Do you ever want to run away?

Like, find your person and run

To that deserted island,

Never to be seen again.

An island with an endless

Supply of food and water.

With every book and movie

In the world, just no way

To contact those you

Left behind.

Who is the person you'd pick?

What do you do when you

know that the person you'd

pick, has someone else in mind?

I know I am nobody's favorite person.

Whether it's because we've never met,

Or your mama's your best friend,

Or you've known this person since kindergarten

Or he's your boy and I'm your girl.

If I ran away to that deserted island,

what message would I leave behind?

Because even though I'm nobody's

favorite person, they still love me,

right? Right?

If I left a note,

it would probably be song lyrics.

"I hope I made you smile

that's all I've ever wanted."

Why do I want to run away?

I want my hands to stop shaking.

I want the memories out of my head

whenever I close my eyes.

I want my mistakes not to matter anymore.

I want to forget the little things.

I hate anxiety.

I hate that it makes me think these things.

I hate that I've made mistakes.

I hate that I've hurt people I love

without the knowledge I was even doing it.

I just want to be happy

without feeling guilty for it.

I know the world isn't perfect,

but I want that to be okay.

I want to be able to say

"yes" instead of "yes, but."

I want that deserted island

to come to me.