I am utterly alone
Filled with the light of hope
I drown in the darkness around me
So many voices claiming to be my alley
Yet I cry my tears solo
I can't seem to rise up to the expectations
No great explanation
Only solitude
In room full of people
They utter the same words
But I'm too afraid to trust anyone
My heart is too broken
My wounds too deep
The scars still opened
I'm weak
Like the stumbling lamb
I fall to my knees
Frozen in time
Unable to speak
Why talk
When deaf ears can hear no words
So my story goes untold
And I receive no happy ending
I'll just walk
To a place I can be free
So free of worries that seem only to age me
I can't sleep
My stomach unable to eat
I'm suffering
A hell on earth
Not under the dirt
Sometimes I revert
To a self that once understood everything that I never knew was missing
And although I've found a reason
It's getting hard just to listen
To the voice deep inside
The inner voice of my wisdom
I can feel it slowly slip from my fingers
This is
My holy nightmare
The darkness is my new kingdom
Alone
Weak
Trapped
Like a cage for a pretty bird
I will stay utterly alone
Listening to the many who surround me
Yet notice nothing of my pain
My fake smile forger plastered to my face
I'll sing
Just give them peace of mind
To rest their guilt
Or to erase mine