Do you ever just

feel sad?

I feel like I'm in this

perpetual state of

waiting.

Like I'm early for an appointment

but I don't know when it's for

or what it is.

There is so much heartbreak

and death

and pain

in this world.

It feels like an endless spiral

and I don't know when it'll stop.

I just want it to stop.

To end.

For the misery,

and the clouds

and the sickness

and the hate

to go the fuck away.

Why is there so much hate in this world?

How can there be a God if there's never any light?

Because I don't see a light.

But I'm looking.

That is where I find my solace.

That I'm looking.