Erin POV

Standing infront of the mirror I could hardly believe that the small bump I could see was real. That this was actually happening. As happy as I was I was still to scared to allow myself to get excited, there was always that voice saying what if?

After we found out it was agreed that I wouldn't travel as much, I reduced the out of town work I did and did more from home. Damian would call me everyday he was on the road to check in and he would be home very soon.

We had our first scan booked for while he was home and I know he is just as excited and nervous as I was. I'd also noticed a change in how he was with me, any desire he had for me seemed to have diminished significantly, he doesn't even try to make a move anymore.

He still kisses and holds me but that is as far as it goes. I often find myself wondering why and the only thing I could think of was that he didn't like the way my body looked now. So what happens as I bigger? Will he back off completely?

Lost in thought I barely notice the bedroom door open or Damian walk in. He places his bag down as I let go of the night shirt I had tightened around my tummy.

"Hey mi amor" he smiles opening him arms as I approach him

"Hey" I smile resting my head against his chest as he holds me gently

"How are you? How is our miracle?" He asks

"We are both good" I say "it seems so surreal that I have a bump"

"Like I said its our miracle" he says placing a hand on my tummy as he kisses my hair "and I can't wait to meet him or her, to hold them, to just be a daddy"

"I think you will look really good with a baby in your arms" I smile leaning up to kiss his lips tenderly

"Well you will find out soon enough" he smirks "come on its late, we should get some sleep for tomorrow"

Damian kisses my forehead and I watch him as he strips down to his boxers and then climbs into bed. He makes himself comfortable and then pats the space beside him.

I happily join him and snuggle up to him. I lightly draw circles over his chest as his fingertips glide over my hip. Slowly I begin to place soft kisses over his chest before heading up to his neck. I feel him take a sharp intake of breath and then he moves away.

"Not tonight mi amor, I'm tired" he says kissing my forehead "it's been a long day"

I couldn't lie to myself that stung and as I watch him turn on his side to go to sleep I find myself wondering if he will ever want me again and that hurts even more.

Damian POV

When I wake the next morning I'm alone. Erin's side of the bed looks like it has barely been slept in and I have no idea where she is.

"Erin?" I call out "mi amor?" But there is no answer.

I climb out of bed and begin looking for her. I know she is nervous about the scan and afraid of what they will tell her but I had no idea it was preventing her from sleeping.

After checking the bathroom and what will be the baby's room I head downstairs and that's when I find her asleep on the couch, a box of tissues beside her.

A closer look at her face tells me she had been crying at some point and that breaks my heart to think she couldn't talk to me.

A gently stroke her cheek and he eyes flutter open. I smile and kiss her lovingly and she smiles back at me

"What's going on mi amor? Why are you sleeping down here?" I ask

"Oh just nerves" she says sitting up but I'm not convinced "I'm scared of what today will bring"

"I'm scared too be we have to think positive" I say cupping her cheek "are you sure there is nothing else?"

"Yeah I'm sure" she says "we better get dressed, we have a big day ahead of us" she says standing and walking towards the stairs

"Erin" I call after her and she turns to look at me "you know I love you don't you?" I ask and she smile

"Of course I do and I love you too" she says "let's get the scan over with and I will be fine I promise"

Erin POV

I don't know why I couldn't tell him the truth I just couldn't bring myself to say it. I was afraid, afraid I was right, afraid we would fight and afraid I would lose him all over again.

I wanted to just believe it was in my head and I was crazy for even thinking it but last night.............last night did not help.

Heading into the bathroom a tie my hair back and start to wash my face, as I rinse my face with warm water I look up and see Damian behind me watching me worry etched on his face.

"I know something is wrong mi amor" he says walking up and wrapping his arms around me from behind "I'm not going to ignore it, please talk to me maybe we can figure it out together, we've come so far I won't lose you now, not without one he'll of a fight"

"Can I ask you something? And will you be honest?" I ask

"Of course always" he says

Leaving his arms I face him and remove my nightshirt, the second his eyes are on me I become very self conscious.

"What do you think when you look at my body?" I ask

"That you have never looked more beautiful" he says "pregnancy look so sexy on you"

"Really? That's really what you think?" I ask as tears fill my eyes

"I have no reason to lie to you mi amor" he says wiping my tears with his thumbs "what's brought this on?"

"You haven't touched me in weeks, we haven't been intimate since we found out. Last night I tried and..................."

"Oh my god, mi amor I am so sorry" he says pulling me into his arms and against his firm bare chest "I never meant to make you feel like I didn't want you, that I didn't find you attractive. I promise you that is not the case. I haven't done anything because I'm scared to death that if I do something will happen to the baby"

"You......what?" I ask looking up at him

"I'm terrified that something will happen to the baby" he says "I guess I'm being over cautious, I want so badly for this to work this time I..........I just wanted to be careful and not do anything to cause you to..............I'm sorry mi amor I'm an idiot" he sighs

"No you're not" I say cupping his cheek "I'm the idiot, I should have known that would be the reason but instead I thought the worst. I'm sorry"

Without saying a word he presses his lips to mine in a deep loving kiss that I glady return before resting his head agaisnt mine

"You've no idea how hard it's been keeping my hands off you" he smirks "I was insatiable before but your body now has made me much worse, it's been torture"

"I'm sure if we are careful and you are gentle everything will be just fine" I smile "it's been torture for me too, craving your touch and not getting it. I've missed you"

"I've missed you too" he says "let's get ready and go see our baby and then I promise you when we get back I'm going to take very very good care of you and I will be very very gentle"