Isnt this ironic. I am now gonna rant about rant books in a rant book. While I personally have never read a rant book I feel like they aren't really ment to be read. I mean they are out there so you could read them, but they are really just word vomit. So when I started this book I was asked by someone I know to break up my single paragraph of word vomit sk they could read it better. I was like sure, but after a couple of chapters I realized I wasn't writing this book for the enjoyment of others. I was writing this book to get my feelings and thoughts out there in a way that I was comfortable doing. Being the anti-social, socially anxious, introverted person that I am I dont really talk about feelings all that much. And you might be like, "Oh! So this is just a journal or diary!" No! To that I say no. This is me expressing to who ever has the patience to read rants that dont make sense what I am feeling or thinking. So this year J have been trying to be more positive. So in fitness I would allways say things like, well it could be worse. Apparently this is more annoying than being negative,  so I whent back to my normal self and the person J was talking to, who was complaining about my positivity, says, "Well now your just being negative." Like what do you want me to do! I get it. I'm really good at being neutral, but sometimes I just want to be a people pleaser. But this kinda just confirms my worst nightmare, no one likes me. And since no one reads this there will be no one to prove me wrong. So there. This is my rant on rant books.