i tried to wave the awkwardness off by just smiling and continuing to sip on my hot chocolate as namjoon did the same, and the occasional glances was all we shared for the rest of the time till we finished off with the hot chocolate.

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"goodbye bby" he said slowly pulling me into a hug at the door and planting a few kisses around my face

"goodbye bae" i replied closing the door as i stared at him vanish into the night darkness

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i made jess change and tucked him into bed before coming down to shut all the doors and windows as i was shutting the windows i noticed a vehicle outside our house as stared at the vehicle a lady stepped out as i keened my vision onto the lady i noticed it was my mom, i ran upstairs like a crazy lady, and locked myself into my bedroom... a few days ago my mom warned me saying that me and jess had to be in bed before 10 p.m. and if we did anything otherwise she wouldn't think twice to skin me alive.

i changed and got into bed i tried to fall asleep but i was just curious "who, had mom come home with?" just as i reminisced, my phone started ringing for a second there i just enjoyed the music you cant blame me hope world was playing, but realising that it was my phone i began searching frantically and slight panic attacks took over me because if mom heard my phone shed come up and if she sees i aren't asleep there wont be any second choice but a good beating.

my phone wasnt anywhere in my room, i slowly opened the room door and sneaked over to jess's room i remembered leaving it there before i went down, upon entering his room i found it beside his bed it was still ringing i took the phone and put it on silent and looked who had called it was namjoon, for second i just imagined the worst thing that could have happen my mom finding about namjoon...

i began walking back to my room when i heard a loud thud, i climbed a few stairs down and peeked to see what it was, but i all i saw was a man walking vertically across my living room, i climbed 2 more stairs down when i saw my mom she was on the sofa her hands on her head....

the man began speaking i couldn't exactly make out what he was saying soon the speaking changed into a ranging argument, at a point this man threw a bunch of papers to moms face she didn't seem to bother she continued to argue when this mysterious man slapped her the ground, unknowingly i climbed down few more stairs before i realized i cant go down... soon after he left the house slamming the door behind him.

i went back to the room and plopped myself onto the bed slowly lying down before my phone began ringing again it was namjoon and he was making a video call, i answered

"hey babe! where have you been I've been trying for the past 20 mins , but you didn't answer, all okay?" he poured out through the speaker

"ummm...yea.. everything is cool, i might have just dozed off" i replied trying to act everything is okai

"okai...but ur seem a lil stressed babe" he asked

"owwh.. that im just a bit paranoid my mom might come up, thats why.." i said bringing a rather fake smile on my face

"ah,why don't we just text then? lets text!" he said cutting the line before i could reply

*****

i was basically frozen for the next few minutes my mind still wondering what had happen between my mom and the weird man, "who was he? how can he just slap my mom? why didn't mom call 911?" a million questions flooded my mind

i finally snapped out of it only to notice a few texts from namjoon

{ authors P.O.V: this the text conversation between namjoon and carmen}

NAMJOON: hey babe!

what are you doing?

i just cant sleep, i think im high in the memory of our kiss?

babe, u there?

i miss holding you...

baby?

ME: hi, owwh nothing just relaxing in bed, thinking about you....

NAMJOON: hey, ur there i thought u fell asleep or something..

ME: hehhhhe....

NAMJOON: btw, how about breakfast tommorow? im going with some of my guys and were planning a lil suprise for riley.. so.. itll be really cute if can make it, bring marsha too...

ME: ahh!!! thats so sweet, but wont it be weird for us to barge in like that...

NAMJOON: weird?? hahhah....my bros cant wait to wait to meet u, its not weird... u can drop jess off at my place and then we could walk to the resturant togather.. okai?

ME: okai if you say so, cant wait to meet them either!!! ya, ill drop him off at ur place..

NAMJOON: owwh! cool.. so see u at 8 tom mornin? cant wait to see you baby...

ME: yay okai!!! cant wait to see you either bae...

btw, is it okai if i call it a night, im feeling a bit tired.. is that okai? sorry...

NAMJOON: its cool baby, its been a long night, no need to say sorry, sleep tight dont let the bed bugs bite and do dream abt me.. i love you so much!!!

ME: heheh, thankx love... sure will dream abt yah, xoxoxox... love you more!!! goodnyt ;*

NAMJOON: good nyt

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i left my phone on my table, i couldnt exactly call it a night... i slowly went back downstairs, i really couldnt sleep

i went down nobody was there except a few papers lying on the floor, i collected them into a pile and went back to my room...

i slowly went through the papers, i didnt know what they were it was something related to adoption, what had my mom todo with adoption papers...

i looked further but i couldnt come to an exact conclusion to what it was...

i went back down and droped the papers where i found them so mom wouldnt know i found them or went through them,

back in my bed... my mind just reminised

"who was getting adopted?"

"what had that man and my mom to do in an adoption?"