Jessica was asleep on the couch in the living room, and the boys were in there watching tv.

"Guys.. Moms stomach is going crazy!" Sam's eyes widen on his mother's bulging belly.

"The fuck?  How can she sleep though that?" James asks as he and Michael come closer.

"I don't know but.. Is that okay?  Does he want something?" Sam looks at her stomach with concern.

"I don't know.. Maybe he's hungry.  Mikey, go fry up an egg!" James pats Michael's back.

"She just ate! 

Beside, we need to stop feeding her so much, this kid is gonna rip her in half!"

"We can't just not feed her!"

"Yeah but... Oh my gosh!" Michael and his brother's eyes widen as they see what looks like could be a foot, or a hand poke out where her belly button is.

"That's not normal!" James covers his mouth.

"I feel so bad for her." Sam says not blinking.

He lifts his hand and lightly pokes the baby's little limb.

"This. Is. So. Strange!"

Jessica hears him and opens her eyes.

She looks at the boys surrounding her and her unborn child and a look of confusion appears on her face.

"What are you doing?"

"Mom, that doesn't hurt?!" Sam points.

"Yeah."

"You weren't sleeping like it does!"

"I'm used to it.  How long have you been watching?"

"I've been watching for a while, but then I had to show the boys, the acrobatics going on inside of you!"

Jessica chuckles and touches her stomach.

"He's a little crazy, isn't he?"

"A little?  Mom, he almost busted out of you!" James tells her.

She laughs and says, "You think he's bad, you should see how you two were!  I had two in there at one time!  It was pretty intense!"

"I can't even imagine how that must feel!  Don't you just wanna quit?"

"Well I'm kinda stuck, son." She laughs as she places one hand behind her head, and the other one at the top of her belly, under her boobs.

"But no!  I loved every kick, and every punch!  Yeah it hurts, but.. Feeling your baby move inside of you is one of the best feelings."

They smile and Sam places his hand on his mother's midsection.

Grayson starts to kick where his hand is, and Jessica giggles.

"That's your big brother, Grayson!"

"I wanna feel!" Michael moves Sam's hand away.

Jessica smiles.

"Oh it's so weird!"

James reaches over so now all three are feeling the baby's big movements.

"My boys!  All four of them with me.." She smiles with watery eyes.

"This is sweet."

After a while, Sam started talking to the baby.

"Grayson.. I think I'm gonna call you Graze."

"Why?" Michael asks.

"Because it sounds cool!  And my little brother's cool, right?  Aren't you Graze?" Samuel says in a baby tone.

Jessica smiles and James says, "This baby seems to have made Samuel a little softy!"

"Definitely not!  That tittle still goes to you."

Michael laughs and Jessica says, "Samuel, be nice!"

"Yeah yeah. 

Grayson, I'm telling you right now, I'm your coolest brother.  I'll teach you all my moves on how to get all the ladies."

"Oh yeah, says the single one!" James rolls his eyes.

"Hey, I don't tie myself down to just one woman!  There's enough Samuel to go around." He smirks.

Jessica reaches over and hits him in the head.

"Ow!  What was that for?!"

"You better keep it in your pants!"

"Mom stop!" Sam covers his ears.

"I'm not playing!  You better calm your hot little ass down, do you hear me?"

"Ma, I was joking!"

"You better, because I am not ready to be a grandmother!  Do I look like a grandma to you?" She lifts her hands.

He chuckles and rubs his hand in a circle on her stomach.

"Definitely not!"

"Imagine you being a grandma this pregnant!" Michael laughs.

"Yeah, that wouldn't be good! So you calm down!" She points her finger at Sam.

"Mom, I was just playing! James is the one in a relationship!"

"You're the one that's not a virgin!"

"You're not a virgin?!" Michaels eyes widen.

"Old news, Mikey!"

"That's gross!"

"Boys, stop!" Jessica raises her voice.

"I was taking a nice nap, because I don't sleep much at night anymore, and you three woke me up just to irritate me!" She tries getting up, but can't.

"No mom, lay back down!" Sam pushes her back.

"Samuel!"

"Sorry! *Laughs* Just lay down and relax, it's your day off."

"No, I have to cook, anyway."

"Hey, we've got it! James, go!"

"Don't boss him around!"

"No ma, I was gonna cook anyway! How does dads homemade burgers sound?"

Jessica lets out a small gasp and her eyes widen.

"He taught you how to make his burgers?" Her eyes tear.

"Yeah!" He smiles.

"Honey, I've been craving your daddy's burgers all week! He made the best! I don't know what he did, but oh my gosh they were delicious!"

"They were! Hopefully I can make them as good as his were."

"I'm sure you can." She smiles and reaches up to hold the back of his head.

"I'm gonna miss all this food when you and your brother are away at school!"

"Hah!  Don't worry, we're teaching Mikey everything we know!"

Michael smiles and Jessica laughs.

"And one day we'll teach little man too!" He grabs her stomach.

"Hah! Well don't I just have the sweetest boys?!"

"Well this ones not too nice, he doesn't calm down!" James says watching her stomach.

"Hah! I've always had very active babies!"

"He's like dancin', isn't he?" Michael chuckles.

"Give me a beat!" Sam says and his brothers do what he asked.

Sam starts to rap 'The itsy bitsy spider', and Jessica laughs.

"Ooh he likes that! He really does seem like he's dancing, doesn't he?" She smiles and the boys continue.

"This kid is gonna break my water if he doesn't calm down! *Laughs* Ooh! Yeah that's my ribs you just stuck your foot in, Grayson!" Jessica makes a painful face.

"Owe!

Mom?" Sam stops singing to her belly and looks at her with a puzzled look.

"What?"

"Where are your ribs?"

"Where are my ribs?" She laughs.

"Where do they go when you're pregnant?"

"They stay in there, honey! *Laughs* They expand a little to make room for the baby."

"Expand?" Sam cringes.

"Yeah, my hips too. That why I look as wide as a fucking house."

"Why does that happen?"

"Why do my hips widen? Well the baby has to get out some way!"

"Okay stop!"

"Heh! No listen! I can teach you something!

Mostly during the third trimester your hips widen so that during labor and delivery, the birth canal can widen and make room for the baby to come out."

"Does it hurt?"

"Having a baby?  Yes!"

"I cannot even imagine!" James grabs his head.

"It's hard!  And it's pretty weird.. You know, to look down and see a baby sticking out of you."

"Ah!"

"Hey, I know what we should do!" Jessica smiles.

"What?"

"I should show you a labor and delivery video!  I'm sure I can find one online!"

"Mom, I'm not watching some strange woman give birth!"

"Well I'm not showing you mine!"

"I don't want to see anyone's!" Michael says.

"Oh you guys are gonna see one!  But not today.

*Sighs*

I'll tell you when.  Now why don't you start on lunch?  Your brother's hungry." She smiles at James.

"Heh!  I'm on it!"

***

"Burgers are ready, you guys!" James shouts.

"Alright, I'm coming." Jessica takes a deep breath and sits up.

She tries standing up but goes nowhere.

"Hah!  No I'm not!"

Sam laughs and walks over to help her up.

"Come on, 1..2..3!  There we go!"

Jessica chuckles and hops up with a gentle tug from Sam.

"Thanks, baby."

"No problem." He smiles.

"I'll be right there, I'm gonna run to the restroom.  Laying down on my back for that long, was not the best idea!"

"Heh, alright, well we'll wait for you."

"Don't worry, you boys start eating.  I'll be there in a second."

***

"Alright, I'm ready and baby's ready for some nom noms!" Jessica rubs her stomach.

She takes one bite and looks at James with tears in her eyes.

"Is it that bad?"

"No!

Oh my gosh, it's so good!  Tastes just like your daddy's!"

"Oh good, I'm glad!"

Jessica sits the burger down and cries.

"Awe mom, don't cry!"

"I'm sorry, I'm already emotional with this pregnancy, but everything with your father just makes it worse."

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have made them.  I feel bad."

"No, don't feel bad!  I love them!  I wanted to eat that, it's just... The little things like this are what hurts the most.

... Knowing he'll never cook for me again... It breaks my heart." She says in a whisper.

"Hah!  Look at me crying over a burger!" She wipes her tears then touches the top of her belly and says, "Grayson's over here like, would you just feed me, woman?!" Jessica laughs.

"Heh!  Yeah, don't cry, you'll make him upset.." James taps the top of her hand.

Jessica nods and cracks a tiny smile.

"Let's eat up, baby boy!" She looks down and taps her hand on her bump.

***

After lunch, they go back to the living room to hang out and spend the rest of their day off together.

Jessica always tells them to go out with their friends, and that she's fine, but they don't like for her to be alone.

"That was delicious!  Thank you, son." Jessica smiles at James.

"You're welcome, mom!  I'm glad you enjoyed it."

"I loved it!  Brought back a lot of memories..

Like that time your dad made them on that tiny pit at the beach!" She laughs.

"Hah!  Oh gosh, I remember that!  That's when you got stung by the jelly fish!"

"Oh God yes!  That was horrible!!  I was in so much pain, but your daddy, like always, was there for me." She smiles.

"Yes, in the grossest way possible!" Samuel says.

"Hah!  It wasn't that bad!"

"He peed on you!"

"Out of love!! I was in pain! Oh my gosh, it burned so bad!"

"It looked bad!"

James chuckles, then looks down and his smile slowly fades.

"Man.. How does life change so quickly?

Dads gone and now we're getting a new little brother.. Who would have known our lives would be so different just from a year ago?"

"I know..." Jessica softly circles her fingertips on her belly.

"Boys.. Losing your dad is probably the hardest thing we'll ever go through.. It has made us stronger... We are weak at times, but together... Me and my boys can do anything.

This little baby is coming into this world soon, and he's gonna need us. Not just me, he needs his big brothers too... It'll be hard the first time we see him, because he's apart of your dad, and... That's his last creation.

...But it's also gonna be so great to look into his little eyes and see what your father gave us.

The room became quiet.

"Why did he leave us?" Michael breaks the silents.

"Baby.. Sometimes things happen that we can't explain.. Horrible things.. Things we can't control and don't understand... It's hard.. It's so hard!  But we have to be strong.  We are all we have and we can get through this!"

".. I just miss him so much, ma." Michael starts to cry.

Jessica wraps her arms around him and pulls him to her chest.

Michael wraps his arm around her and starts to sob.

"I'm sorry mom!  I try not to be sad, because we need to be happy, and we need to keep you happy, but I can't take it anymore!  I want him back, mommy!"

"Baby boy!  I know. 

I do too.." Tears pour down Jessica's face.

"Don't hide your emotions because of me.  It's okay to cry!

I know this is difficult.. I can't imagine losing a parent so young.  Your father loved you so so much... He loved all of you.  He will never ever leave you!  He'll be in your heart.. Forever."

James and Samuel don't say anything and try to be strong.

"I feel bad for Grayson.." Michael says rubbing his thumb back and forth on her stomach where his hand was laying.

Jessica's lips quivered and tears fell down her face.

"... He'll be okay. 

He's coming into a great family.. He has aunts, uncles, grandmas and a terrific grandpa.. He has a bunch of cousins.. A mommy.... And three amazing big brothers... He also has the most amazing angel in heaven watching over him... His daddy.  This baby is so blessed."

James stared at the ground, fighting back tears, while Samuel looked down and held his face in his hand.

"And you two.. It's okay to be sad.. Everyone has their moments.  Don't feel like you have to be strong twenty four seven just for me!

I'm supposed to be that way for you!  I know I haven't been, but I really do try.  I think I'm getting a little better.."

"You ARE strong, mom!  We couldn't live without you.

You're the glue that holds us all together!

...We have always been this beautiful piece of art.. That's what our family is... When dad left.. We fell apart.

Like someone came by and ripped us in half.. Threw us on the ground stomped on us.

But you put us back together.  The picture will never be perfect again.. The marks and the rips are still there.. But we're together.  You, me, Sam, Mikey.. Dad, and Grayson.. We're that beautiful piece of art.. Just a little beat up..."

"Aw James.."

"Please don't think you're not strong, because if it wasn't for you.. I don't know how we'd survive.

... Thank you, mom.  We love you."

"I love you too.  My boys mean everything to me.  You're all my entire world.  I live for you..

You three.. Four, are the only reasons I want to get out of bed each morning.  You say you all couldn't survive without me.. but there's no way I'd ever be able to make it without you guys.. We're a team." She cracks a small tearful smile.

"A team that has been to hell and back.. But a team that cannot be broken."

***

I'm half asleep, sorry if it doesn't make sense!