(A/N: Here's chapter four! Anywhoozles, let's see what's happening with you and our favorite emotionless assassin!)

~~TIME SKIP: A FEW DAYS~~

Illumi arose early as usual and as well- rested as he had been for the past week.

'Such great sleep.' he thought as he left the bed.

Y/N had been sleeping a bit better as well, after refusing to cry herself to sleep anymore. She did so with the thought of her remaining family: a teenaged boy with blue hair and bright hazel eyes, him being the last one in her mind before sleep took over. She was still sleeping and didn't stir when Illumi had left the bed. He was a top assassin after all, he knew how to stealthily move around places. Illumi showered and dressed himself within the darkness of the room since his eyes quickly adjusted to dark places. He made his way over to the drawer by Y/N's side of the bed to retrieve his phones and pins. He gazed upon Y/N for just a moment, her face seeming to show calmness during her sleep. She looked almost at peace. Having what he needed for the day, Illumi quietly escaped out the door and headed toward the forest for a morning run before the sun rose.

Y/N didn't awaken until 6:42 A.M., as that was what the clock told her upon opening her eyes. She memorized the schedule for when Illumi would return there for her, to work toward the mission his family bestowed on him. Therefore, she knew she had until 8 A.M. to prepare for the day and to have her first meal. She had developed her own schedule of how to spend her days, though it didn't consist of much. The first part of it, was to call Illumi to request breakfast, then shower and dress while waiting for Pocana to bring it up for her. After eating, she would wait for the first session of the day, then after Illumi made his leave, she would hum some of her or Vojden's favorite songs to herself, as it helped to pass the time.

She made the call to Illumi to send for breakfast, then made her way to the bathroom, leaving the door open as always, before turningthe shower on. Shortly after finishing getting ready, there was the usual light knock on the door. Y/N verbally granted permission for the purplette to enter, already expecting who it would be. While requesting dinner on her third day there, Y/N remembered to ask Illumi if Pocana could be the butler to bring up all of her meals. Illumi didn't see a problem with it and agreed, so Pocana was always the only butler she saw. Pocana entered the room with a smile, rolling in the cart with Y/N's meal on it.

"Good morning, Miss Y/N. I have your breakfast as requested and I double-checked it myself. I hope it's to your satisfaction." Pocana said politely as she removed the covers atop the plates.

"Good morning. It all looks very good, thank you, Pocana." Y/N responded.

Pocana was about to take her leave, which always disappointed Y/N. She really liked the company but it always so short-lived. Pocana then stopped, her curiosity bubbling to the surface of her mind, causing her to give in to it. She took in a short breath and turned back to face Miss Y/N.

"No guests have remained here this long. If you don't mind my asking, could I know the reason for your stay?" Pocana asked.

Pocana had shown her nothing but kindness throughout her week there and Y/N felt like she could trust her. Maybe venting it out loud would release some tension and lift some weight off her shoulders. Y/N let out a sigh before replying.

"No... I don't mind." she said before informing Pocana about her purpose there.

Pocana kept silent, nodding her understanding every so often, allowing Y/N to talk and express her feelings. Inside, all she felt was dread building up. She decided she could not tell Laeva about it, which seemed like a betrayal as her best friend. However, she figured she would find out eventually so it wasn't necessary for her to find out from Pocana. She wanted to protect her friend's feelings for as long as she could. After all, she was an expert on them and could see how disastrous that could become. Y/N did feel a bit relieved from unwinding all of that from herself for the first time in her days there.

Pocana decided that she should take her leave and let Y/N eat before the meal got cold.
Y/N agreed before taking a glance at the clock.

"The mission calls..." Y/N said with a sad smile.

Pocana nodded politely and said her goodbyes before exiting the room. Y/N felt like a schoolgirl sharing a secret, which seemed silly, but she was glad she had someone to talk with. Satisfied with that, she went on to have her breakfast, as she didn't have long until Illumi would return.

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Illumi unconsciously glanced at his watch for the umpteenth time, like he'd been doing all morning every few miles of running.

'It's almost as if I'm looking forward to it.' he thought to himself sarcastically, but quickly shook the thought away, before the sarcasm could be realized as holding any truth.

'I simply want it to be over with.' he reasoned to himself, before making his way back, as it actually then was close to time.

Y/N already removed her pants and undergarments directly after she finished breakfast, as she knew the 8 A.M. session was approaching. She still had the habit of checking the clock, just to note any changes. The door swung open at 7:59 A.M., as confirmed by the clock she glanced at as Illumi finished entering. She removed the blanket to reveal her 'from the waist down' nude form, to show her compliance as usual. Illumi undressed himself and placed himself on top of her, and began in the fashion that he always did.

Not long into it, Illumi slowed his thrusts down considerably. He moved into a much slower rhythm, which hurt Y/N a lot less, but made her hella confused. This was not like him at all, he was always as quick during these sessions as he could be. Illumi was too lost in the sensation to realize his drastic change in pace. After a while, he felt his climax building, and when he finished, it was the best one he had thus far. After Illumi finally disconnected, Y/N looked at the clock.

'That was at least ten minutes longer than usual... What the hell has gotten into him?' Y/N thought, and it was unsettling as she didn't know exactly what it could mean.

Meanwhile, Illumi felt a wave of calmness flow over him, but before he got too caught up in it, he stood up from the bed and gathered his clothing. He had much training to do that day and the next session was only less than two hours from then anyway.

~~TIME SKIP: A WEEK LATER~~

Illumi's new change in pace had become the new norm for the past week. The sessions had been increasing in length, which made Y/N incredibly annoyed. The longer they lasted, the less time she had for herself. Illumi always arrived a bit earlier as well. The highlights of Y/N's days were meal times because that was when Pocana would visit her. Sometimes Pocana would even stay while she ate, if she asked and if Pocana wasn't busy with other tasks. But that night something strange happened. Something that filled Y/N with great uneasiness. It occurred during the final session of the day.

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Y/N finished up her dinner, during which Pocana had stayed, and the two had exchanged stories about their lives and their past during the meal. Pocana gathered the empty plates and made her leave after they concluded. There was about a half hour until the last session of the day, which always occurred at 7 P.M., which was three hours after the previous one. She decided to undress as usual and waited. Everything went normally after Illumi entered the room, though his pace might have even been a bit slower. Y/N wasn't sure, but she was definitely certain of what happened when he reached his point that night.

Illumi felt the usual feeling building up, and while completely lost in the moment, a moan escaped his lips as he climaxed. Realizing the sound that had come from him, he looked down at Y/N to see her reaction, hoping she hadn't heard. Y/N froze beneath him and just stared back with wide eyes. He quickly disconnected himself and laid down on his side, with his back facing Y/N. He didn't even remember to push her legs together as he usually did. Y/N lay there baffled. She had held the notion that he disliked it all as much as she did... That he was just on a mission, but he seemed to be savoring the moment lately by using a slower pace, and that moan tonight? ...It all suggested otherwise. She turned over, her back also facing Illumi, while she tried to think of anything else.

'This is only a mission, I cannot allow myself to get caught up in it.' Illumi thought to himself while making a decision for the next day.

~~THE NEXT DAY~~

After Illumi awoke, he quickly dressed himself and proceeded to go see his father. Upon finding him, Illumi asked Silva if they could meet in a private room, for he wanted to discuss something that had to do with his mission. They settled into a large room, and Silva decided to break the silence.

"I've seen that you've been doing well. What are your concerns?" he asked.

"I've come to you to request a decrease in the amount of sessions per day. I feel the current frequency may overwhelm Y/N and I hear that stress can be harmful for an unborn child, considering she could be pregnant as of now." Illumi replied.

Silva thought for a moment, but ultimately granted the request, as he wouldn't want any harm to come to the child.

"I agree, but just so you know, the first testing for pregnancy will be in two weeks. Then it will be every two weeks following a negative result. You have three months overall."

Illumi gave his father a nod before leaving the room. Illumi walked the hallways trying to decide his new schedule. He chose to make them twice a day: 11:00 A.M and 7:00 P.M. He didn't want to change the nightly session as it gave him such blissful sleep, but he wouldn't dare let that thought arise to the front of his mind.

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Y/N glanced at the clock. 7:55 A.M.

'He should be here any minute now.' she thought, while staring at the bedroom door.

Ten minutes passed with her constantly checking the clock.

'He's never late. What's going on?' she thought.

A half hour passed and she decided to lie back and rest her eyes. Illumi finally did come in, though nearly three hours late. She decided to inform him of that fact, though she wasn't sure why.

"There's been a change in schedule. The first session will be at 11." he replied simply, as he began to undress.

Illumi made sure not to emit any sounds that time, then promptly left. Y/N became really confused as the whole day passed by before Illumi returned. However, he was there for the 7 P.M. as usual. After finishing, Illumi actually didn't drift off to sleep immediately. He couldn't help but feel as though he wasn't as satisfied as before. His mind filled to the brim with conflicting thoughts before he eventually dozed off.

~~A COUPLE DAYS LATER~~

Illumi had the nagging feeling like something was missing the past couple days. A thought would arise as to why, but he would always dismiss it immediately.

'A mission is just that: a mission. It's business, and I won't abuse it.' he thought each time a conflicting thought would enter his mind.

He decided that putting some distance between himself and Y/N might make things a bit easier, so he decided to pay a visit to his acquaintance, Hisoka, at one of his houses since his whole afternoon was then clear since reducing the sessions.

After arriving, Illumi filled Hisoka in on his new mission and couldn't help but feel a tinge of embarrassment while Hisoka soaked in all the details with an amused smirk. He allowed Illumi to finish before allowing himself a chuckle.

"I assume all she does is lay on her back. But we could go into the back room here and I could show you a few things." Hisoka said suggestively.

Hisoka wouldn't be Hisoka if he didn't flirt with Illumi at least twice whenever they met up. He had done it for years and why wouldn't he? Illumi was powerful, skilled, and very attractive. Hisoka licked his lips unconsciously while Illumi stayed silent. Hisoka was about the change the subject when Illumi looked back at him.

"Alright." That was all Illumi said before standing up and walking toward the master bedroom.