(ack! hi guys sorry for not updating! you've been kept on a wait so finally here's a looong continuation! enjoy!)

Hyungwon

I went back to my office for the night after just having Daeum go home. I stretch for a while and relieve all the tension and stress.

I closed my eyes thinking of what I did today.

I opened my eyes and chuckled. I decided to shake my thoughts off since it was time to go home and meet Riana. I started to pack the things and files I'd be bringing home to work with.

Riana

"Hanbin-ah.."

I inched my way to Hanbin as I saw him massaging himself again. He was all alone outside the company again.

"Riana? What are you doing here? It's freezing!" He worried.

He took of his coat and placed it around me to keep me warm.

"Thanks..." I uttered.

As usual, here I see him again trying to pretend everything is okay. I know Hanbin has hurt himself back then due to work. He was suffering from body pains all these time and eversince I left him... I wasn't there to take care of him anymore. He didn't have me or anyone to take care of him anymore.

"Are you okay?" I asked carefully.

He was smiling like a fool.

"Huh? Ye-yes of course I--"

I went around him and started to give him a massage myself.

"Does this hurt?" I asked.

I kept on massaging which left him speechless.

"Riana you..." He tried to say.

"I know."

I know that he was thinking of the memories of me and him. Of how I used to take care of him like this, and how we loved each other.

He turned around as I stopped. He looked at me in the eye, probably melting.

"Thank you." He said.

"I'm sorry Hanbin-ah..." I pulled him closer and embraced him.

I started crying into the hug.. I felt his tears drop too.

Unspoken words but they were accompanied by feelings.

And I know, Hanbin and I still love each other.

Hyungwon

"Im home." I greeted Riana as I went in our house.

We now understand that Riana doesn't have feelings for me anymore and we're both trying to appeal to our parents. But if we have to do the marriage, then I'll consider it for business plans solely then.

Riana confessed that she wanted Hanbin back. It was hard but I tried to let go because recently.. Im feeling kinda torn apart if I still feel the same in our relationship too.

So now, im glad we're both cooling up and are special friends for awhile. Nothing more, nothing less and I can assure you that.

"There's dinner on the table. Eat it while it's hot Won-ah!" She reminded.

"Ne!" I respond.

I went up to my room and plopped down all my things before arranging them. Afterwards, I went down to eat some dinner and bring the rest of the food with me to my room.

It's a long day. Ill rest later on....

Daeum

Back in my house here I couldn't sleep all night long. I was scared for my life and I was contemplating on how to get the letter from him.

Whatever it takes, Hyungwon shouldn't know about my true feelings and confession. It'll make me look like a fool believing that after how many years we'd actually get together? Hell no. What was I even thinking or what was I under the influence of? Fanfics? Or am I just too selfish and immature that I thought Hyungwon wouldn't change and would only love me and me only.

URGH I HATE MYSELF!

Oh well, I stayed up until it was morning. Now I had to prepare myself to go to work.

Yeah! I have to be extra early to sneak it to find that letter!

Hyungwon

I wake up and go to my mini table as I sort out the documents I'd bring to work.

Suddenly, something fell.

I looked to see what it was so I picked it up. It was the mysterious letter.

"I didn't throw this out yet? Oh.." I realized I had brought it home.

"Maybe I could take time to read it."

I opened the letter and there saw that the date was from 4 years ago. I kept on reading until I was very much surprised that it was a confession letter.

"................

Love,
Lee Daeum 💘"

"What?!"

It was from Daeum. So it was her. She made me this letter from four years ago. She...

She felt the same way for me.

My eyes widened and my jaw dropped. I held on tight to the letter as I felt my heart beat.

Daeum. I need to see her. I need to find her now.

Daeum

I was running late to work since there was a huge traffic on the way. I was getting really impatient and worried that Hyungwon might go scolding me again. He wasn't answering my calls.

Instead, I now decided to get off the taxi cab and ran my way to work. Suddenly, it started drizzling.

"Great. It's starting to rain. Urgh what good timing indeed!" I rolled my eyes.

The next thing I knew, I was already running my way in these heels as I try not to get caught by the rain. I was just a few blocks from the building so I can possibly make it if I double time.

Honk!!

Suddenly, I jumped startled of the car's honking that I heard right behind me. Regaining myself I looked behind and saw Mr. Chae Hyungwon going out of his car.

"Sir!! Thanks alot you're here! It's raining, please let's drive our way to work since were both late anyways--"

He gave me a serious look as he let my explanation pass by. By this time, we were already soaking wet because the rain got stronger.

"Sir... It's raining we can just--"

"What's this?" He finally spoke up as he looked at me in a serious and cold manner. He held up a letter in the air while not taking his gaze away from me.

My jaw dropped as I gasped seeing the letter that I tried my best to get from him, finally in his hands.

"Don't tell me you read it?" I said carefully. By this time, I was already getting scared because of the expression in his face.

He rolled his eyes and gave me a sarcastic scoff. It made me shiver alot more. He stopped and looked back at me in the eye as I saw a tear bitterly escape his eye despite this pouring rain.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked.

"What..?"

"Stop acting like you don't know. Why did you have to make me wait for four years?" He threw another question.

I just looked at him in silence.

"Why did I have to undergo all these?" He asked again.

"Am I the stupid one? Or is it you?" He continued.

"I don't know.." it was all I could say.

"Why don't you?" He questioned me again.

"Hyungwon-ah just please stop this, its raining and we need to go back to work." I pleaded.

"Why bother? Answer me. Did you love me?" He wanted me to confess. I was taken aback.

He was getting emotional and I understand him but somehow it was hard for me to open up my feelings once again. It's like they are all in a bottle I never want to open again. I am scared. Yes, Im a coward.

"I... Hyungwon please stop." I couldn't say the words.

"Just please! Give me an explaination!" He pleaded.

I was at holding myself.

"I like you Lee Daeum! I can't believe I had to take four years to understand and get to this point! And now having to involve a Riana in this. I feel miserable! I feel so bad!" He said.

"I'm sorry! I just dont know okay? I liked you, yes. But it wasnt easy for me to understand since I was caught up in my own feelings for you and Minhyuk. And I... I made the wrong choice. I regretted it all because I realized that I will always come back to you..." I spoke back.

"Seriously.." He muttered.

"You were someone precious. Im so stupid for not being able to see you that way though you were always the one beside me. That day you confessed made my heart race the most... It was the only time I truly understood because neither of us had known clearly. I didn't want to get hurt. Neither do I want you too. And I believe I didnt want to risk the friendship we had back then if I made my own assumptions. Im sorry..." I spoke the truth.

We stood under the rain in silence. I was waiting for his next reaction.

He breathed deeply and looked at me walking closer. I looked at him quite hesitant if I should move back, his height was towering over me.

"Omo--" I was startled.

He pulled me into a hug. A tight and longing one.

We remained hugging each other, feeling the moment til we broke apart and I was sobbing.

"Daeum-ah, do you perhaps still feel the same way for me?" He suddenly asked sincerely.

I could see the hope in his eyes and he started caressing my face gently with his thumb. For some reason, I started to get afraid.

"Do you?" I threw it back to him.

"I do. All these time, you're still the one." He assured me.

I started to get scared.

"Daeum-ah, can't we get back together? This time. Me and you, you and me. That's all that will matter. Can't we have a time for our love?" He asked me the words.

I immediately pulled away from him.

"I... I dont know Hyungwon-ah. I can't. Im scared to get myself into this and lose you in the end.." I cried.

"Dont you trust in me? Don't you trust in us?"

"I can't.... I'm so sorry." I cried and left him as I ran away from the scene, leaving him broken under the rain.

I'm so sorry Hyungwon-ah.

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After that rainy day, I heard that Hyungwon got sick. I honestly felt guilty so I called Sara.

"We now know each other's true feelings Sara.." I said.

"Really? Why do you sound bothered?" She asked.

"He asked me if we could get together this time and I rejected him."

"Are you stupid? Ever since you both were in highschool you gave out an aura of lovebirds. Why reject now? You're not dating Minhyuk anymore are ya?"

"No but listen. I'm confused! I dont want to give in a relationship im wrong about. Do you remember the signs I told you? They confuse me."

"You mean the signs he's your soulmate?"

"Yes! I said that he'll be the one if he takes my first kiss and if we both get stuck in the rain. The first condition I had it with Minhyuk, and now the second is with Hyungwon! Ugh!"

"Daeum... actually, I think I have to tell you this." Sara said cautiously.

"What?"

"Minhyuk wasn't your first kiss."

"WHAT?!"

"That time we went to the club with Monsta X, you got drunk and Minhyuk went away leaving you behind with Hyungwon. I kept silent but I saw it all. You unconsciously moved and... Hyungwon and you kissed."

"What?!"

"Hyungwon was your first kiss Daeum."

"He is...?"

"And the fact that he also fulfilled your second condition, makes him the guy for you." She brought me into realization.

"Oh my gosh Sara.. I, I need to talk to Hyungwon! I need to see him again yes!" I said.

"Yes you do! Now goodluck Daeum, bye!" She hanged up.

All this time Chae Hyungwon seriously, huh?

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this was long to make up for not updating for a long long tym!! hi guys!! hope you enjoy it all and comment and vote!

also, do you want me to write a BTS x MONSTA X fanfic? Or do you want me to stick to Monsta X fanfics only? Please answer my curious question thanks guys I love you byeeeee~!!