April 19~

Today was an alright day. I had swim today, and, yes, it was tiring, but fun. I tend to have a more optimistic side on swimming, when most say it's a really bad unit. Alex said I look like I'm losing weight, but I also feel like I'm losing weight. Tom had to talk to me about his break up with JJ, and, they're going through some really tough times, so I can see how they wouldn't want a relationship to worry about. This Saturday is the ENS workshop, and, Leo and I are planning to go full blown GAY at this event. Joan has these rainbow knee high socks, I had a rainbow cat shirt, complete with black shorts, a PRIDE! bracelet, a pastel rainbow choker, and my bottlecaps, with my bisexuality being shown. I think I'm closing up again. It really isn't because of anyone, it's just my instinct. It makes me feel a little... sad, that i have to take the initiative to tell my day, and not being asked, "And how was your day?" It makes me think they don't actually care enough to want to know about my day, which is ok, it just means I'm being more bottled then before. It's fine. I can handle it.

-Nikki Greul

April 20~

Today was an alright day. I was extra passionate today, regarding to English and Band.  Mr. Orchid is going to quit the high school band program, but go to a middle school band. Nico (French Horn) almost got into my tangled emotions. Sawyer is still interested in spending time with me. Alex and I watched Dexter from Netflix, and, it's a really interesting murder story about a guy who kills only bad guys, and works as a Forensic Blood specialist. JJ and I are getting somewhat closer. I think they are starting to grow a crush on me, which may be catastrophic for me academically. I still don't think I'm pretty, like how people say, such as Sam, Zaine, JJ, Lex, Alex, Mom, and others. It makes me want to cry because they may be lying, except for Zaine, Mom, and Alex. They... wouldn't lie to me, at least, I don't think so.

-Nikki Greul