The look on her face, the way she darted her eyes about the room... I knew... I knew something had to have been wrong, I knew I shouldn't have told her the truth, I should have given up lost memories to the ghosts of the past. No.. She had a right to know the truth about herself. 

 I-I couldn't keep talking as I looked straight at the girl before me. Her face screamed confusion and turmoil over what I just said, though it was nowhere near what all needed to be said. She looked me dead in the eye and I could tell something wasn't right, her eyes began to dart around the room as she began to fall back on the bed. " (y/n)!" I called out to her as she slowly started to lose consciousness. I got up and held her close as her eyes fluttered close. "(y-y/n)? C'mon, wake up, please..." I shouted to her, but she did not move, she just lay limp in my arms. I had only seen this happen to one other person, and once they had woken up, they were no longer the same... I sighed, tears welling up in my eyes So much for not feeling anything.... I opened a dark corridor to (y/n)'s room and gently laid her on her bed, careful to not have any chance of hurting her. I glanced over her one last time before heading back through the corridor to my own room. I was about to step into my room, I heard movement in (y/x/n)'s room then Axel left his room drained of color, worry written all over his face. "What happened?" I asked, asserting my authoritative tone, though I truly did worry for my friend. He simply mumbled at his feet. "What was that? Speak up to your supervisor." I said and he looked up at me, tears look like the were threating to prick his eyes, we don't feel emotions Axel....

"(y/x/n) collapsed just like... like Roxas did....."

Please (Y/n), forgive me for what I've done to you...

She'll wake up..

Give her time to... 

Axel, you need sleep man..

You needn't worry about her, focus on your missions Number VIII

Days became weeks, weeks became months, and she still hasn't woken up. What had I done to had I done to (y/x/n)? Did the truth kill her? What if she never comes to? 

I lied on my bed, gazing at the heart shaped moon outside my window thinking of her, (y/n), how I had wronged her, how she'd never see me the same again. Tears pricked my eyes as I kept torturing myself with the thought of this whole situation. 

"Lea, you do oh so have a way with stray puppies don't you? What does (y/x/n) have that makes her so special to you that your weeping over her?" Saix asked me, stepping through a dark corridor. "Heh, you know Isa there's this fascinating little invention called a door, try using it sometime." I spoke to him, not facing him, my gaze still glued on the moon. "That doesn't answer my questions.  What value does she serve to you other than the order's purpose?"

What good would talking to you do? You aren't the friend I used to know, you've changed since you came here...

"She reminds me of her and of Roxas, it's my own selfish desires that cost her her own identity, she didn't ask to become one of us or to be mixed into this mess.." I frustratedly ran my gloved hands through my hair, glaring up at him. My anger took hold of me, I didn't think before the words came tumbling out. "I know you hate the thought of me of friends other that you Saïx but she makes me feel." My eyes widened when it sunk in what I had said to him...

"I've lost one friend the day you lost someone you feel in love with Lea. Forgive me for not wanting to lose the only person I have left.." He glared at me but behind his angery expression his eyes glinted with pain. I said nothing more as he raised his hand and conjured a corridor, silently exiting my room.

I didnt mean to say that Saïx, don't leave me too.

..

I bolted up from my bed and ran for the door, opening it seeing the very thing I feared would happen..

"Put your weapon down Numb-"

"I know the truth........  Isa."