As soon as Hiei lost his hold on those stupid binds, I immediately went out the window. I needed to get away, I didn't want to leave him but I couldn’t risk hurting him again, this is what's best for everyone. Tears continue to run down my face as I make my way to my house, hoping no one would come looking for me.p I honestly don't even know why Hiei acted like he cared when I know he doesn't. He's never cared about me, he always acts like I'm a burden! I unlocked my door and immediately ran up to my room, thankful I had stolen Hiei's hoodie, it smelled so much like him.

Laying down on my bed, I wrapped myself up in blankets and his hoodie, closing my eyes, I fell into a deep sleep, exhausted from the day's events.  

I saw my parents. My dad was hitting and kicking my mother as she laid there in a fetal position, looking at me, “Y/N, run away, far away from here!” 

“No! I’m not gonna let him hurt you!” I growl, looking up at my dad. “Let her go!” 

“Why should I? It’s not like you can do anything to stop me!”

He was right, there wasn’t anything I could do to stop him. Afterall, I’m only nine, I’m so small and weak, I-I don’t know what I’m supposed to do. “I don’t care! I’ll find a way to stop you from hurting my mom even if it kills me! You’ll never lay another hand on her again!” I run at him and start trying to pull him off of my mother, but unfortunately for me, he starts hitting me before kicking me into the wall, causing me to slam my head into the wall. I felt something warm drip down the back of my head. I failed, but did I really think I could win? I’m just a weakling, a little kid, going up against a grown adult, “I’m sorry mom…” I mutter, as I feel myself slip into unconsciousness. 

The next thing I know, I felt little strong arms pick me up and carry me into another room. I was still too weak to open my eyes, so all I could do is trust this random stranger. From what I could tell, the stranger was around my age. I whimpered as the stranger laid me down on a bed, sad that I was no longer in the comfort of his warmth. “Where’s my mom?” I ask, weakly. 

“I didn’t get here in time, she had already bled to death. I managed to stop you from bleeding out though. Don’t worry about that scumbag, I took care of him, get some rest,” the stranger says before disappearing. 

I never got a look at the stranger but I would always be grateful for him. If I ever get to meet him, I’m definitely going to thank him as best I can, but without getting a good look, I'm not really sure how to do that. I felt tears fall down my face and the realization of what the stranger said about my mother finally hit me, she was dead and I…I’m all alone. I just laid there and cried for what felt like hours before falling asleep.

When there was light again, I found myself back in Hiei's room, but this time I was surrounded by everyone I love. My body engulfed itself  in electricity and it started hitting everyone in the room. I definitely wasn’t in control of my body, I would never hurt the ones I love, right? I screamed as I fell to my knees, electricity bouncing off me more and more. “Wait, I’m sorry! I didn’t mean too!” I scream, looking at everyone in horror.

“This is all your fault,” Kurama says, 

“This is why we aren’t friends, I don’t know why I ever thought we could be. I never want to see you again!” Hiei growls, as he shakily stands up. Your electricity might be strong but I’m stronger and have much more experience than you!” He narrows his eyes and punches me, his fist engulfed in flames, causing me to slam into the wall.

“Please, I’m sorry!” I exclaim, tears falling down my face, although they weren’t from pain, they were from  regret; regret that I’d hurt my best friends, “I promise I didn’t mean too!” I shout, as the room turns into nothing as darkness engulfs me.

I wake up screaming and crying as I bring my knees to my chest. Suddenly I felt strong arms wrap around me, “Y/N,” the person whispered, “calm down, it was only a dream.”

I blink and look up at the person whose arms were wrapped around me, wiping my tears off my face, I see Hiei sitting beside me on my bed, hugging me tightly. “H-Hiei? How did you find me?” 

“It wasn’t that hard. You aren’t great at hiding your footprints.” He looks at me, “now Y/N, are you ok? You were screaming in your sleep and you woke up crying.”

“Why do you care?” I ask, “it’s not like we’re friends, you don’t like me.”

“Y/N…that’s not true. I have something I want to tell you but now is obviously not the time. Just please trust me when I say I do care about you. I don’t exactly want others knowing about this side of me right now though, so please keep it to yourself. Anyways, now tell me, what’s wrong? I know you aren’t ok. Please, tell me what’s wrong.”

Hearing all that, I broke into tears once again. The memory of the dream flooding my mind. I buried my head into his shoulder, “I had a nightmare. Well actually, one of them was a memory and then it turned into a nightmare.”

“Do you want to talk about it?” He asks, pushing a strand of hair behind my ear.

Remembering the nightmare, I quickly shake my head. “No.”

“Ok, well I’m here if you want to talk about it.”

I nod, but remember what we were doing and immediately scramble out of his grasp. “Stop trying to trick me, I know you don’t actually care for me, you don’t care for anyone!”

“Y/N, that’s not true! What makes you think that?” 

“Your personality towards everyone.”

“Y/N,” he says softly, “ever since I woke up, the only thing I can think about is you. I-I like you Y/N, please don’t do this!”

“I’m sorry…but I’ve made up my mind and it’s my choice,” I say, standing up. "Now, if you don’t mind, will you please leave?"

"Y/N, I-," he stops mid-sentence and sighs, "alright, I'll see myself out," he mutters, making his way to the door. 

I watch as he leaves. I know I'm the one that asked him to leave, but it still really hurt,  I didn’t actually want him to leave, I just knew it was best since I didnt want to risk hurting him. I loked him, like a lot and it turns out he likes me back but I couldn’t risk hurting him again. I flopped onto my bed and smiled softly when I saw that he didn't take his hoodie. I quickly grab it and snuggle up next to it, falling into another deep sleep.