I'm writing again, but from my apartment. I did indeed tell Owen I didn't feel well, and he pulled me aside and told me he knew that was bullshit.

I tried to deny it but he glared and told me how I was always being selfish. I didn't know how to respond, so I stayed quiet.

He walked away and I quickly left.

Am I really being selfish? Am I a bad person?

I think I'm going to shoot myself.

...That'd probably be selfish.