Ragini. She was Twenty one when He first met her. Her voice still buzzes in his ears every time, when He think about that day.

"Is this your notebook?" Ragini said.

"Yeah, Thank You." Sanskar replied genuinely.

"I found this over there." Ragini smiled and time was stopped for that moment. He don't know how but he could feel her beautiful soul and He knew something was going to happen.

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It's been three years. That wooden bench in the front lawn in the their college had witnessed all the ups and downs, friendship, fights and love between a cute, innocent, chashmish, soft couple.

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In a Park, while they spending lovely time together,

"why do you hide your face while I'm looking at you?? I always want to look into your eyes while I'm talking to you." Sanskar questioned.

"I don't know, I can't look into your eyes, I feel shy, and if you see it. You will tease me more." Ragini said shyly

Sanskar spread his hand forward, lifted her chin and kissed her forehead.

Sanskar smile widely in excitement and whispered, "Did you hear that? Are you feeling the same?"

Ragini replied, "What?"

In a doubt, he mumbled, "Like, the heart beating louder whenever we come near to each other?"

Ragini controlled her smile and lied, "Not so!"

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Life was beautiful, because she was in that life. She made him happier than He ever dreamed he could be. it gave him a whole new reason to breathe.

But then, one day, she started getting sick. He didn't worry too much at first, after all everybody gets sick sometimes. But ragini worried about it.

It took more than a month of being sick before it got the best of her as she diagnosed with cancer.

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"just this one time sanskar..just one more pleaaaaaseeee!!" Ragini implored.

"we've clicked over 25 selfies..how many more?" Sanskar said impatiently.

"okay okay fine! Last one..say cheeeeseee" said ragini cutely

"*giving a broad grin* finally!" Sanskar said with smile

"you never know when it is the last time Sanskar..." Ragini said sadly

"don't you dare say that again.now come let me drop you home." Sanskar dragged her with him.

"you really made my day Sanskar.thanks a ton.." Ragini said placing a kiss on his cheek.

"now be a good girl and take your tablets alright?" Sanskar said in a warning tone.

"Aye Aye captain!" agreed Ragini.

He flashed her his million dollar smile only to turn around and fight back his urge to cry.

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At hospital, "Spend more time with her. She won't be here much longer. tell her to skip Chemo, it won't help and will make her miserable."" Doctor advised.

That hit him like a ton of bricks. He doesn't even say anything else at the momemt

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After 4 months,

"why do you hide your face while I'm looking at you?? I always want to look into your eyes while I'm talking to you." Sanskar questioned.

"I can't, I lost my hair in this chemotherapy. And my scalp is visible, please go away from me. Never come back." Ragini said suppressing her tears.

Sanskar spread his hand forward, lifted her chin and kissed her forehead.

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Him humming a song. * hmmm ummmm nmmmm hmmm*

"you sing terribly." Ragini said with a laugh.

"Have you looked at your dance moves?" Sanskar whispered in her ear

"They are awesome right?" Ragini asked with a smile.

He smiled.

"What will you do after I'm gone?" She asked sadly.

He hold her closer to himself. It's one Sanskar in the night and they're in the middle of the road, dancing. Ragini, too fragile even to stand. He's almost lifting her body in his arms. Just to make her happy, just to fulfill one of her last wishes.

"I don't know." Sanskar replied

"Will you marry anyone?"

"I don't know." Sanskar said again

"Will you love again? Live again? Laugh again?" Ragini questioned with sad smile

"I don't know." He said again

She asked him to stop and looked into his eyes, full moon shining bright over their head.

"Let me tell you my last wish. After I'm gone, you'll not mourn after me for years. I want you to move forward in your journey. I want you to be alive, and live on my behalf too. I want you to always keep me and my memories in your heart, as an inspiration, as a friend, as a lover, but at the same time I want you to move on with a smile on your face. I don't want you to waste your precious life in grieving after me. I want you to hold on to everything that you've shared and learnt from me, but at the same time I want you to let me go. I want you to restart your life, and give everything another chance. You have always been, and will forever be my miracle. And that's what I want to see you as from up there." Ragini said with smile and expecting the positive reply from her soulmate

"okay." Sanskar nodded and kissed her forehead surpassing his tears...

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Ragini held her wrinkled hands and said, "Are you feeling the same?"

Sanskar replied, "What?"

Ragini whispered, "Like, the heart lowering it's pace?"

He controlled her tears and lied, "Not so!"

She smiled and a lonely tear escaped from her eye took her last breath. she was gone. She took his soul away. Took his life away. Took his heart away.

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After 2 days,

"why do you hide your face while I'm looking at you?? I always want to look into your eyes while I'm talking to you." Sanskar questioned.

When he didn't hear reply from her this time, he spread his hand forward to sense her skin, but all he touched was her sculpted image over grave stone.

His devasted screams are echoing in empty graveyard.

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Every morning he promised himself to let her go. Every night it was his pen, paper and her.

Sometimes He think, what if he didn't forget his notebook that day... then he would never be able to hear that sweet voice. He would do anything to hear that again. But all He can do is to miss her. "Hey dear, I know you miss me, Dont miss me much. Go n Have fun with your friends n family. I will wait for you." this is all He hear from her voicemail when he was on trip with his friends once!

His hands slowly open the diary, with her pictures with him to recall his past with her everyday.

He lived. He lived on her behalf too. He lived a life that she had always wanted to live. A life to make everyone happy. She would be proud of him. She had to be, after all her miracle on earth was sparkling in her love.

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Peace!