His eyes followed my movement, as I slowly dragged my suitcase behind me and handed it to the crew member. Without turning back, I climbed upstairs and entered the private jet.

I saw my bestfriend leap out of her chair and she engulfed me in a tight hug. I don't know why she did that, maybe that bestfriend instinct told her that a hug is what I need right now—desperately. I haven't told her what has happened, maybe my brother did.

The brother, who stabbed me. The brother, who didn't want to understand what I felt for Dalhyun.

"It's alright, everything will be alright." She whispered and I was seconds away from crying again. The scene of that night repeating in my head.

It was just a day before his birthday, that we're flying to Korea. All our plans had gone into waste. I had missed My favourite k-pop bands' fan signing and every other fun thing because I was on house arrest.

My gadgets had been taken away and my trip had been cancelled by parents because they wanted me to reflect upon everything that has happened, and I had no way to contact Tanishka or him. I didn't have anyone to share my feelings with.

The anxiety and the depression had crept in slowly, gripping my heart like a rope and contracting my head in a tight grip but everything hurt and it hurt so fucking hard.

After drowning myself in music and my tears I finally decided to plea to my parents about letting me travel to Korea. To let me end it properly, otherwise I wouldn't be able to live without guilt.

But I knew that I would still live in guilt, knowing that I'm weak to even my love.

They allowed, they knew it was the right thing to do. It had to end in the right way or it would've kept on going, forever. They had given me the deadline to fly back to USA by my birthday, not even India, directly to Palo Alto to resume my studies.

I knew, I couldn't tell him the truth and why I just flew in by his birthday. I don't know what to say to him.

"I know you haven't slept well, so after take off. Sleep in, okay?" I timidly nodded to her request as we both sat down by our seat. I glanced out of the window, to see my brother entering the car but not before glancing at me for one last time.

I wonder why Tanishka is travelling with me. I mean, all our plans have been messed up so what possibly could be the reason? But I'm grateful, I need her after... doing what is needed to be done. I need her but more than that, I need him.

I need him in my life.

After landing at Incheon International Airport, by the private airstrip I put on my shades despite being close to midnight and walk towards the car waiting for us
After landing at Incheon International Airport, by the private airstrip I put on my shades despite being close to midnight and walk towards the car waiting for us. Tanishka had informed me all the plans made by Siddharth and that, Dalhyun had not been informed about what has happened, because it is my thing to do.

Dalhyun had contacted Tanishka after realising that I wasn't answering his calls, she only said that she doesn't know what has happened exactly, but something has. And I had decided what excuse I would give.

It's better to lie than say the truth.

Tanishka had decided to come because she knew that I would need her. She had decided that she would stay in a hotel while I would stay with him as initially planned.

As we both sat inside, I switched on my phone and went through all the messages by him. Majority of them were asking if I was okay and that he is here for me, always. I swallowed the lump in my throat and switched it back off.

I felt Tanishka's hand holding my shaking my ones she passed on a small smile as if it say it would be all okay. But I know it wouldn't be. My studies are not worth breaking his heart.

I turned around and glanced out at the foreign road and environment. And oh! I know it's beautiful but I didn't have the energy to admire it. All I wanted was him. All I need is him.

"Will it be worth it?" I asked, the first sentence I've said to her, since we met today. I cleared my throat and repeated the question without looking at her, "will it be worth it? If it's not then I deserve to die."

I heard her gasp and her hold on my hand tightened, "it will be worth it!" She shouted—softly, "you will have to make it worth it. For him, for both of you."

I need to make it worth it, for him, for both of us.

Soon I was standing in front of his apartment building, staring at the small residence surrounded by greenery. Then I turned towards Tanishka, who had her window rolled down to look at me. "I'll see you after—" I stopped for a second taking in a deep breath, "I'll see you on 1st."

She nodded. "Make it worth it." I turned around and walked through the thin layer of snow, pulling my small suitcase behind me.

As I entered the building, the security system informed Dalhyun about my arrival as the gate opened and I walked in. Taking the elevator up to his floor, I stepped out and glanced around looking for his flat number.

Then walked towards my left and lifted my hand to ring the bell. I hesitated, then taking in a deep breath I pressed the bell.

After few seconds, the door opened and there he stood in his grey sweatpants and a black T-shirt. His hair falling messily over his forehead and his beautiful grey eyes looking at me, taking all of me.

A lone tear spilled from my eye when I realised what I'll be doing to him. He opened his mouth to speak, but I didn't let him.

I crashed my lips against him, my hand gripping onto his shoulder and the other one pulling his hair almost painfully. All I want is him, all I need is him. Tonight I am all his, and that's his birthday gift.

I will make it worth it, for him, for us.

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Who is crying?

Not me... yet, because the worst part is yet to come.