23.01.25

where do you go to
with something that feels 
so difficult to talk about

where do you go to
with something that you can't ever picture
yourself saying out aloud

where do you go to
when the grounds you deemed safe 
turn out to be crumbling floors

where do you go to
when you know everyone is fighting their own wars
so you don't want to bother them with yours

in the end
you're alone

standing in a room, surrounded by closed doors
and slowly realizing
that it was you who locked these doors
and that it all along has been
your fault.