{A/N} Adolf Hitler was responsible for many concentration camps and the mass killings of Jewish people, he really believed that one day they would be extinct, he is also the man that decided not to kill a Jewish doctor who had saved his and his family's lives multiple times.
He also helped implement multiple laws to safeguard animals, he lived as a vegetarian his whole life.

Maximilien de Robespierre is known for instilling fear in France in order to gain what he wanted, anyone who didn't follow his rules was either arrested or had their head chopped off.
A lesser known fact was that he was also an advocate for poor people, he even wrote a letter to the King protesting about the upperclass, wanted slavery demolished and all religions accepted.

Gilles de Rais was a follower of Satanism, he was later found guilty for the abduction, torture and murder of 140 children. He is also the man that stood with Joan Of Arc, the woman who led the French to safety at just 18 years old.

This is just some examples of the individuals deemed as the most horrific leaders in history. Hitler was homeless for the majority of his life and had numerous health problems, he was also a drug addict. Maximilien's parents both died when he was young meaning he was seperated from his sisters and forced to live with his one brother and grandparents. Gilles' parents also died when he and his brother were young, when he was 12 his grandfather tried to force him to marry a four year old but it didn't end up happening.

This is in no way me justifying their crimes, all I am trying to do by telling this story is to make more people see that humans are rarely born as monsters, it's only if they have an issue with their brains or childhood abuse etc that they grow up to be these kind of people. Maybe if someone had stepped in and helped them at the right time, this wouldn't have got to that point.

This is why I am trying to show a more 'human' side of Carlos, because even though he seems like a terrible man, he also has his beliefs and a lot of them stem from his childhood. You don't have to agree with my point of view, I still hate everything these people did but I also know that it could have been different and that they suffered too.

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If she was gonna do this, if she was really going to do this she needed some liquid courage, she had downed two glasses of wine, left her hair down and in natural waves, did her make-up light because for some reason it seemed he would like it that way and for the first time in her life, she dressed up for Aditya Hooda. The white jumpsuit had lace sleeves in a floral pattern that spread from her stomach upwards, the remainder was a creamy white and stopped at her ankles. While waiting for him to arrive she couldn't help but drum her hands on the table and jog her leg, a part of her wanted to quit but she had dressed to grab his attention so she wasn't giving up now, if it didn't work then she could atleast say she tried.

Aditya was led into the small meeting room, the bags beneath his eyes were a dark brown and his skin had darkened, he had never felt as tired as he did in that moment but he supposed that was part of being locked in a room for a week with only your thoughts to keep you company, the taste of freedom had been shortlived and maybe that was the worst part, everything he wanted was so close yet so far away. As he sat down across the woman he no longer knew, it was easier said than done to ignore her beauty, but he would do so, she wasn't his to gawk at, to compliment or to admire.

"Nothing to say about what i'm wearing"? She spoke slightly louder than usual, the last thing she wanted was to seem nervous

"Why would there be"? The sleepiness in his voice made his body feel weak as he lounged back

"Well I dressed up just for you, I was hoping for something" the pink that tinged her cheeks and warmed her ears made her fight to remain still on her seat

Aditya spread out his fingers on the table "You don't dress for anyone" his brows narrowed "What's your game"?

She had made her first mistake quickly, hopefully she could redeem herself and not make anymore "Technically I have dressed up for me, your compliments make me feel good, but if you don't have any to give then that's okay" she had never felt as stupid as she did right then

"Hmm" the guttural sound in his throat made her jump, he clicked his neck, eyes never leaving her then smiled "One week without me, what did you get upto Zoya"?

"Actually, ive just been focusing on me, read some um" she looked down, an embarassed smile on her face "This session isnt about me"

"But I want to hear about you, go on, I need to know my favourite girl is happy"

"I am happy" and she was now that he was back, his endearment for her made her feel light "I read some books, went shopping and um, here, I thought of you" she slid the very small circle coin towards him "It's a Charlie Chaplin special, has some of the song lyrics on it from Smile, I thought maybe"

"Must be my lucky day" circling the coin with his index finger he grinned "Hope you're not buying other patients gifts because then I wouldn't feel very special"

"Only you, so do you like it"? She was hopeful, maybe too hopeful

"I like it a lot toots, musta cost you a bit, tryna get in my good books or something"? When she nodded slightly he slapped the table and cackled "You're number one in all my books, i'm already very, very impressed" the way he whispered the last three words made her slightly breathless, just the way he spoke was powerful

"Are you still feeling"? Zoya didn't want to say the word for fear of it coming true

"I don't think I ever felt suicidal, I just really want to be with my wife, you understand that doc, I know you do, so don't get too attached little Zoya, I won't be here for long"

"Please don't do it" her plea made a shade of confusion fall over his face, his eyes were much like bullets piercing through her "I don't want you to die Mr Hooda, stay, please, for me"?

"Why would you want me around for, everyone here knows I just annoy you"

"You don't" she coughed "You don't annoy me, I just, I feel a certain way about you that makes my job harder"

"Oh, because you dislike me, now you want me to stay alive, talk about mixed signals, am I coming, am I going, will we ever know"? It was the first joke he had cracked but there was still something missing

Zoya looked up as he rounded the table, hand caressing her cheek and gaze so firm on her that it was like he knew exactly when she would breathe, swallowing she dug her teeth into her bottom lip and sighed at his thumb tracing her skin "I missed you" she spoke quietly, eyes closing when he pulled her up and inhaled her hair

"You smell like roses" the throaty baritone of his voice made her shrink into his hand that clasped her hair, he moved his head so he was looking down at her "All this to impress me, why? Got an ulterior motive?"

Placing her hand on his arm that wound around her waist, her eyes fluttered open "No, no I just" she gasped when he pulled her closer "I just wanted you to notice me, I thought maybe if I got your attention then your focus would be on me rather than"

"Rather than killing myself"? He shook his head "You are something else Zoya, grab my attention to make me look elsewhere then leave me when I stop feeling how I do"

"No, no it's not like that" she frowned when he stepped away "Mr Hooda, I swear it isn't like that, i've been trying to tell you for so long that I, I feel something between us, I don't know why and I wish I didn't"

He laughed loudly "Why because i'm not good enough for you"? Running his hand down his face he turned away "Must you always remind me of my fallings"?

"You aren't listening to me, stop twisting my words, look at me when i'm speaking to you" the order wasn't one she could recall ever saying but something made it feel suitable in that moment, Zoya felt slightly unsteady when he turned to face her "I don't think i've ever wanted anyone as much as I want you right now"

Aditya stepped back to her, finger tilting her chin up, then he bent his head and pressed his lips to hers, placing kisses from her lips to her throat he felt her nails dig into his biceps, a quiet moan escaping her, then he heard the alarm go off, stilling he let her go, eyes focusing on the alarm in her hand "You tricked me"?

Her eyes widened "No, no it was an accident, I would never" she gasped when three guards grabbed him, pushed his face into the table and handcuffed him "No, no leave him, I didn't mean to press the-"

"This your way of showing your power doc" he clicked his tounge "You tricked me, congratulations, you really have fallen in my estimations" Aditya had officially learnt his lesson, she had changed to such an extent that she was willing to throw him under the bus.

"No, all of you get out now and leave him here" smashing her alarm below her foot she slammed the door shut "I swear it was an accident, just" she went to kiss him again but he moved his face "Fine, be like that" shuffling back she looked down, guilt circling her stomach at her stupid accidental mistake "Just know i'd never do that to you"

"How am I meant to trust you after this, you aren't my Zoya, my Zoya would never do that to me" the thrill that ran up her spine when he got closer made her feel strange, what exactly did she want from him? Then as his hand slid out from the cuff and wrapped around her throat, she knew exactly what she wanted. She was addicted to how his touch made her feel, past the point of caring she looked up at him firmly

"Neither would I" placing her hand on his wrist she ran it up his arm, tugged it away from her throat then yanked his collar so his nose was touching hers "I would never hurt you Aditya, never" it was the first time she had used his first name but she didn't regret it "Please believe me and I know i'm not her, god I want to be and maybe that makes me crazy but you make me feel so much, I can't stop thinking about you and its been killing me not to tell you, hiding it was my biggest mistake"

Turning his head away from her lips he shoved her back "No more games Zoya, I am not something to be played with and i'll prove it to you" pulling her wrist he took her out of the room and down the stairs and into the room hardly anyone used, pulled the blanket off the sofa and grinned "This is Carlos, gone but not forgotten, I really do think he liked my song" slapping his cheek he laughed "Aint that right boy"

Zoya screamed loudly "What have you done, oh my god, no, no" turning on her heel she went to run only for his hand to reach atop the door and slam it, leaning against it she faced him "Please, please don't hurt me" she froze when he snapped the handcuff round one of her wrists so she was attached to the cupboard

"Answer one question Zoya, do you still want me now, even after what I did, even after I killed your friend"? Running the back of his hand down her cheek he smiled when she flinched away

"Why, why did you do it"?

"He nearly killed my wife, what's the saying, ah yes, what goes around comes around" the happiness on his face made her feel ill "And no one hurts my wife, my Zoya, hm, not even me, not if you don't want me to"

"And if you did, hurt her"? A tear rolled down her cheek "Then"?

"Then, you can do with me what you want, so tell me, is this some kind of revenge, have I hurt you"?

"Im not your wife, we've already been through this" she was angry now, he never listened and now someone was dead, someone who may have tried to kill his wife but a life for a life was not something she'd ever believe in

"Look at the tattoo on your stomach, you can still ever so slightly see Carlos' name engraved in it, happened when you caught him keeping Rowlan's daughter, or maybe you already noticed something" he placed his hand on her hip "So, do you still want me Zoya, or was I right, did you trick me, are you just like the rest"?

"You killed my friend Mr Hooda, I can't forgive you for that and I will not be party to your deluded way of thinking, killing someone achieves nothing, it won't bring anyone back, all it does is create more bloodshed and okay, say for just a second i'm willing to believe he is a monster, there are ways of defeating a monster without becoming one, and yes she is lucky to have someone who loves her like you do, but no I do not want you like this because I dont agree with killing, no that doesn't mean I tricked you, it just means that my morals won't change because you make me feel good Mr Hooda, my morals wont change even if I did turn out to be your wife and my morals won't change just because they may mean I end up just like Carlos, my morals make me who I am and, and" unsure of what else to say she fell quiet

"And that's the woman I want, the woman who doesn't change for anyone, not even for me, I want you because you don't dress up for me but because you dress for you, it doesn't mean i'm not happy you did but I don't need all of that to get my attention, all you ever needed to make me look at you, was you, you with your moral high ground, your no nonsense attitude, your sassy remarks, your big heart and the way you put yourself first, that's what makes me want you and if for some stupid reason I have made you feel that you have to dress up to impress me, then Zoya i've already hurt you and for that, there is no punishment great enough, so punish me Zoya, however you see fit, i'm completely at your mercy" bending down before her he looked up, there was his Zoya, it had taken far too long to find her but now he had her, even if only for a moment, he would hold onto it forever

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