Ashwin's mind voice is Seri....

and " Sivaangi..." = Ashwin talking.

Sivaangi's mind voice is  A and "Ashwineyyyyy " = Sk talking
On with story

Disclaimer: Everything in this Story is fiction.
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We then hung out with others and then Krish Pa came and picked her up.

I smiled as I got in my car and drove home mentally making a plan.

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Sivaangi POV

I reached home, got refreshed and just layed on my bed. So many things had happened.

So many things were going in my mind.

I opened insta on a whim to distract myself and I saw an old video of Sam and I in SS7.

I thought back to that season. Everywhere he projected as if He was a big star and I was his fan. Thinking back, I truly saw how he made me feel inferior. How he made fun of me but covered it in a pretty wrapper called friendship.

How he never trusted me on my abilities.

I quickly opened hotstar and saw an old episode of SS 7.

I saw how he was wantedly behaving as if he was my boyfriend on Camera. And thought back to how he behaved like a normal friend off camera. How was I so stupid? How did I not notice these things before? Why did I fight with my parents for Him?

He was always USING ME!

Right from the beginning!

Naan thaan ivolo naal muttala irrundhuken!

He created a scene as if we were more than friends on camera. Apart from the channel's content teasing, he was adding oil to the fire Right from the start! Then constantly encouraging the fans to ship us.

Was any part of our friendship even real?

But why was I noticing these thing now? Why was I realising it now?

Then as if to answer my question, I got a dm from Mani Akka on insta asking me to watch a fan edit.

I opened it to see to it was edit of Ashwin and me right from the start to Pulikesi ep.

Pudikum nu sollunga...

Pudikum

I thought back to shoot of first episode,
how he gently took the rose from my hands with a blush. How as soon as I asked him to say he likes flower pot. Without thinking he said Pudikum.

The way he was shy and looking cute.
The way butterflies erupted in my tummy everytime he looked and smiled at me or when he hified me in the first episode.

The way I caught him looking at me when our teams were selected for second cook off.

The way I felt so comfortable and relaxed around him when we met in Pugazh Anna's house to watch the episode.

Then our first pairing...
I was so scared, I thought he will tease me and hurt me like all the other people I knew or had a small crush on.

Ana Avaru...

Right from taking the cooker from my hands after our Pairing till the end.
He never once teased me.

Avaru en kuda velayaditu irrundharu..naan avara kalaicha avaru thirupi enna kalaicharu..but never once hurted me...

I laughed as i remembered his face when I sang Stove mela kadai...

I knew he was expecting a melody or a romantic song but avaru expression paakanum nu I sang...

The way he cared for me and was ready to loose. The way he gave me full credits for pasta.

I didn't notice it during the shoot, but saw it on TV, the way he stopped cooking when I started to sing and the way he was looking at me with full concentration and admiration. It was unconscious for him.

Then I thought back to the Jessie Episode shoot when he was not there.

Back then I didn't look deep into what i felt. I just knew I missed him but looking back, I realised without his silent but strong presence...I felt a vacuum.

My wish of hearing vtv dialogue in his base voice..

I was so disappointed that he won't say since he was not there but he did.

He made my wish come true in an unexpected way by sending me a video.
Which he later posted on his Instagram.

I had seen his old reels, he had always lip synced but he spoke the dialogue for me...in his voice.

The way he admired me in Arukani get up and called me cute. The way he was playing with my hair.

Sam ah irrundha , nee kevalama irruka paaka bayama irruku nu sollirupan...approm chumma kalaichen nu solluvan..

The way He always cheered me up..

The way he took care of me.

The way he would tease me but would constantly look into my eyes if I am hurt and the moment he feels I am even a bit hurt, he would stop everything and try to pacify me and make me smile.

Then I thought of the next episode.

The way he immediately said
Miss pannen

When I asked him if he missed me or not without thinking. He could have avoided but he didn't.

The way he always looked into my eyes and dances facing me in his entry songs...always making sure that we I was enjoying..the way we end up being in sync eventhough it's on the spot..the way he guides me in the dance.

The way he was patiently guiding me in school kid episode. I though back to that episode...Darsha Akka told we looked like Father and Daughter but the other day I saw an edit in which a fan had caught the glare he gave Darsha Akka for that comment.

That was the first time I felt the tingles.
He came very close to me while he was helping me when I was cooking.
The tingles and it did something within me to have him so close. But I'm not even sure if he knew it.

Then came the Christmas episode.
I was really hurt when he avoided dancing with me but danced with Sunitha Akka.
At that time It really hurt..but it was only when I watched the episode did I notice one thing. As soon as he saw my expression, he tried to shrugg off and tried to stop dancing..it was Sunitha Akka who was forcefully dancing.

Then the way he convinced me.
The way he told me the real sentimental reason why he didn't dance with me when I was Rose.

Our dance in my green room for his song.

I blushed.

I got up and started to make my way to the terrace while I thought back to the Mohiniaattam episode.

The way he left everything and ran to my table when I cut my finger in Mohiniaattam episode shoot.
The way he cared for me...the way he fed me...
The way he was so worried. The way he took care of me the entire day.

As I reached the terrace, I looked at the corner where we danced.

I blushed and thought back to his stay.

The way he backed me against the wall and teased me with his intensity.
The way he looked into my eyes. As I thought of that moment, I could still feel the ghost of his touch. His finger pushing my hair away from my face.

I quickly opened my eyes and looked around.

Che che ...Avaru eppudi inga irruparu..

I then thought to what Mani Akka said he did in Pulikesi episode shoot.
He silently protected me. Stood for me against Sam. He defended me. He knew while I put up a strong front it would hurt me.

His warning to Sam.

When Mani Akka told me what exactly he told, I was shocked. He never showed that he knew what went on between me and Sam when he found me in the secret garden.
He never mentioned he talked with Sam.

Idhey Avana irrundha...avan ennakaga orru vartha pesitan nu enna adha marakave vida mattan...

He never expected anything from me..
He just let me vent out and pour all my grief while calming with his warm embrace and his soothing wise words.

The way he changed my mood by buying me an ice cream.

Then today.

What was Today even? Was it even real?

The way he stood for me and challenged Master.

A person who is very focused on his cooking and wants to win..risked everything for me!
He risked everything to prove a point for me.

The way he guided me to do everything. His care and the way he was constantly encouraging and assuring me. He didn't care if he lost the band.

But we won. It was our WIN.

I was the happiest when he got the band.
I still can't believe I won him an immunity band!

His genuine surprise and expression when I sang his song.

I noticed his moist eyes which he was trying to hide.

He was overwhelmed with me singing that song.

I then thought back to all the song I sung for him or to him.

I never planned anything except for Kanna Veesi.
Everything I ever sang for him was in a flow. It was what I felt at that moment.
Thinking back, the lyrics and his expression hit differently now.

Then I heard his voice in my head

Naan yeppome irrupen Ma...lifelong...unkoodave irrupen.. adhu ennaikum marradhu...

My eyes widened. It was then I realised the true meaning of his words.

It was then that my brain finally understood what my heart had been telling me since a long time.
My heart and brain were finally in sync.

I was in love.

I WAS IN LOVE

I Sivaangi Krishnakumar was in Love with Ashwin Kumar Lakshmikanthan.

I blushed and giggled and spinned in the terrace.

Then I thought back to Sarath Anna's tease today.

Yaaroda Aalu?

Enn Aalu..

I blushed.

I took my phone and opened his WhatsApp chat and clicked on his Dp.
He had changed it to one of the pics we took today.

I smiled looking at him.

I kissesd his photo and said to it,
"Ashwineyyyyy nee enn Aalu Ashwineyy!"

Thank god he was offline. He probably slept.

Then I looked at the time it was 3 am.

I texted him goodnight and went down to my room to sleep.
I knew I will get Kulu kulu dreams.

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A/N:

Here you go!

Hope you all like it!

Next update be given on Saturday or Sunday. If I get it done by then.

This was a tough chapter to write. Took me a long time to pen it down. Hope it's good.

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-Anu💜
(P.S. I havent proof read so sorry if there are typos!💜)