I sually don't loose my temper, but if I get angry....then it's true; I am Scary!

Jhilmil's pov

Life has turned upside down. Today is our First month wedding anniversary.

Yes, I remember this date! Our wedding Date!

But what troubled me is, that Beast left me alone.
It's been over a week, since he left me after that incidence.
And I practically never saw him.

Isn't that what you wanted! Mocked my inner self!
But there is this nagging inside my heart that it needs to see Him.!

I hate myself for not being happy in his absence.
But my stupid heart hates the fact that my own husband doesn't care about my feelings of loneliness.
Whatever I had heard, marriage is supposed to give you company, peace and comfort but here I am, feeling lonely and trapped!

And to top it all, mom is behaving cold towards me.
I tried to apologize many times but all went in vein. She is not talking to me.
Not that I am complaining....i know I deserve much worse!

To think of it now, I feel stupid to run into those jerks...i feel goosebumps when ever I remember their torture....but now I have come a long way in terms of this forceful marriage I once loathed. I wanted to accept that I am married now!
I wanted to accept that may be I can put up with this marriage with him.

I waited for him every single day and night....but he just....he just disappeared in thin air! I wanted to apologize for my mad behavior! He never gave me a chance to explain....his anger hurt me...but all I care now is...that right at this moment, I wanted to look at his deep intense eyes!

But Nobody here, is talking about him. And I didn't dare ask mom about his absence....because i saw her crying...talking to his picture....she is in so much pain...just because of my stupidity...she is still tolerating me...and I couldn't be more thankful!

And surprisingly, All the restrictions have been removed....i am allowed to do whatever I wanted to do...to tell you the truth.....everybody is treating me as if I don't exist!

And it breaks my heart!
I felt so heavy...i wanted to share my pain...so I called my maasi, and told her everything that happened except for the fact that how he blackmailed me to marry him.

She scolded me for acting like a kid, she told me to behave like a married girl now!
She told me who I was now and I swear I had goosebumps all over my body!

I am now Mrs. Jhilmil Raghuvendra Singh Rathore!

And her advice was - Ignoring your partner's needs and expecting a happy relationship is like ignoring your plants need water and still expecting a beautiful garden!
Trust me, even the strongest feelings expires when you are ignored and
Taken for granted!

Just sort your problems once you see him. It's never too late!
Speak your heart and become his friend before anything!

And I have this tiny-miny feeling that he would show up today!
After all, this marriage means so much to him... Or atleast I would like to think like that!
I am pondering over what if we were a normal couple...!
But is there anything normal between the two of us?

Anyways, I shrugged those feelings away and decided to take a shower.
I wanted to look good, if he returned!

I took a relaxing shower and wore a nice pearl blue saree with a string backless blouse. I did a light make up and then arranged our room a little.

I went to the kitchen and decide to bake a small cake.

I know.. I know...you all must be thinking what has gone into you jhilmil! Are you really doing all this?

Well, I am just trying to put some efforts for today, like my maasi had asked me.

Because according to her -
I ain't gotta time to be timid.... I must be bold and daring to face my Beast!

Her words not mine!

Anyways, I am all set to bake a cake and then I will wait for him.

Mom once passed through the kitchen and halted for a few seconds looking at my messed up state.

Before she left, she said - just in case, If you are baking cake for him, then chocolate is his favorite flavor.

I jumped at my place and gave her one of my brightest smile and she nodded.

I wanted her to be open to me...but I guess it will take some time....atleast till the time I see my Husband!

I shooed those feelings away and engrossed myself in baking.

I finished my work and placed the cake in fridge.

It's almost 5 in the evening and still no sign of him...may be I am assuming wrong....he might not come...may be he is still mad at me!

But I had to take my chances!

I walked to the library and decided to read to pass time.

I found my favorite "Twilight" and soon I was hooked.

A very familiar scent reached my nostrils and my heart beat raised....!

A smiled played on my lips...i knew it's HIM!

I literally ran out to get a glimpse of him!
My Beast...My Husband!

I looked in all directions but I couldn't find him...but there was a chaos amongst the staff...which confirmed that he is definitely here!

I roamed in all rooms like a mad girl...and there I saw him....walking through the corridor...talking something on his mobile...but I cared less!

I tried stopping him....but my words got stuck....i began chasing him...panting....i followed him....i saw him going to our bedroom.

I ran there and stood frozen at the door... Looking at his toned back...he was still murmuring something on his mobile...but just a glimpse of him and my heart did something strange to me!

I felt my tears....and my legs started to run where he was standing.... And I back hugged him real tight...making him startled...infact he stumbled a bit...a sob escaped my mouth and I said -

Sorry! I am so sorry Husband! Please forgive me!

He stiffened and removed my hands that were on his chest....and turned to my side.
He was shocked to see me like this.! He eyes me top to toe...drinking all my features...as if I was his favorite candy!
His eyes softened when he noticed my tears and he whispered - Rose...What...You...I...

But I cut him off and strangely, I cupped his handsome face and said with tear filled eyes - Happy First Month Anniversary Raghuvendra Singh Rathore!

And I hugged him...and sobbed.

He was still in shock...with deep intense eyes, he scanned me as if he was making sure if he was dreaming!

You remembered! - he then whispered just a few inches away from my lips

I nodded.

He read all my features and asked - Are you Ok?

I said - Now that you are here, I feel ok!
He narrowed his eyes but I added - I baked A cake for us! Won't you cut it?

His eyes twinkled and he nodded.

I took him to the balcony where I had placed the cake and gestured him to cut it....he took knife and held my hand and cut it. I watched his face...and he looked genuinely happy.

He fed a piece and when I offered he refused....and I felt hurt....but his eyes travelled to my lips and next thing...he claimed my lips!
I Froze at his sudden act.
He licked some chocolate from the corner of my lips and then said -

Happy. Peck. First. Peck. Month
Peck. Anniversary. Peck. Rose!

I shivered on his rough touch on my lips.

He pulled me so close to himself that I could touch his nose....he whispered - Thank you for this surprise! I missed you Rose!

I am forgiven? - I asked

He shook his head and he again smash his lips on mine and this time it was a harsh kiss!
Deep... Demanding... Dominating!

He was punishing me through his kiss....he bit my lower lips and pinch my bare waist. Gasping, I opened my mouth and he explored each corner of my mouth with his hungry tounge. I was lost in his assault...when he opened my blouse string and I came back to reality.

No matter how much I tried to put behind all our past....but I still seem to hesitate to accept him whole heartedly. I didn't know if I was ready to surrender...!

I stuttered - Please....Stop...Raghuvendra!

But he ignored and tightened his grip on my waist, and nuzzled his face on my neck...his grip on my hair tighened...so much that it hurt!

I pleaded - Please, I don't want this! Please don't force me!

I panicked and started to wiggle in his hold and pushed him on his chest...may be he was in a daze...because he stumbled.

Both of us were panting....our heavy breathing was the only sound heard in the room.

I heard crumbling of bones and I looked up to him...he was clenching his jaw...his knuckles turned white....veins popped out on every muscle.....his eyes...red...He shouted - What did you just say?

I am Sorry! - I whispered

Sorry! Sorry for what Jhilmil? - he clenched my arms brutly

I am not ready for this! Please! - I cried

He left me and roamed in the room like a angry mad bull... And he then thrashed a vase, breaking it in many pieces which made me flinched.

Why can't you just tell me honestly how do you feel about me? Damn it! Because how you act around me, is confusing me to death. - he shouted

I thought you wanted me the way I want you but I am wrong... I am again wrong! - he added

He pulled his hair and yelled - I don't even know which is worse!

Keeping love for you inside me and wait for you!
Or, Expressing it out loud to face your rejection!

But enough is enough! First you doll up...create this setting...and then when I opened my heart...you just crush me...Are you a five year old to not understand the husband-wife relation!
Listen carefully Rose, if you won't give me my rights willingly....then i will claim it my way! Be Prepared for it! I will not wait any longer!

With that he slammed the door on my face!

I stumbled and cried!
This is not how I wanted to face him!
Oh! What do I do now?

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