I struggle
I wonder if I'll still be accepted
Will the people i love still accept me
Will they understand that this is the real me and not some copy
Hiding within in the shadows
I struggle
Trapped between what is normal
And what is considered normal
Am I an abomination
A unspoken blasphemy
Mistaken for a beautiful creature
I feel dirty
Confliction within myself
I struggle
Is it a sin to be who i am
Or am i free to be me
I fight with the thought that what i am is not correct
A mistake made by the maker
Or is it that these thoughts are just the words of man
The creatures that belong to the creator
Is it just that they see fault in themselves and in order to hide it they point out me
Is because I am me a sin
A fault
A taboo
So unspeakable many shun me
No longer friends because of who I love
Because of who loves me
How do we know what is right
How do we know what is wrong
Do we know for sure if the facts we are taught are actually fact
Who are you to judge me
I'm not sorry
I love me
I love what I stand for
What I am to one day be
Because if my choice is wrong then that is my problem
And only I and the maker can belong to such a discussion
I struggle
I wonder what life will be like
What is in store for me now that I have come forward
Now that I no longer hide in the shadows
How will I struggle?