After Jessica's appointment Jane and her mother took her to lunch.

"Jessie, you okay?"

"Yeah.. It's just..

Seeing him... I don't know.

It's hard."

"Baby, I can't imagine. I don't even know what to say to comfort you.. I can't imagine what you must go through every single day."

Jessica looks at her mother with tearful eyes.

"It's hard.

Seeing and feeling him move is the greatest feeling in the world.. But the fact that Sam isn't here with me to feel him.. It makes me feel guilty.. It makes me feel sad, and it makes me mad.

You know I believe that everything happens for a reason, and God wouldn't give me this if I couldn't handle it, but sometimes I'm mad at him...

Sometimes in really pissed at him.

Why would he take him away from me? Sam was this young, fun loving guy.. He never did anything to hurt someone else. He was the best person on this planet.. Why did he have to die?" Jessica's voice grows deep with anger.

"Why am I left here alone?"

"You're not alone, baby! You have us, and you have your boys that love you."

"I know mom, but I am alone!

Sam and I did everything together! Everything!

I loved him so much. He was my entire world..

And now he's gone and it'll never be right again.

When I think of how I'll never see him again, it makes me sick to my stomach! I just like to think that he's on a business trip, or.. I don't know! Anywhere but where he is!" Tears pour down Jessica's face.

"And the boys.

They've been so great, but I know it's hard on them too.

Especially on little Michael.  He's not a baby, I know that, but still...

And the twins.. He's gonna miss their graduation. 

One of the proudest moments in their life.. Their father is gonna miss.

Poor little Grayson won't even know his daddy." She looks down and softly rubs her belly.

"How am I supposed to have a baby without him?

He was always so great in the delivery room.  He could make me smile no matter how much pain I was in! He would look at me and say something.. Anything! And I would smile. I don't know how I'll do it without him."

"He will be with you, Jessie!"

Jessica wipes her face and sniffles.

"I hate being upset all the time.

A time that is supposed to be happy and celebrated, isn't supposed to be fill with tears and sadness. 

I worry all the time about if I'm making the baby sad.. If I'm hurting him... Today seeing him smile.. That was a good feeling, cause I've spend that last seven months thinking I was carrying a sad baby.  That smile was everything for me.

.. He looked so happy." Jessica says in a whisper while a small smile appeared on her face.

"He's the light at the end of this dark tunnel.. For me and the boys. 

We need him."

After their meal, Jane went to the restroom and Jessica took this time to ask her mom a question.

"Mom, I don't know if you were planning to, or wanted to, but I would really love it if you would be in the delivery room with me when Grayson's born."

"Awe sweetie, of course I'll be in there with you!!"

"Thanks mom." Jessica smiles softly.

"I want to ask Jane if she would be in there as well."

"Aw sweetie, I think that she'd love it if you asked her."

"Yeah? I just think it would be nice to have her in there for Sam..

I'm having a hard time with this because I'm his wife, but ma.. She's lost her husband, and now her son. I can't even imagine that feeling.

I don't even want to think of how horrible that must feel." Jessica's eyes tear.

"I know. Poor Jane.

She's coming. Ask her, sweetie."

Jane sits down and Jessica takes a deep breath.

"Jane.."

"Yes sweetie?"

"I was um.. I was wondering if you would be in the delivery room when I have the baby."

Jane covers her mouth and her eyes fill with tears.

"Oh Jessica.

.. I would love to, baby.  Thank you so much for asking me!  It really makes me happy that you would want me in there when my little grandson is brought into the world."

"Of course I want you in there!  Jane, you're like a second mom to me.  You have always supported Sam and I, and I can't have this baby without the two strongest women I know." Jessica reaches across the table and grabs their hands.

Dorothy smiles, and Jane stands up and hugs her.

"Aw, sweetie!  Thank you!  Thank you so much!  I love you, sweet girl."

"I love you too, Jane."

Jane holds her in a tight embrace, then holds her bulging belly in her hands.

"And I love you too!  We're all so ready to meet you, little guy!" She kisses her bump and Jessica smiles.

***

After lunch they continued their girls day at the spa.

Jessica was sitting in the chair getting her toes done.

She laid her head back and rest her hands on her belly.

The feeling of her unborn son move around inside of her, brought her great comfort.

It was very relaxing, until she got a tightness in her stomach.

"Ow." Jessica says in a whisper while scrunching her face.

"You okay, baby?"

"Yeah, I just got a cramp"

"You've gotten a few of those while we've been here.

Baby's coming soon!" She smiles.

***

A few days later.

"Mom, what is this?"

"Samuel!  That's a breast pump!"

Sam drops it and wipes his hands on his shirt.

"Sam, I haven't used it!"

"I know, but that's just weird!"

"Sam, I know it's weird, but you're probably gonna see my boobs, because babies are always eating!"

"Mom.. Can we please not talk about your boobs?"

She laughs, then gets a sharp pain in her stomach.

"Ah shit!"

"I'm sorry!" Sam's eyes widen.

"No, it's not you!  I'm having a contraction."

"Are you okay?"

"Yes, please shut up!" She bends over in pain.

"I'm sorry!"

"Shut the fuck up, Sam!!"

Once the pain passes, she breathes heavy and looks at Sam.

"I'm sorry I said that, baby!  I didn't mean to be mean to you!"

"It's okay.  Are you sure you're okay?  They're getting worse, ma."

"I'm fine.  This is what's supposed to happen, baby."

"Oh."

Jessica chuckles at the scared expression on his face.

"What's wrong, baby?"

"Why did you look like that?"

"Heh!  Well you see, there's this little person inside me, and the closer I get to my due date, I'm gonna start having small contractions, before I start having the really big contractions, and eventually have to push the little person out."

"They get worse?!" His eyes widen.

"You're slow, son."

"I'm just worried about you."

"Awe, don't be!  I'll be okay, baby.

It's not like I haven't done it before."

"Yeah, but still."

Jessica smiles softly at him, then says, "Hey, I forgot!

Boys, come down here!"

"Oh no, mom.. You're not gonna show us that birth video, are you?"

"We'll see." Jessica smirks at Samuel.

"Mom, please don't!"

"Stop being a baby!  BOOOOYS!!" She yells louder because Michael and James had still not come down.

"What's wrong, are you okay?" James runs down and Michael runs down behind him.

"Is the baby coming?!"

"No not yet!  I'm fine!  I want you guys to come sit with me and watch this video."

"Guys, she's gonna torture us." Sam says.

"What?" James looks at him puzzled.

"Just come sit with mama." Smiles and pats the seat beside her.

"Hand me my laptop, please."

Michael hands it to her and she places it on her belly.

"Oh no mom, we don't wanna watch this!" James says when he sees what she's typing.

"Oh you're gonna watch it!"

"But why?"

"Because I want you to see it.  Then you'll really appreciate me, because you'll see what I went through to bring you three into the world!

"But we already appreciate you, you know that!" Sam says.

"Well now you'll Really appreciate me!" She smiles and starts the video.

"Ow!!  Oh  God!" James' eyes widen.

"Mom no, I don't wanna see anymore!" Michael covers his face.

"Why is that baby's head the size of a watermelon?!" Sam yells, as Jessica laughs at them.

"Mommy, please don't make me watch anymore!" Samuel whines and lays his forehead on her shoulder.

Jessica laughs and taps his leg.

"I thought birth was supposed to be beautiful!"

"It is Michael!"

"That's not beautiful, mom!" James says.

"Oh yes it is!  Yes it's disgusting, but it's beautiful!" She smiles.

The woman screams and James grabs Jessica's arm.

"Mom, I am so so sorry!"

"Yeah mom, I'm sorry too!  That must've been even worse when you had James and I!

You were so young!  Just a baby yourself!"

"It was pretty bad." Jessica nods.

"Mom, I'm so sorry!  Thank you for doing that for us." Michael says before the twins say in unison, "Yes, thank you, mom!"

"Awe, you're welcome boys!" Jessica smiles.

"I don't want you to go through that again." Sam says.

"Just one more time!"

"You can't get anything for it?  Drugs.. A hammer?"

"Heh!  Well, I could get an epidural, but I've never had one, so I was planning on going natural again."

"But why?!  The medicine is there, why not take it?"

"That's what your father said.  But I don't know, I just preferred to suck it up and take the pain."

"You're a great, mom.  You're so strong."

"Awe, thanks James!"

"You really are, mom!" Sam says.

"Yeah, I can't even imagine having to.. Ugh!" Michael gets a chill.

"Hah!  Are you happy you guys never have to do that?"

"Definitely!" They all answer.

***

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