After a week of zoning in and out of my consciousness, the hospital decided to discharge me. I stared at the ceiling while Anne packed my things, I heard my mother enter inside, speaking to someone over the phone, she hanged the call and spoke,

"Are you ready to go home A?"

I sat upright on the bed, nodded at her, and pulled my hair into a ponytail.

"Where is Harry?" I asked them, I was hoping for him to show up for a long time but Harry didn't make it to the hospital since yesterday.

"He has a meeting to attend, he said to me that he will come to meet you in the evening," my mother informed, I nodded and kept quiet.

Nodding has been my means of conversing for the past few days, although I remained completely still and silent to the whole world, my heart cried out loud in pain and disperse. I looked at the window, I was able to see a different person than who I was.

Anne smiled at me while extending her hand, I took hold of it and got up from the bed. Giving the room one last look we walked out of it, my mind gave its reasoning for why I shouldn't leave this place, it kept repeating the reality out there but I wanted to do this for Harry, he deserved it.

Harry has been supportive for the past two weeks, tolerating my untimely panic attacks and smiling to my blank face, consoling my sudden bursts outs, and withstanding my guilty vent offs. He has been the most supportive boyfriend that the whole world could ask for and all I have been doing was playing the victim, although my best friend paid the price.

I looked outside the shutter, Anne patted my hand now and then, reminding me that she will be there, always. The passing town soothed my wandering mind.

The car came to a halt in front of our house. I got down and walked inside, it was dark, the lights were off, I turned to ask my mother if there has been any electricity breakdown but I was left standing alone on the threshold, my mother and Anne out of my sight.

I decided to try the switches, I clicked it on, the lights came on with a booming voice of Harry, screaming in excitement, "Welcome home!"

I contemplated over the situation, I looked at the man I fell head over heels in love, the man I have always wanted, a voice inside of me said this isn't right and I knew it was true.

Harry extended a bouquet of sunflowers with a never-fading smile, I wanted that smile to last forever but I also knew it wouldn't last long with the new me next to him.

"Harry, we need to talk," I asserted, gathering all the confidence I wanted to speak with him and walked outside with Harry on my trail.

I heard his footfall behind of me but I couldn't bring myself to tell him what I wanted to but also I didn't want Harry to suffer with me, I turned to him with a blank face, controlled my emotions, and spoke the dreaded words that broke him and me.

"Let's break up," and bowed my head, unable to look him in the eyes.

"You are joking, that isn't a good welcome joke A," he said after a minute of silence, I did not dare to look at his face.

"Tell me you are joking A!" He asked after my silence. I kept still.

"A? Look at me!" He said and lifted my face, I stayed blank, trying so hard not to break down in front of him, it was already too much to put Harry into a situation like this.

"Tell me what did you say!" He asked, his voice slowly breaking at the end. I immediately felt the urge to soothe him but I retracted my sanity and repeated.

"I want to break up with you, lets end it here Harry."

"You are lying, this isn't true," he mumbled to himself, looking at me for a sudden change of expression.

"Harry please stop making a big fuss, get over it Harry," I told him, devoid of my emotions.

"Why Aini?" He asked, his eyes and posture slowly tearing.

"I don't love you, Harry, don't you see? We are toxic to each other and neither of us can be happy together..." He immediately shushed my approaching lies by placing a finger on my lips.

I wondered what it would feel to abort the breakup mission, hug him and get back to our carefree old life, it would be bliss but I wondered, could I bring myself to move on after all the guilt and pain? I knew it wasn't happening any time soon.

"I know you are hurting now but we could make this happen Aini, we will get over it, we can do this, together." He tried to convince.

Convincing and consoling has been what Harry did for the past few days, I wanted it to stop, I knew this is going to hurt him but I will not make it worst for him.

"Don't you understand Harry? Just let me go, it may work out only if I love you but I don't," I spit venom, but the truth was the venom poisoned me too, slowly traveling inside my body.

"Enough!" He shouted and continued "enough! I don't want to listen to you anymore, I loved you..."

"But I don't, not anymore," I cut him off, he gave an unreadable look and walked away.

The silence fell, I dropped to the ground and stared at the blue sky, silent tears falling down my cheeks, Harry will always be the one for me but I couldn't make him any sadder, after everything, I love him.

Love isn't always about staying together, love is when you want your soulmate to be happy and I don't see it happening with us, I knew I was a coward but I don't think I will be able to do it, I decided to stay away from Harry is for best, he may be hurt now but he will move past it, at least that's what I want.

The day faded to dusk, venus peeked at the earth from a distance, displaying her magnificence to the gazers, it may be far from our planet but it never forgets to make her appearance, I wanted to be like it, I may be far from Harry's life but I want the best for him.

The dusk slowly turned to grey, grey to black, the streetlights coming so did ours. I heard someone walk to me, their footfalls approaching slowly.

"Hey, you want to talk about it?" I heard my mother ask, I shook my head in disagreement.

"Okay, come inside," my mother spoke after a while. We walked inside together.

Anne gave a small smile on my arrival, I nodded at her and walked straight to my room. I saw a tray with food resting on my side table, a little steam coming off of it, it was probably left there a few minutes ago.

I locked my room door, placed a few crumbs of bread by the window sill for the birds to devour, and ignored the tray full of food completely, switched off the lights, and got under my blanket.

The involuntary tears streamed down my face, making it hard to fall into obliviousness, thoughts of Zara and Harry clouded my mind, every happy moment that we spent together dimmed my brain in the process of shattering my already broken heart.

Hours and hours of sleeplessness invaded my night, making it impossible to let go of things. I realized that at the end of the day we were all a piece of shattered glass trying to mend into one.

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