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This day is beautiful and painful. Combine that. This day is beautifully painful.

Cara congratulated me via Messenger. Wala lang. Pure congratulating message lang.

I remember the time we had an official fight. It was on this month. She was mad at me. No. What I mean is 'she is mad at me.'

Until now, and it hurts.

Remember the time we had the mildest awkwardness? It felt so heavy before, but today is much heavier.

Let me go back to be sure about the date...

July 14 (Thursday) was the date when Cara and I had the worst argument so far. It was so bad I didn't narrate it on any entry.

Itong pahina na ito ang magkakaroon ng marka ng pag-aaway namin.

I suddenly became so careless when I talked to her that time. Yes, it was about our studies. It was so happy... that day.

It was the deadline of our project. It was an individual project for English. I've put every single effort of mine in my project.

The projects were simply done. They're simply easy. The projects were also given back on that day when it was dismissal. Medyo malayo naman kasi ang gap ng English time namin at dismissal. Besides, our English teacher is hardworking.

By dismissal, we received our projects. Perfect ang score niya, while I got only 98%. I was happy for her. She was probably not. Parang hindi niya naa-appreciate ang mga bagay na nakukuha niya.

I asked her if she wasn't happy at all. Sabi niya, ayos lang daw. She always gets a perfect score or even close to it.

The conversation lasted until I shouted at her. “Bakit ba hindi ka na lang matuwa na nasa tuktok ka, na you're staying undefeated?” Iyan ang sinigaw ko sa kanya. It was so bottled up inside me, pero hindi ko 'yon naramdaman noon.

Then, she left me... all on a sudden. She was not like that. She is extremely considerate. She would not leave someone out of the blue. But she just did it.

DISTURBING, ISN'T IT? I don't know what to feel.

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