keiths pov

"okay dude why'd you bring me out here?" lance asks me, as we stand in the simulator room, the first place we met, he yelled at me for goofing off or something like that.

"i was just wondering if this reminded you of anything" i ask the blue boy hoping the area would spark some form of memories, he just looks around the room confused, then looks at me and shakes his head.

"no is it supposed too?"he asks me. i feel my blood boil, it had been WEEKS, going place to place in search for the lucky one that would bring back his memories, ive been saying random sentence important from our past in hopes tht would work and ive been attempting to recreat senarios that hapened, NOTHING. instead of getting my husband back i look like a fool and have to watch as he gets closer to matt hol-gun- gah!!! what am i supposed to calm them. soon i feel my anger reach a peak.

" i dont get it lance what do i have to do to make you see! make you remeber! you are such a pain yet i cant live without you!" i shout, then it hits me the one thing i havent tried....kissing him. so i grab his coat collar and pull him closer to me, our lips smashing together, i feel a spark egnite in my stomach...but it dosent get the chance to travle as lance pulls away from me wiping his mouth on his sleeve.

"dude what the hell is wrong with you! im with matt!" he yells that turns to leave.

"no wait lance-" i stat but he stops me mid sentence, and pauses his walk all together.

"dude look you,  have been acting weird the past few days... i think we need to take a break from each other for a while...let you calm your shit, clear your head." Lance said and continued his walk out. no wait, i didnt want to lose him all together i dont want us to drift appart any more. i think up a million excusses for my actions and chace after lance ready to use one of the fake storys. i place a hand on his shoulder and he stops.

" lance wait i can eplain please, let me explain." i say, he turns around and i feel my stomach fill with hope, he will listen, he'll let me explain...i wont lose him. as soon as the thought forms in my head i feel a pain in my wrist and i am on my knees my arm twisted in an akward position, lance stands above me a dark look tainting his sky blue eyes.

"i said leave me alone for now, got that" he spits out and drops my wrists. he walks out and i rub my sore arm holding it close to my body and watch my lover get farther and farther from me.

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i never thought id have to live this way again... i thought when i shoved that daggar in my abdomen i would never have to feel the pain of losing lance again... but then again i never really had him. lance mckein wasnt my lance... he was darker, more aloof, more closed off. it wasnt the man i married and he wouldnt ever be the man i married until he gets his memories back, but how can i help him get them back with him hating me right now.

i miss you so much lance, it has been centuries and my love for you has yet to diminish.