Causing Drama Intentionally

So less than half an hour ago, something very terrifying happened. In the last chapter, I wrote about how I had a panic attack from encountering someone at the college. This is building off that.

In a Discord server that I created, someone who I considered my friend decided to add that person to my server. This person immediately started lashing out via message.

They attempted to call out my real friends and I for being "childish" and told us to "grow up". This is coming from the person who barged into MY server and started attacking MY FRIENDS AND I. Tell us again how we're the ones who need to grow up.

The person I considered to be my friend, who I've known longer than this other person, also started lashing out in the chat. He claimed that I had faked my panic attack and was being over dramatic. He was defending the person he invited into my server.

My "friend" was not in the chat last year when the drama occurred. He did not see the messages this person sent. He did not read the outlandish claims. He did not see this person's adult partner lash out at a group of teenagers trying to defend themselves. My "friend" saw none of that.

I accepted that there would be mutual friends. I didn't like the thought of people I was close with being friends with someone who should be considered dangerous, but they had made their point clear. I wouldn't involve myself in that aspect of their lives. I refrained from speaking negatively about said person in front of them.

Let it be noted that nothing I ever said about this person was not true. I don't spread rumors. I only tell the truth when it comes to harmful situations. I told my professor to keep the person away from me because they attempted to harm someone else. I left school because I felt unsafe being near that person.

In fact, I still possess all the screenshots from the argument that happened last year. (I say last year as in last school year.) It shows me asking this person where they were because we had a project to work on and it was literally our grade. They instantly lashed out at everyone over things that were not even involved in the conversation. Their adult partner got involved as well.

A lot of the truth was shown that day. We learned how people truly felt and how they acted around others. Today seems to be a repetition of that day. True colors flashed brightly today and friendships were violently ripped apart.

This happened while I was cooking dinner. I have a bad habit of skipping meals daily, so this was going to be my only real meal for the day. I happened to look at my phone because I got a notification. When I saw the username I immediately felt my stomach churn. My heart started racing. My hands were shaking so badly that I was afraid I would drop my phone.

My pasta had finished cooking in the time I was a part of the argument happening in my server. My server was peaceful and had a vent channel for those who needed to speak their mind. That is where I spoke of this person giving me a panic attack.

The people who lashed out at us today, besides the person who was added, are never active in the server. They never speak in any of the channels. Why they decided to attack on our day off from school, at dinner time, I'll never understand.

Today was supposed to be a peaceful day off from high school and from college. A day where we could relax and have a day for ourselves. Instead, that was ruined. It was abruptly snatched away in a traumatic power move.

They made arguments that not "being over" the event that happened made us childish. Yet here they are, attacking us in my server, over the same issue. That seems rather hypocritical. The person that added them referred to the situation as "elementary". I'm sorry, when's the last time an elementary school student falsely accused someone of raping them, admitted that they lied, and then continued to blame everything they did wrong on some mental illness that magically manifested out of thin air. This was some real world shit.

To be called "over dramatic" for having a panic attack was absolutely ridiculous. I could not believe that my so-called friend, since freshman year, that I put my trust in, and talk to every day, could so easily betray my trust by adding that person to my server. It hurt to know that someone I was close with, could so easily throw me away after opening up about what really happened.

As of now, I'm worried to go to school tomorrow. Going to school means I have to deal with this person. I don't have any classes with him, luckily, but we tend to sit together on the bus to the college. I know it seems childish to say that I don't want him sitting next to me on the bus, but it's true. If he truly feels the way he acted in the chat, he will stay away from me from now on.

As I sit here and type this, I think about the person who caused all of this drama. I regret ever meeting them. In reality, I was introduced to that person because of someone else I am no longer friends with. If I could go back in time and talk to my freshman self, I would warn him about these specific people. I would warn him that no matter how many times you see them or how many times you may want to join in a conversation, don't do it. If I had been less naive my freshman year, I could have saved myself a world of suffering and regret.

If only I had a time machine. . .