Zaine told me I was more worth it than I thought I was to him. I've been feeling odd for these past few days. I told him how I didn't feel like my mind belonged to the body I am taking care of. I also told him how I was able to feel negative emotions and try to get away from it. Most of the time, the emotions feel heavy, but sometimes it's cold. Sometimes, it's hot. Sometimes, it feels like a thousand weights that my heart is trying to hold up. I can't tell, and, neither can he, but, there is something that has been made, and still in the process of making, between him and I. I don;t know what it is, or what it's called, it's just... THERE. He told me I may still be trying to find myself out, since Poem #6, asking myself who I am. I still don't know who I am, but, I can say that I either have an attraction or not.

-Nikki Greul

Poem #7

I want to love you, 

But you already have someone who is not me,

But someone who's alien,

Foreign,

To me.

I can't drag you to me, that would be selfish,

But I can't stop my feelings for you, or someone else.

I'm not good at sharing,

But I'll try,

Just for you.