I thought I had myself all figured out

But I spent my whole life holding myself down

And it seems to be that sort of thing I keep doing constantly

Addicted to the pain I cause myself

My head is floating somewhere in the clouds

While I'm paid to entertain a lovely crowd

They sing my songs and feel my pain

Cause pain is what creates my fame

A vicious cycle someday I'll get out

I can't believe I'm standing here at all

I can't believe I made it this far

On my way with a smile on my face

See the top and I'm not falling off

And all I need is a microphone, I'll sing

About the things that have been hurting me

It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate

To their lives so just keep holding on

It's hard enough try walking in my shoes,

To be picked on by my peers who much abuse

And I'm tired of not fitting in true friends is my final wish

Just let me be myself and make it through.

I have tried so hard to be a better soul

I have worked so hard at making myself whole

And through it all my better years are still ahead my mind is clear

Just trust me when I say I'm in control

I can't believe I'm standing here at all

I can't believe I made it this far

On my way with a smile on my face

See the top and I'm not falling off

And all I need is a microphone, I'll sing

About the things that have been hurting me

It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate

To their lives so just keep holding on

I believe I'm just like you

I believe I'll make it through

It's hard to see at times like this

But I'm not giving in, but I'm not giving in

I believe I'm just like you

I believe I'll make it through

It's hard to see at times like this

But I'm not giving in, but I'm not giving in

And all I need is a microphone

I'll sing about the things that have been hurting me

It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate

To their lives so just keep holding on

I can't believe I'm standing here at all

I can't believe I made it this far

On my way with a smile on my face

See the top and I'm not falling off

And all I need is a microphone, I'll sing

About the things that have been hurting me

It's safe to say, all the kids, I relate

To their lives so just keep holding on

I had watched the 2016 Comic Con panel for Teen Wolf today. It really made me cry for SOO many reasons (THE FINAL SEASON!!!!), but the thing that really stood out to me was when Jeff Davis had been talking about writing and mentioning his high school years.

I am blown away by some of the things that I can relate to. I mean if I didn't have anxiety and if I had continued being on stage, then I would be like Tyler Posey. I used to be like that...being crazy and fun for the sake of others...it's been years...

I have gotten back to some craziness that I once had, but...It's not the same...

Anyway, I am so off topic.

I really love this song, because it really is you guys who keep me going. I can relate to a lot of the lyrics and all of you supporting me is the best.

I'm not an easy person to know, be around, get to know, care about, and really if I had met someone like me...I would have left, never to be seen again...

I used to have so much self-esteem and I was a crazy child, though I was always fearful (stupid phobias...) and shy.

I know the last couple of months seem to be like a roller coaster and I am SOO happy that all my followers stayed around. All the support for some of the stuff is incredible. I love you guys so much.

I will continue writing, I truly will never stop...it's bad...XD

Though, I would love to act again, sing again, be on stage again...wishful thinking. I should go, I have other writer things I need to do! XD

LATER!!!

~M