was weird

He always hated it when i treated him like he wAs younger But now he was grinning from ear to ear, not letting go from me "i wasnt good, i have been so busy that i lost my sanity.. and i cant even remember the last time i met you" he frowned finally pulling away i laughed

So this is why he has been so clingy.

"Geez when was the time you called me meanie and glared at me all the time and now look at you. All grown up" i pinched his cheek as i did baby sounds to annoy him which it succeed his glare returned

I laughed as he frowned and i just rememberd how much i missed him to " i really missed you alot chacha" i side hugged him as i smiled

I got in the car before we become more emotional and he got in after me.

"When did you get your license? Am safe right?" I asked remembering he is just a few month older than me so he just turned 20. In only a year after becoming an adult when did he get the license and when he improved his driving ?!

"Are you kidding ? Who is cha junho?" He bragged winking as he started the engine

God this doesnt look right.

He always had lots of false confidence..

Let me arrive to our reunion safely..

He finally started driving and uh? He isnt bad? I confusedly looked at him like he was a genius or something.

Suddenly he smirked and the car started to speed up and slow down speed up and slow down i got terrified for my life even though the road was empty but it was still terrifying

He was driving well why so suddenly!? Wait? He is laughing

"Yaa cha junho you are going to die in my hands today!"i fumed up as i got my hand in fist to punch his shoulder but rememberd he is driving "haha mianhae mianhae. It was just for joke" he laughed and i just sent him a glare

"So where did the girls say we meeting later?"he asked me and I shrugged "They wont be able to join us until 2pm so they said we would meet you wherever you two decide"

"Ah right,I forgot. So where do you want to go to? Theater? Caffeshop? Acrade?" He asked as he looked at me briefly before focusing on the road again and i was dumbfounded.

"Yaa junho are you for real? You called me out at 11Am and you want to go to a theater or a caffeshop?" I asked raising an eyebrow confused to know his sanity.

"Ani what does time have to do with the place?" He innocently pouted and i sighed

"How did chaewon bear dating with you kid *sigh*" i stated meanwhile he glared "why are you mentioning her!we are just friends now" he pouted i just shook my head

Kids kids. They should go for it while they still are sure of their feelings. Why pain eachother? Tsk*

"Leave that subject. paboya its time for lunch and am sure you havent also eaten so we should eat before exploring" i smacked his head as he finally nodded

"Right, i was so hungry on my way to your place but seeing you made me forget it. What do you want to eat" I chuckled as I remembered how excited he was when he met me. I understand why he forgot the thought of his hunger

"Pork belly or a simple kimchi jiggae" I craved for kimchi jiggae but i also craved for pork belly so i wasnt sure

"We will eat both if you like. Am paying "

That sentence. The answer i wanted the most

"Yesss" I gave a flying kiss to him as i clapped ma hand in excitement

For sure eating with a food-maniac like junho whom i resembled is greater than yuri and chaewon

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"So how was the weeding? People didnt annoy you with questions right?" He asked as we walked side by side in the park

"Actually no... The elders just sent me pitiful looks which was worse than talking about it. But it was fine i guess" i shrugged thinking how it could've been worse.

Nobody mentioned the reason of my leave. Nobody mentioned the suicide. Nothing.

Which was weird because i remember my aunts from my dad's side were always running around for rumors to nag at mom. But this time they only gave me nasty gazes

"What About yohan hyun? Did he try to talk with you?"  He was in-front of me walking backwards  just so he will see my reactions curiously

I just chuckled shaking my head at him. He can be a true kid sometimes "not really. We even sat at the same table with his family,You know mom is close with them. Just hellos and a few gazes and small talk. But it was awkward"

"And meeting the members?"he asked this time lifting an eyebrow curiously "seeing them singing was painful but meeting them was brighter than i imagined it. It was good"

"Gosh i dont want to be in your place! That must have been so stressful!" He shook his head continuously making me glare at him

"Shut up. I dont mind anymore." I laughed it off as i sat down on a bench, he sat beside me after

"You are kind. i dont think i would have been able to meet them as calmly as you if i were in your situation" he frowned looking at sky

I knew he meant chayeon, yujin, dohyon,jinny and yohan. Being the blabber he is he knew almost my every worries.

"I have forgiven and forgotten the problems long time ago actually. Its just awkward to face everyone and it makes me ashamed nothing else" i smiled looking at the sky.

Although i doubt I would've been able to finish the weeding without haruto to busy myself with.

"Why would you be ashamed though?" He frowned not getting anything i said

"everyone treats me like a glass afraid to be shattered.. even you. I am continuously seen as the suicidal weak girl no matter how i tried to change for better" i smiled and closed my eyes to not let out the tears that were whelming in my eyes

I felt junho tense beside me as he became quiet

He was like that too, he treated me carefully after the accident.

"You could show us.." i heard him mutter which made me frown confused to what he meant "huh?"

"You could show us that you are fine by being yourself... but you just went away and distanced yourself. So of course everyone is worried" he muttered with his head low playing with his fingers

I couldnt help but smile even though i was this close to tearing up. He was just too adorable with how anxious he was with the words he used

"I didnt run pabo. I just wanted time to myself but i couldnt achieve it in korea as almost every citizen knew me. It was the best decision i could make " i patted his hair to comfort him that i was really fine

During the 5years and half  i was an idol i achieved lots of fame from the beginning of my carer to ending it. I was called the Nations IT Girl, Nations first love, Nations little sister . As i have acted in afew dramas and shot lots of cfs and variety shows.

The 5 years i worked everyday nonstop so in advance almost everyone knew me. In LA people knew me but only those who were into kpop. So it was better. Not to mention being in a roommate with a carefree girl like Lia and 2 flirters like haruti and jihoon. I was healing well

Junho unlike others that I distanced myself from didnt give up from texting. He was really worried as i and sihoon were the only ones he remained friends with. He didn't even get friends while being an actor

So he always made sure i assured him i was fine. I only cried while being on a call with him once and it was in my first month of staying in LA back then i didnt know anyone and after that time he made me swear i wont self harm myself more than 3-5 times even though i didnt have any thoughts of doing it

"You know.. it was really hard to see the only friends i had remained were both suffering from depression. It made me angry that i wasn't of any help to any of you.." he wiped a tear of his own and I chuckled as i side hugged him

"Am really fine chacha. You shouldn't blame yourself for whatever happened to us  .. and sihoon would become better. I will make sure of that before i go back" i tried to assure him as i nudged his side to cheer him up but what he said brought me into confusion

"I dont think you should Wonyoung" he replied in a sigh

"What do you mean i shouldnt?"

"He is just getting it into his brain that (even if you two were soulmates, you are not each other's destiny.) he is trying to erase the future he had made in his brain of you two." The words he said... it left a pain in me that i knew what he was trying to say

"You helping him will get him back into believing there is a chance that you will still both go back together even after years. He will think you would be each other's destiny again"  he sighed as he messed his hair looking at me

It was true.

Everyone called us soulmates as we were not like normal couples. The way we always cared about eachother was different. The way we were there for eachother  was different in hard times like when his parents died, or when i started dating yohan he still stayed. When he knew why I approached yohan in first place he still stayed even when i went to LA he stayed

so we also believed we were eachother's soulmates

I myself when i went to the weeding and met them again thought of those words

Sihoon was called my soulmate. Yohan was said  and believed will be my partner in life even by our families.

'But none were my destiny yet' i chuckled bitterly in my mind Thinking of it

"I know that he may be able to give up by avoiding meeting me but junho... he will break himself in the process." I smiled sadly as i looked at junho's worried face

"I love Sihoon but i know i will always feel guilty towards him thats why i will not go back to him and he will eventually see that. But as a friend i believe he needs us so i cant do as he says and let him avoid me " i squeezed his hand to cheer him out of his thoughts as i sighed grabbing his hands and helping him up

"Lets get out of this crappy mood and go to the girls am sure they would be waiting for us now " i winked so he would stop his frown And it actually helped

He rolled his eyes and chuckled