*MATTHIAS*

I don't know what to think. Nico looks a wreck and I'm at a loss for what to do and then to top it all off Serena kicks me out? Where the hell does she think I can go? I guess I can't blame her. I mean just looking at Nico like this is driving me crazy. I can only imagine what she's going through. My almost don't notice that my hands are shaking while I pack my stuff. I stop for a second on my way out and look at the two of them curled up together. It tugs on something inside me to see them both miserable like this and know it's all my fault. I want to say something, but think better of it. It would probably just make things worse if I do. Now the problem is that I have no idea where I'm going.

I decide to go get ice-cream. I know a lot of people might think it's funny considering I don't seem the type to wallow and pick out on ice-cream, but what can I say. It's my comfort food. After I buy a pint of some I go to a park and sit on a bench getting ready to dig in. Some random person sits next to me.

"Rough day?" Are they talking to me? I respond anyways.

"What makes you think that?" The girl laughs and raises her eyebrow at me.

"You're sitting on a park bench eating a pint of ice-cream, looking like your dog died. Oh and that doesn't include the disheveled state your hair is in." I guess she does have a point.

"What happened? Don't tell me you dog really did die?"

"No my girlfirend just kicked me out." I mumble. I know it's sad but at this point I wish it was something as simple as a dog dying. I love animals so don't get me wrong, that's just how I feel.

"Girlfriend?" She sounds disbelieving.

"Yes, isn't that what I said?"

"Well it's just..." she points to my chest and I look down to realize I still have several girly pink necklaces from the baby shower on. You know the ones that have things that look like pacifiers and other girly stuff on them? Yeah, those.

"Oh, those are from the baby shower." She still looks like she doesn't believe me.

"I thought only women went to baby showers."

"Ours wasn't what you call a normal baby shower, besides it's my baby why shouldn't I be able to be there?"

"That's what diaper parties are for." This girl is seriously starting to get on my nerves now.

"It's not like I was the only guy there."

"Okay, sorry. So anyway what'd ya do to make her kick you out?"

"The unforgivable."

"What's that?" Cheated on her with a guys she couldn't hate, strung them both along util neither of them could handle it any longer, you know stuff like that. I didn't say that thoug, of course not.

"Made one of her best friend's cry." That's what they are now right? Even I can see they've become pretty close lately and I'm hardly ever around. If it wasn't for me we all wouldn't be in this situation to begin with.

"That's harsh. Listen I need to go, you going to be alright?"

"Honestly I don't know."

"Well do you have somewhere you can go? I don't want to leave you out here by yourself like this." She's being awfully nice for someone I just met, but she does have a point. Do I have a place to go? I think about it for a few minutes before I remember a conversation I had some weeks back.

"Yes, I believe I do thanks." She starts to leave but I grab her arm real quick to get her attention.

"I didn't get you name." She smiles cutely at me.

"It's Samantha."

"Well, I'm Matthias and thanks again Samantha." I don't know why I neede her name. I guess I just wanted to put a name to the face of some random person who was nice to me. I'm sure I'll never see her again, it's just one of those things.

Now that I know where I'm going I get up and head in my own direction. I'm currently standing at the door to my mother's house nervously. I know everything she has told me so far shows that she won't judge me, but that still doesn't mean I can't be nervous. She opens the door and I take a deep breathe. Here it goes.

"Matthais? What are you doing here?" I ignore that question for the moment.

"Hi mom, can I come in." She lets me on through and it's then that she notices my bag.

"Sweetie, is everything okay?" She sounds so worried and I hate to hear her sound like that.

"I need a place to stay for a few days, is it okay if I stay hear." My voice sounds so desperate even to me.

"Of course, you shouldn't need to even ask. Come on to the kitchen and I'll warm up something for you. With they way you look, I bet the only thing you've eaten since the shower was ice-cream." I give a weak laugh at that. My mom knows me so well.

"Now do you feel like telling me why you're here?" I'm not sure I do, but I know it will come up eventually.

"Serena kicked me out for a few days." Is all I manage at the moment. My voice sounds shaky to me.

"Awe, honey. I'm sure it'll all be okay."

"I don't think it will mom."

"Well why ever would you say that?" I take a deep breathe.

"Because I love Serena...." I pause and look at her before going on. She's just waiting patienly for me to finish.

"... and Nico."

"Okay." What? That's all she's going to say?

"That's it?" I don't need to clarify what I mean, it seems she understands perfectly.

"Yeah of course. It's not my place to tell you what to feel or judge you for it. Besides I've know for a while something was going on. At first I though it was Serena, but then realized she didn't meet Nico until recently and that you knew him first." Okay I'm confused again. It feels like I'm always confused lately.

"What do you mean?"

"Matthias, I know you better than you think and Serena has been a daughter to me for over a decade at least. I can tell when something's going on."

"Oh."

"Yeah oh. Now would you like to talk about it and get it all off your chest and explain to me why Serena felt it best to kick you out tonight?"

So I do. I tell her everything from the begining. How I met Nico and ended up falling in love with him even when I had Serena. I told her about telling Serena and how devasted I was knowing I was the reason for her tears, about when Serena told me of the baby and Nico left me for a period of time. I told her of all my confusion and guilt, my pain and devastion. I told her how happy I've been having both of them nearby and yet it how it hasn't been enough or felt quit right. Finally I was done. I had let it all out and laid myself bear for someone to see. At least it was my mom, and what better person to understand someone and give them support than your own mother. At least that's the way it should be. She takes a deep breathe as if stealing herself for what she's going to say.

"Have you talked to either of them about this and told them how you feel?" What? That's not what I was expecting her to say.

"No we don't really talk about it."

"That would probably explain why everything's festered to the point where Serena kicked you out." Hmm, I can kind of see her point, but Serena kicked me out so that I can have some space to think. I tell her as much.

"Yeah, that to. You can stay here as long as you need, but if you want my advice I wouldn't wait too long. I would take a week away at the most to clear your head and then go home and talk to both of them."

That's exactly what I did, and by the end of the week I had a better idea od what I wanted. I just hope it works, but before I get home I need to go shopping.