one word - depressed

Today was almost completely awful.
I'm empty

I feel like I'm endlessly falling through this hole of nothing and it never ends
They all think I'm fine so nobody ever asks if I'm ok

Nobody fucking cares that's the thing

I literally cant cope...💔

it's just part of life it will get better soon

its all lies

Fucking lies

I can't cope honestly
I trust nobody
Hate myself
Hate how I look
Hate everything
Hate living

And that is that
I'm not surprised if I don't live past 15
I honestly couldn't care less
I have nothing to live for
Nothing
Just nothing

My parents think it's just a phase but I don't tell them my deepest thoughts, they wouldn't believe me

I say I want to die and they just don't believe me

Nobody believes me

I've tried to cut myself today with a pin bc there are no blades but it didn't work anyway :(

My friends say everyone cares abt me but they don't and ik that for a fact...

I actually can't be dealing w this

I spent most of my day listening to sad music and feeling sad

It's just moods wings
They said
It would be over soon
They said

All bloody lies and I can't be dealing with anymore of this shit

t h e r e s  n o  p o i n t

I can't be dealing w this shit

Signing off now
Bye I guess

💔