I slowly realize my regained consciousness after who knows how many hours, but I don't open my eyes. 

I am calm, and let my thoughts wander. For a moment I sit with my happy memories from over the years, realizing what a great life I have. 

My beautiful Sofia, who, I realize is still sleeping next to me and breathing peacefully as the mattress moves with her. The nice apartment we share in the area of the city that suits us the most. This section seems to be steeping in dark academia-like LGBTQ relationships, with lots of old libraries, cemetery's, art galleries and coffee shops, so of course this is where we decided to move in together.

 I take a little imaginary walk through our home. I see each detail perfectly, as it's etched into my memory now.  All of our plant children who are sitting on every available window sill of the apartment, and our dog and cat each because we couldn't agree which were better. The many bookshelves piled high with books and random discarded mugs that once held hot coffee or tea.  

Smiling in my dazed state, I shift my body to get more comfortable, and I realize something is wrong immediately. 

My smile is washed from my face in an instant of other-worldly comprehension.