i was still speechless unable to reply or speak to him....

he took my silence as a sign to continue which he did....

"Carmen i love you a lot!!! no words to exactly express how much?!!?!... its something ive been meaning to tell you for a very long but you know ive never exactly gone around the exact words to tell you... i still dont know whether this is the best time to tell you... but at this point its now or never..."

he said staring ryt into my eyes... his eyes glowed in the moonlight like two stars... i was still unable to speak from the incident... at last i gathered the words....

" you love me???" i asked sarcastically a grin just appearing along my lips as a tear accompanied...

"Carmen why wont you just understand? i do love you a lot.... just pls..." he said trying to explain his feelings...

"what do you want me understand namjoon? the fact that ur Casey's boyfriend yet trying to convince me that you love me.... anyone rational wont believe this namjoon... not even you... so dont even try!" i said in muffled voice as tears followed one after one...

i turned around refusing to show my tear flushed face soon there was only silence that took over the room... i just stood there facing the corner trying to stop crying like an infant when a pair of hands wrapped my waist.... it was monnie the distance between me and him reduced as he pulled me closer to him...

he hugged me very tightly as i didnt even have the power to remove his hands from me... he whispered into my ears... "Carmen your mine and only mine!!!"

i looked up at him my crying halted midway... he stared down back at me... as he slowly turned me to face him... he countinued to hug me... as i had no other choice but lean on him... " I love you too" i whispered back a few more tears wetting the chest area of his t-shirt...

i let go of him... realizing i had already fallen for him...

"i maybe yours but your not mine... you never will be namjoon... lets just forget whatever has happen and end this here... pls i really cant handle this conversation anymore"

"Carmen I'm yours.. i will always be... just tell me you love me... and this can be a new beginning for both of us"

"what are you saying namjoon... does this even make any sense to you... you do realize your Casey's boyfriend... isn't that an enough reason to put an end to this namjoon its over..."

"IM NOT CASEYS BOYFRIEND AND NEITHER WAS SHE MY GIRLFRIEND!!! your the only girl ive loved not yesterday or today... but since you bumped into me on the first day of school... ur laughter lifted my spirit within a split second ive loved you ever since... i still do.. and always will..."

"what are you saying namjoon? are you drunk or some shit... not Casey's boyfriend... very believable namjoon...very believable... then do you mind explaining all those rumors abt you and Casey"

" you said it yourself...RUMORS.. me and Casey was nothing but a bunch of rumors which she created... i tried to fight it and then gave up on that becuase you didnt seem to notice me either... i called her up the day we almost kissed and told her its over... she was pissed af... which explains the rumors... Carmen believe me pls!!!

he said extending his hands gesturing me to hug him...

i leaned on him... i fell into his arms... i don't care whether he lied or not... he was mine at this moment and not anyone could change it!!! go to hell with Casey...school and any dipshit...

oh! how good it felt to be in his arms... he hugged me so tight i hugged him back!!! i released my hands from him only to stare into his eyes.. . "i love you namjoon, ur mine and only mine" i said grabbing him by the collar before i pulled him in for a kiss!!!

it was the first fucking time i kissed someone yet it felt so familiar and good... he slowly bit my lower lip as we contined to kiss... he grabbed my waist tighter and pulled me closer...