(Hi, I figured I should show how Cracker acts through some regular writing, so here u go, just a regular day. Takes place August 9th, 2018. Also, that's Cracker up there)

I sat down on the swively chair at my desk. That's what I like to call it, because it swivels.

Tally was sitting on the floor by the entrance of my cubicle, as usual. She looked up and smiled, "Hi,"

I looked at her and grinned, "Heya,"

"Joe said today was your birthday," She said, tilting her head a bit, "So, uh, happy birthday,"

"Why thank you,"

I glanced at Joe's, my dad, office door. I figured he wouldn't come out to greet me, he called me this morning after all.

A few hours pass with me just sorting some documents. I had got up to go to the bathroom, but on the way back to my desk, I was alone in the hall.

Iris seemingly came out of nowhere, so I tried to go in a different direction but she cornered me.

She smirked as my ears drooped and I cowered.

"You're such a fucking coward, saltine," she spat.

I pressed myself into the corner, "...I'm not a coward." I said, trying to stand my ground.

She rolled her eyes, "Yeah, and I'm a fairy,"

"Well, then you better show your wings, Ms fairy,"

She growled and slapped me, "Leave the sarcastic comments to me, bastard,"

I flinched and I could feel my chest tighten. Already, tears were threatening to spill.

"Awww, gonna cry?"

"N-No,"

"Oh, please, you're red in the face and your bottom lip is quivering like a toddler."

I automatically covered my mouth in response to this. Iris chuckled lightly,

"It's so easy to make you cry, it's almost boring,"

"Then leave m-me alone,"

She just shook her head with a smirk and punched me in the stomach, causing me to flinch hard. I accidentally hit my head on the wall, which resulted in me falling to my knees.

Iris took a step back and kicked me. It was getting harder to breathe. I knew she wouldn't leave me alone until I cried, so I stopped trying to hold back the tears.

She rolled her eyes and walked back down the hall. I immediately did my best to cease the crying, and it mostly worked.

I forced myself to my feet and went into the nearest bathroom. Luckily for me, it was empty. I went to the nearest mirror and peered at myself.

I was red in the face from the brief moment I cried, and I could visibly see myself trembling.

I knew Tally would be concerned if I walked back like this, so I simply wiped my face and did some breathing exercises.

I couldn't help but think about how ugly I look. Too many freckles. Hair is too messy. Eyes are... Too big, I guess.

I glanced over myself one more time and decided I looked okay enough. I walked back to my cubicle and Tally glances up from her notebook.

I tried to see what was on the notebook but she quickly turned it away.

I smirked, "Is that your journal or something?"

She scowled and didn't respond. I ruffled her hair and sat back in my chair. She made another face and fixed her pigtails and bow.

I remember back before I transitioned, people would do that to me all the time.

I started to sort again, my mind drifting to the earlier incident.

-Time skip-

I shut the journal after finishing the entry. My phone started ringing. I pulled it out and checked the caller ID.

It was my twin brother, Owen. I pressed accept and put it to my ear, "Ello?"

"Happy birthday, lil bro,"

I scowled a bit, "You too, and you're only older by like 8 minutes or something,"

I heard him laugh.

"You doing anything special today?"

"No, I have no friends, remember?" I said in a joking tone, though I was far from joking.

There was a pause, "...I can't say I'm surprised,"

I was taken aback by this comment, as it really hurt. Was I really that mean to him as a kid?

I stayed silent and so did he.

"...I'll talk to you later, eh?"

I just hung up on him.

I put my phone and journal on the side table before laying down and burying my face in my pillow.

His words really hurt. I know Owen is a really kind guy to other people, but he just doesn't like me.

I hate myself, I thought as I began to cry.

Pathetic, pathetic, pathetic

(hope u guys enjoyed this bonus chapter cuz it ain't happening again lmao)