A/N: I am so sorry for not update yesterday!!! I forgot it was Wednesday

Trigger Warning: mentions of Suicide

Re-cap:

"I'm here for you Virgil..." I whispered. I brought his hand up to my lips and kissed it, blushing a light pink. "I'll always be here," I murmured against his hand.

I sat by him, eventually falling asleep, sitting up and right next to Virgil.

~Virgil's PoV~

I woke up, my mood still down in the dumps. I noticed the blanket I was wrapped up in wasn't my usual plain black one, instead, it was a very familiar Steven Universe one. At once I realized I was in Roman's bed, I looked over to my bed to see Maddy passed out and under the covers. Where's Roman?

I couldn't find him around the room. I exhaled and laid back down, closing my eyes, the bed had a very comforting scent. It smelled like Roman, a warm scent, strawberries, chocolate, and his cologne. I felt a little bit like a creep, but I'm not the one who put their friend in their bed. It felt wrong to call Roman a friend... Eh, I'm sure it'll pass. No way in Hell do I have a crush on Roman...

"Virgil, are you awake?" I heard a voice whisper softly. I opened my eyes to see Patton standing over me with a cup of something in his hands. He gave a little smile, "I made you tea, green, cause I didn't know which one you would like and well, everyone likes green tea right? I'm sorry if you don-"

"It's fine Patton, green tea is my favorite," I interrupted with reassurance. I sat up and took the tea, it was cooled to the point where I could drink it immediately. He must've made this a while ago. Patton sighed and climbed down the loft. Leaving me alone with my thoughts.

They're just pitying me. I'll just end up hurting them. Mom died, Dad died. It's just me. I'm alone now. Don't get close to anyone, then if they leave, you won't feel pain

I put the tea away, suddenly sick to my stomach. 

You're alone

I started hyperventilating.

They died because of you

No they didn't!!

Maybe Mom didn't, but your father did. Because you failed to get close to him. Because you failed to be there for him.

You couldn't have kno-

No. It's your fault. All your fault

The world around me faded away, I sat there, staring at my hands, in a haze. It is my fault.

"---gil? Virgil! Listen, okay," Roman's voice suddenly cut through my thoughts, I realized he was holding my hand. I looked into his eyes, he seemed to relax a bit. "Okay, I need you to copy my breathing, okay?" he asked, moving my hand to his chest, right where his heart would be. I gave a curt nod and started trying to copy his breathing. Feeling when his chest rose and fell. "Good, keep it going," he said, I could feel his voice at my fingertips.

Eventually, my breathing returned to normal. I broke down in tears and fell against Romans' chest. I could faintly hear Patton and Maddy crying, I could hear Logan trying to comfort them. Eventually, it all faded into the background as I fell asleep.

~Time Skip~

When I woke up, I was back in my bed, but I still had Romans blanket wrapped around me. 

"Afternoon, Virgil," I heard a tired voice say. I looked over to see Roman and Logan standing there. 

I tried to say something, but nothing came out, as if my voice shut down. So I simply nodded. The second Roman saw that he was fussing over me.

"Is your throat sore? Do you need some tea? Maybe with honey? Or cough drops?" he questioned. He seemed genuinely worried. He just pities you. Or Thomas made him be nice to you.

I shook my head no, but Roman was having none of that. "I'm gonna take that as a yes," and with that, he was climbing down the ladder to make me some tea. Logan sighed and readjusted his glasses, sitting down next to me.

"You know, it is very unwise to push away people during a time of grief," he said matter o' factly. I shrugged, he sighed once more, "At least don't push away one person. If I were to recommend someone, I would recommend Roman, he seems to really care for you-"

"Okay, I'm back, I got some green tea with honey, and a few cookies 'cause you haven't eaten anything today," Roman's voice suddenly cut through Logans. Roman walked over to me and placed the plate on the nightstand. Logan got up and looked at me.

"Think about what I said, Virgil," he said, walking away and climbing down.

I noticed Roman was holding the mug in my face. I took it and warmed up my hands. Silence. Logan was wrong. I had to push everyone away. I had to. Roman moved behind me and before I knew it, he had his hands around my waist and I was in his lap.

"Is this okay?" he asked. I winced and shook my head, I couldn't get close to him, I just couldn't. I was off Roman's lap immediately and his hands were off my waist. I relaxed a little bit. "Sorry, Virgil," he said sheepishly. I shrugged, staring into the hot green water. 

I raised it up to my lips and took a little sip. It was scalding hot, but I didn't care, the cup was suddenly out of my hands. 

"Virgil! You're gonna burn yourself!" Roman yelped, setting the cup on the nightstand. I shrugged and looked away. "Virgil please, please talk to me," No, I couldn't, "Please, please let me help," No.

Roman sighed and gave me the plate of cookies, "at least eat..." he tried. I shook my head no. "please?" he begged. "I shook my head and crossed my arms. "Virgil, if you don't willingly eat these I will shove them down your throat." he 'threatened'. I shook my head again. He took a deep breath. "Listen, Virgie, Patton made these cookies for you, he wouldn't let anyone eat them. He hissed at me! So it would break his heart if you didn't eat these," Roman said. I frowned. 

I tentatively took a cookie and ate it. It was then that I realized I was starving. Roman seemed relieved. I ate half of them and I pushed the plate away. Roman sighed heavily, and for a second I thought he was gonna force me to eat them.

"You know, I would want you to eat them all, but at least you ate a little bit," then he snatched a cookie and ate it, "Don't tell Patton," he winked. I fought a smile.

"Hey Ro?"

~Author's Note~

I got this question if whether or not Maddy is from a musical.

The answer is no, Maddy, Paris, Teagan J., Teagan, and Pepper are all Oc's of mine. Maddy, Paris, Teagan J., and Pepper are my Sander Sides per say. Though I switched around their character traits.

Maddy is supposed to be logic.

Paris is supposed to be creativity.

Pepper is supposed to be my anger/anxiety, cuz I am more of an angry person then an anxious one, tho I do have anxious days.

And Teagan J. is supposed to be morality.

Teagan is just a character that I wrote for a story in school and fell in love

If you're wondering why I didn't just respond to your comment.

1. None of my devices would let me open your comment to answer, I just saw it in my notifications, like it's deleted or something.

2. In case any of you had the question also, you don't have to ask again lol

So, I watched S7 of Voltron in one sitting on Monday.... 

I cried at least 10 times.

If y'all want to talk about Voltron or anything else, message me! I love talking to you guys, y'all are so awesome!!!!

Ily!!

~Smug