April 17~

Today was a bit slow and boring, Zaine keeps on telling me not to worry so much about some things, but, I just can't help it, and he knows this. Tomorrow, I have a band thing going on (yay!), which means I need to find out what I need to bring with me. I'm a little tired, and I don't really know what's bothering me, ever since Zaine asked me. It's kind of a question mark for now.

-Nikki Greul

April 18~

Today was actually an alright day. I want to a band festival, and, we got a superior! We came back to the school, and I saw no point in going back to class, since there was only half an hour left. I have to catch up in English, but, it's ok. In band, I was put onto a kind of confusing march piece, playing Tambourine. Everyone kept asking why I was giving the music. First off, no one took the initiative, and second of all, I think it's ok that someone else than the section leader or a senior can do stuff, such as handing out music. I was able to get to get around a little faster, ask questions, and determine who should play on what, from a little guidance of course. I want to talk to someone about how something was supposed today, but, I guess we were wrong? There are a lot of believers, and my anxiety totally determines whether or not I should worry about it. Alex and Mom had two fights today. The reason why is because Alex thinks Mom is not there for her, but, she's not taking the initiative to go and ask Mom for her to be there. I'm just... really, really, really tired of hearing people fight. It makes my head hurt a lot and my anxiety heighten. I don't think it's fair that I have to try and be the medium, but the atmosphere was so dense, that I didn't want to do anything; Jake showed that too. I had to do my dishes and counters so, I just did not talk.

-Nikki Greul