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I saw that Cara is happy... even without me. Well, I can be happy, too. No. It seems that I can't.

Well, I have friends. Lots of them. I just... don't appreciate them. Maybe? I don't know.

Cara was laughing while joking at the exam item she failed to understand or remember. That's it. She was laughing with other people, instead of me.

Good! VERY GOOD! SEE?

I DON'T THINK I CAN PROVE MYSELF. SHIT. REALLY SHIT.

Day after day, Cara becomes optimistic. Night after night, I... I'M BECOMING SO NEGATIVE.

No. It must not be insecurity. I must not be so pessimistic. But I already am.

I may be a pessimist but not much, and insecurity is not my thing.

I used to be with her, and... I'm not like this.

I was not like this.

Well, I think I did well in the exams, but Cara always did better.

I hope I can hope positively.

Wait. No. I must not.

I'm already hoping. I'm... hoping.

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